the butterfly effect

It has been said that something as small as the flutter of butterfly's wing
can ultimately cause a typhoon halfway around the world
(Chaos Theory, The Butterfly Effect Epilog)

I'm supposed to be working on my data now... BUT.. at lunch time.. since I'm home working with it, I ate lunch while watching movie ;) this Butterly Effect movie.. I know.. I know... it's an old movie :p but STILL I like Ashton Kutcher and I haven't had time to watch it before ;)
And now... I am totally distracted from my data.. :((
Anyway... I knew already that whatever I say or do at this moment will affect my tomorrow (or next minute), but this movie kind of showed me extreme examples of the effects and remind me that those things can happen sometimes...

A friend talked to me last night.. he said something that made me said "Did I do anything to cause that??" He answered me with "NO!!!". So either you didn't do anything or you did something, it will lead to one thing... the unexpected... ;)

Now... I need to get back to work... just realising one important thing here.. If I don't start working hard, how the hell am I going to be able to go home as "expected".... ;)

akhirnya...

selesai sudah waktu gue untuk bersenang-senang (baca: kerja part time membanting tulang buat bayar bill akibat keborosan gue :D ), sekarang saatnya untuk kembali berkonsentrasi ke tujuan utama gue ke sini... belajar biar pinteeerrr... hehe.. (baca: pinter cari duit.. hehe)
gimana gue mau pulang cepet kalau thesisnya masih jalan di tempat kayak gini :(( hikksss....

setaon yg lalu... kata Twinny... gue ketemu dia di sudirman ekspress bawa2 blue print PIM2 :p bukan blue print seh... cuma rancangan sistem parkir dan manajemen lalu lintas di dalam PIM dan sekitarnya. Dan gue denger kalau PIM2 udah jadi ya?? terus kata teman gue di kantor... rancangan gue dipake :p ckkk..ckk... sebelumnya gue minta maaf kalau ternyata manajemen lalu lintas yang gue rekomendasikan tidak sesuai dengan harapan para pembaca... :D hehe... atau mungkin nanti pas gue pulang dan jalan ke PIM gue bakal ngomel2 sendiri menjalani hasil rancangan gue... ;)

hari ini gue bisa santai2 di rumah.. just me and my shadow ;) tapi heran!!! giliran gue di rumah dan online sepanjang masa.. kok orang2 ga pada online seeehhhhh... :(( sedihnya diriku...

My forecaster said this:

You can't justify all your actions, especially if the results speak so eloquently for themselves.
If you committed an error, admit it without any fuss and dissembling, and it'll be over before you know it.

Why do I put it here?? Because the last phrase is mine... I mean, not that it is patent by my name, but... I use it quite many times ;)

It'll be over before you know it...

one hectic week had passed...
but here comes another hectic week... :(

udah setaon

tadi siang gue kebagian tugas jemput salah satu mahasiswa baru yg bakalan kuliah di Chalmers juga... (yg notabene ternyata teman gue dari E'97, ketua IME pada masanya :p) terus bareng teman2 gue yg di sini, kita muter2... liat jenis2 apartemen yg dihuni mahasiswa indo di sini and jalan2 ke kota sebentar. cape juga ya ternyata... soalnya kita jalan kaki :D hehe..

jadi ingat pas pertama kali gue sampai di kota ini... suasana yg beda banget...
jadi ingat pinjem hpnya Chris utk sms seseorang (krn hp gue ga cocok sama kartu sini)...
jadi ingat tiap hari punya jadwal jam tertentu buat gantian sama Chris untuk online di YM, just to be able to talk to someone...
jadi ingat senangnya waktu gue tau kalau ada yg mikirin gue... :p
jadi ingat hari2 setelah itu....

hemm.....
ga kerasa gue udah setaun di negeri orang...
some things change... and some do not...
but I guess I change.. for better or worse, that is still the question... ;)

...
Que corazón que no ve
Es corazón que no siente
O corazón que te miente amor
...

(Corazón Partio - Alejandro Sanz)

MERDEKA!!!!!!

17 Agustus tahun empat lima
itu lah hari kemerdekaan kita
hari merdeka, nusa dan bangsa
hari lahirnya bangsa Indonesia
MERDEKA!!
s'kali merdeka tetap merdeka
selama hayat masih dikandung badan
kita tetap sedia, tetap setia
mempertahankan Indonesia
kita tetap sedia, tetap setia
membela negara kita...!!!

(17 Agustus)

ps: correct me if I'm wrong with the lyrics

if it makes you happy, it can't be that bad...
if it makes you happy, then why the hell are you so sad???

(If it makes you happy - Sheryl Crow)

here comes my chaotic and hectic week... :(
hope I can manage everything properly...

ps: For you out there, thanks for the poetry.. It's really nice :) Just a question, is that what you really feel??

pahit

kadang hidup itu pahit... saat kita tahu yang nyata bukanlah yang tampak
kadang hidup itu getir... saat kita tahu yang terasa bukan yang terpancar
kadang hidup itu menakutkan... saat kita hanya bergantung pada seutas benang tipis bernama cinta
kadang hidup itu membingungkan... saat semua hal sudah pada tempatnya, kecuali kita sendiri
kadang hidup itu mencemaskan... saat kita sadar pilihan salah yang telah diambil

tapi hidup terasa membosankan... tanpa ada malunya keliru, sakitnya tertusuk, dan pilunya salah sangka
hidup terasa hambar... tanpa pernah merasakan jantung berhenti berdetak untuk sesaat, satu saat yang terindah dimana dunia ikut berhenti berputar
hidup terasa sepi... tanpa pernah jatuh, terluka dan bangkit lagi
hidup terasa dingin... tanpa rasa sayang, sayang yang kadang tidak disadari telah ada dan menghangatkan hidup, sayang yang tidak mengharap balasan, sayang yang tidak memilih target kasihnya, sayang yang hanya terasa hangat bila satu hati telah terbuka

hal tersulit untuk seorang manusia kecil adalah membuka hati
untuk melihat dengan mata hatinya
untuk mendengar apa yang hanya bisa dirasa
untuk menyentuh yang tak nampak
untuk tahu apa yang tersembunyi
dengan kasih...

Met you once over my lifetime, but I can see that you won't give up on me
I can only say I won't give up on you, not now... not ever...

B'day related pics

31 malem, jalan, makan di kebab, tapi bayar sendiri2 :p hehehe.... gue angkat tangan deh, di sini ga sanggup nraktir orang2 :)


5 hari kemudian, ada rapat mendadak buat ngomongin anak2 indo yang mau datang tahun ajaran baru ini... and... I got a surprise B'day cake :p hehehe... nyam nyam...

MAKASIH ya semuaaaaa!!! ;)

"Linger"

If you, if you could return, don't let it burn, don't let it fade

I'm sure I'm not being rude, but it's just your attitude,
It's tearing me apart, It's ruining everythingI swore,
I swore I would be true, and honey, so did you
So why were you holding her hand? Is that the way we stand?
Were you lying all the time? Was it just a game to you?

But I'm in so deep. You know I'm such a fool for you
You got me wrapped around your finger,
Do you have to let it linger? Do you have to, do you have to,
Do you have to let it linger?...

(The Cranberries)

soundtrack

eh.. lagunya bukan soundtrack hidup gue loh!! :p
cuma lagi eksperimen pasang lagu ;)
nice music, isn't it??