no sign

I asked for some signs...
If I need to stop...

Nothing

I asked for some signs...
If it will be as bad as I can imagine...

Nothing

I asked for some signs...
If it will be difficult...

Nothing

....

Everything just goes well...
And yet, I'm still searching for those signs...
Just to keep me on the average level...not too high, for I can't handle the fall...not too low, for I may not have the srength to climb...
So just average...
but still with no sign for now...
(Then I should start to think that it's a good sign, don't you think? :p)

never stop believing

This date last year...

I stopped something
...something that was not supposed to take place from the start..
...A mistake I knew would be too difficult and complicated for me to handle...
...A lesson of life I learnt through a hard way...

This date last year...

I knew that I did the right thing...
And I knew that I must pay for what I did...
But above all, I knew He won't leave me with my debt without His help...
I knew He will give me what I need to get through my decision, decision made with full consciousness and straight mind...decision that really was (still is) the right thing to do...

I didn't know what He will give...
I didn't know if I will survive...
But now I know...
I know what He has given me to stay sane...
I know that I've paid some of my debt with that as well...
I know that I'm here and I survive...

...
Just don't stop to believe and everything shall be arranged for you to live in peace
...

lebaran ni...

Maaf lahir batin yaaaa...
Lebaran pendek ni.. Penuh dengan perjalanan jauh...

18-19 sept : perjalanan 15 jam ke Solo
19 sept : bersantai dan belanja di Solo
20 sept : lebaran pertama - sungkeman keluarga Solo, nyekar, berhandai-handai, lanjut perjalanan ke Bandung
21 sept : lebaran kedua, sungkem eyang jogja dan bertemu keluarga besar, pulang ke Serpong
22 sept : bersantai di rumah...

Fuiih... Jadwal padat!!
Tapi menyenangkan bertemu saudara2ku tercinta.. :)