too much

gue pengin mengeluh...
tapi buat apa... emang udah begini jalannya...
gue pengin cerita...
toh ngga ada yg bisa dilakukan...
gue pengin ngomel...
udah cape banget selama ini jadi orang yg selalu ngomel...

bottom line is..... gue pengin pulang.... :'(

"...and I'll be more silence than before..."

deadline....

HUAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA...................

free internet...

@ Perkim... :D
wireless and fast connection... yippiiee!!!
unfortunately, there's only one person that I can chat with :'(
where are you guys......??? :'(

5 hour

to my departed time...
Aceh, here I come again.. ;)

suddenly feel tired...

"thanks... for something that's not there anymore...
know this.... I'm always happy if you are..."
(today @14h**)

at last

I'm home for 10 days...

"Never frown... 'cos you will never know who is falling in love with your smile...."

@ Lampuuk Beach

hehehe... c'est moi....

kangeeeeeeennnn

kangen OL....
kangen nomat, nobu, nosa with you....
kangen bebassss....
kangen bisa libur pas weekend and ga mikirin kerjaan...
kangen jalan2 and hang out with all of you guys!!!
kangen olahrasa...
kangen baca buku dengan tenang...
kangen kamar gue....
kangen MELANN!!!! huhuhuhu.....
kangen dinginnya serpong tanpa perlu pake AC :'(
kangen kangen kangen kangen....
kangen semuanyaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa
tunggu gue pulang... dan doa'kan di sini lancar yaaaaa... huhuhu....

with friends @Banda Aceh

Some pics...

kapal ini terdampar di tengah kota Banda Aceh karena tsunami (sumpeehh!! gede banget kapalnyaaaa!!)

(tuuuu kaaaaaan... gede banget.. hehe..)

di pantai Ulee Lhe...

sekilas Aceh

jadi engineer??

yep yep... gue udah di Aceh...
Jauh nian dari pulau gue.. hehe...

Sudah berada di sini sejak tanggal 1 Sept 06...
Sudah bertemu rekan2 satu tim...
Sudah menjelajah Banda Aceh, meskipun belum nyobain naik labi2 (baca: angkot) dan becak motor...
Sudah bertemu Okta hari Sabtu dan bertemu Wanda hari minggu malam...
Sudah ke BRR (huhuhu.. hiksss...)
Sudah hampir "terbang" ditiup angin (sumpah bo!! kenceng beneeeerrrr... dan katanya di Bireun lebih parah... huhu...)
Yang pasti sudah mencoba masakan sini... dan menurut gue... ENAK kok!!!!!!
Asumsi bahwa gue bakal kurus selama di Aceh tampaknya harus direvisi... :p

Terima kasih untuk semua yang sudah sabar menerima berita tentang keberangkatan gue yang selalu gue ralat (baca: akhirnya donkkkkk gue berangkat :p hehehe....)
Maaf untuk yang di saat2 terakhir ngajak jalan dan bertemu... tapi bener2 ga bisa euyy... hikss..

Biggest thanks... untuk yang sudah menemani gue sampai gue jadi berangkat... *hugs*

ummmm....

merci beaucoup mon beau...!!! *wink wink*
untuk menunggu... dan menemani...
*hugs*

pour Tika à Paris

Tika...
hari ini gue dikirimin foto loe dan Maïssa oleh Ando...
huhuhu.. gue jadi terharu... :'(
gue ngeliat foto2 itu pas lagi dengerin lagu yg kebetulan gue lagi suka banget...
makin deh... berkaca-kaca... :)
hmm... kapan ya momen itu gue alamin sendiri...
gue bakalan lebih dari berkaca-kaca kali yaa... huhuhu....

so Tik, this is my gift for you and little Maïssa...

Je serai là
(Teri Moïse)

Oublie tes erreurs et tes peurs
Je les efface
A chaque faux pas que tu feras
Je tomberai à ta place
Mon seul plaisir sera de t'offrir une vie idéale
Sans peine et sans mal

{Refrain:}
J'ai découvert qui je suis
Tout a changé le jour où je t'ai donné la vie
Et si jamais le monde t'es trop cruel
Je serai là toujours pour toi

Que tous tes amours soient sûrs
Tes amis sincères
Pour toi un domaine
Où la haine est la seule étrangère

Je ferai un monde où tout ira bien
Tu seras jamais seul tu manqueras de rien

{Refrain}

Je voudrais pouvoir tout savoir
Pour te donner une vision plus claire
De ce mystère que l'on appelle la vie

Mon seul désir sera de t'offrir une vie idéale
Sans peine et sans mal

{Refrain x2}

(et)J'ai découvrt qui je suis
Tout a changer le jour ou je t'ai donné la vie
Et si jamais le monde t'es trop cruel
Je serai là toujours pour toi

macetnya Jakarta...

Hari ini gue cape banget!!
Agenda resmi cuma 1, ketemuan di CCF

Mari dimulai...

Berangkat dari rumah jam 10 pagi n berhubung gue malas menyetir (dan keputusan gue memang tepat!!) gue naik kendaraan umum dari rumah menuju CCF di Salemba. And guess what, gue baru sampe di cafè CCF jam 1 siang!!!! gile bangeeeeeettt!! Dari Ciputat sampai di samping RSCM... maceeeeeeettttt semua!! Huhuhu... Mestinya janjian ketemu jam 11 dan gue telat 2 jam!! (baca: gue sering telat sih, tapi belum pernah separah ini... :'()
Setelah itu ngobrol plus ngadem di CCF sampai jam 2-an (bayangin... gue menuju ke sana 3 jam dan "cuma" ketemuan selama 1 jam...)

Setelah itu menuju ke arah selatan... tadinya mau ke Plaza Semanggi, tapi setelah dipikir2 lagi bakalan parah kalau pulang kesorean (baca: jam pulang kantor daerah Sudirman yg gila2an). Akhirnya kami (karena gue ada yg menemani... thank God!!) langsung melanjutkan perjalanan ke PIM. Dengan asumsi, lebih dekat untuk pulang ke rumah dan macetnya juga ga lama... :)
Sampai di PIM jam 4an sore... ngobrol2 (baca: kami langsung menuju food court dan pesan makanan... hehe.. ternyata macet berdampak pada perut juga...)
Agenda PIM ini lebih baik, karena perjalanan 2 jam dari Salemba terbayar dengan ngobrol2 selama 3 jam di sana :) hehe..
Sampai di rumah pas jam 9 malam... phewww....
Senangnya...!!
Sampai di rumah gue yg sejuk... bertemu Melan yg sedang sakit dan kangen berat sama gue... (pas gue pulang tadi, dia tampak senang sekali bertemu... huhuhu...*terharu*)

Untuk dirimu... ;)
Terima kasih untuk ngobrol2nya hari ini....
untuk kesabarannya mengurai benang kusut....
untuk mendengarkan dan mengungkapkan....
untuk berpanas2 di dalam bis....
untuk menemani gue berjalan kaki....
untuk mengerti kalau "gue masih belum terbiasa (banget) hawa panas Jakarta.. huhuhu..."
DAN....
untuk hari yg melelahkan tapi menyenangkan ini...

I'm glad..

'coz you're back... ;)
*deep hugs*

Kebun Raya Bogor

"Sen... gue bete nih...!! long weekend ga bisa kemana2... ga jadi ke Bandung, ga bisa ngapa2in...!!"
"Hmm... ke Kebun Raya yuks!"
"Boleh.....boleh.... :D "

So, we were there at Kebun Raya Bogor ;) -me, Veri, Lisbeth 'n Alex-
from 11h00 until 16h00 (means that I left home at around 09h00)
then we continued the trip to Monas :D
back home at almost 23h00
hehehe...
judulnya jalan2 seharian bo!!!
Dan pulang sampe rumah (seperti biasa) sedikit diomelin :p hehe..

Sedikit bukti perjalanan kami...

MERDEKA!!!!!!

....
hari lahirnya bangsa Indonesia...
M E R D E K A!!!!
....

(17 Agustus)

uno día

...

Ay amor,
me duele tanto... me duele tanto...

...

(La tortura - Shakira)

cette nuit

tu n'es plus là...
mais j'ai tes mémoires... pour toujours...
je ne vais pas les oublier...
merci pour toi!!! ;)

Tu

....
You treat me like I'm a princess
I'm not used to liking that
You ask how my day was

You've already won me over in spite of me
And don't be alarmed if I fall head over feet
Don't be surprised if I love you for all that you are
I couldn't help it
It's all your fault
.....

(Head Over Feet - Alanis Morissette)


Je ne sais pas pourquoi... Je sais justement que j'aime bien si tu es là
Même si je sais que tu ne seras pas toujours là

I'll wait...

Waiting is such a boring activity...
"Waiting is not so nice!"
for any kind of things to be waited, that rule still apply..
Waiting for: Explanation... work... person... call... sms... E-mail... news... etc.
Especially when we really need to know... about something or someone or even situation...
Waiting in uncertainty is the worst...
Waiting in confussion is not a better thing...
I don't really like waiting although sometimes I don't mind if I have to do it.

Yesterday, I waited... several things only from one person: sms, certainty of an appointment, news about well-being, a call... and guess what... nothing!!
Then I remember, I had failed our appointment several times... I had kept him waiting many times... and he didn't mind... :)
Well, I didn't exactly feel upset about the waiting... worry is more suitable word for what I felt...
So if I felt that, he probably felt the same when he was waiting for me... (doubt it though :p coz I'm far from capable to take care of myself...)

Hmm... *hesitating*
Hope it's not too late ;)
Thanks for the waiting... Sorry for the troubles...

idle

Lagi OL aja...
Cuma chat, krn tadi pagi udah OL utk cek imel...
Menunggu kepastian keberangkatan gue ke pulau seberang yang ternyata tertunda2 dengan berbagai alasan yg menurut gue kadang2 ngga jelas!!! Huhuhuhu.... :'(
Biarpun begitu... kalau kata orang jawa seh... itu murih becik'e.... emang udah yg terbaik...
Gue bisa lebih lama di rumah...
Lebih lama merawat Melan dan Stela dan Cokie dan Bogel...
Btw, Melan juga lagi menemani gue OL nih... :p hehehe.. tertidur di samping kursi gue... :)
Sore ini mendung... tadi sempat gerimis...
Hari ini mestinya bisa nobu (baca: nonton rabu), tapi berhubung yang biasa diajak nosa dan nobu punya acara lain... ga jadi deh... :'( padahal acara lainnya itu juga ternyata ngga jadi... Huhuhu... Tapi waktunya emang udah ngga cukup sih..
Jadi ya sudah.. di rumah saja... memandikan Melan dan Stela, membersihkan rumah mereka (padahal kamar gue masih berantakan juga), bermain2 dengan kamera berlensa tele :p... akhirnya chatting deh...

di kantor hari ini

jam 20.00
menu makan malam setelah rapat koordinasi:

bahan2:
semangkok telur - dikocok
sepiring tepung terigu
air secukupnya

cara memasak:
tuangkan telor perlahan2 pada tempat yg telah disediakan
lanjutkan dengan menuangkan tepung terigu
tunggu reaksi yang terjadi....

hasil:
Rose siap untuk dimasukkan ke dalam oven!!!


Huhuhuhuhu.... Hikss..hiksss....
Masa sehhh?!!! Gue!! Udah umur berapa nih!!
Masih aja kena dikerjain pake telor dan tepung terigu...
HUAAAA... sama orang2 kantor pulaaaaaa....
HERRRAAAANNN!!!!

Tapi ga papa sih...
tandanya banyak orang yang sayang dan perhatian sama gue!!!
Huehehe... :P

C'est moi....

It's me...

et c'est mon jour!!! ;)
and it's my day!!! ;)

Merci beaucoup pour toi...
Thank you so much for you...

qui m'a chuchoté le première message quand je dormais
who "whisphered" the first message when I was asleep
.... et après, m'a appellé jusqu'à toujours :p
.... and after, called me until forever :p

qui m'a appellé
who called

qui m'a envoyé des messages par sms ou E-mail ou "Friendster"
who sent messages by sms or email or Friendster

qui me rappele toujours bien que tu sois loin ;)
who always remember me although you're so far away ;)


Merci!!!! Je vous aime!!!

Falling in Love again

Soundtrack blog gue untuk sementara waktu ini...
starts from today ;)
Lyrics?? here you go...!!

Funny thing is...
After I put this song here, I visited Chris's blog
And you know what??? :D
Check it for yourself... *wink wink*

......

So I guess,
beside it's ability to join forces and do great amazing things,
Leo's people......
can be thinking about the same thing also... :D

huehehe....
Miss you Chris!!!

Bersawah di Pasir Mukti, Bogor

Acara ulang tahun Pamiwahan Putera Pangestu bulan Juli 2006
Harusnya sih yang bersenang2 para adik2 asuhanku...
tapi.... ga papa donk kalau pengasuhnya ikut bergulung lumpur!!
huehehe...
So, here we go...

[Ros menanam padi...]


[balok kesetimbangan dgn rintangan berat]

[dan terjatuhlah....]

[tarik tambang lumpur]

Göteborg

kangen capoeiraaaaa...
kangen hang out pas weekend...
kangen duduk2 di taman sambil menikmati matahari...
kangen lari2 ngejar tram krn telat bangun...
kangen ketemu Simon di .... (astaga!! gue lupa namanyaaaa)... oiya, di Korsvägen :)
kangen goncengan naik sepeda sama Kostia...
kangen minum kopi dan makan cake bareng Stéph dan Jenny...
kangen bercanda sama Vasilis dan Yaser...
kangen dimintain tolong sama Hector, tetangga apartemen, cowo yang bisa juga jadi loyal ke temannya meskipun selalu minta tolong supaya ga ketauan nge2in (atau 3 atau 4 ya :p) cewe...
kangen diajarin spanyol sama Alex dan mengganggu dirinya yg sangat baik hati itu...
kangen main ke tempat kak Ida dan makan2 enak di sana....
kangen ngetok kamarnya Chris trus cerita2 sampai lupa waktu...
kangen ngajak tante makan siang mendadak...
kangen masak bareng Pipit dan diprotes mas Indra...
kangen barbecue sama mas Kompiang dan mba Kadek...
kangen renang gratis di Studenthem...
kangen teh susu buatan Erlang...
kangen jalan2 sama Nimbus pas salju turun...
kangen makan kebab bareng Chris meskipun kita tau lagi bokek berat dan ga mampu beli kebab :D
kangen Afterwork tiap jumat... free food for 1 glass of drink...
kangen belanja2 ke Brunnsparken...
kangen big hugs dari teman2 gue di sana...

hari ini.... gue kangen Göteborg...
Göteborg waktu gue masih di sana krn sekarang teman2 gue juga udah banyak yang ngga tinggal di sana lagi... Hiksss...

hari ini

setaon yang lalu... 21 Juli 2005
gue duduk sendirian di apartemen kecil gue.. menatap komputer gue.. surfing ke blog Rani dan menemukan website ini.. dan lalu mulailah gue iseng mencoba ;)
membatalkan latian capoeira gue untuk acara dinner sama ex ibu kost gue di rumahnya (dinner sekalian pelatihan buat jadi pelayan utk acara merid anaknya :p huehehe... anything for the money... hehe :p )

dua taon yang lalu... sekitar juli 2004
gue lagi dekat dengan seseorang gara2 kejahilan gue mengganggu dirinya :p
muter2 cari Euro bareng (his charity for my benefit :p), nganterin gue cari sepatu, nemenin gue ditraktir :p pokoknya had so much fun together ;) didn't we?? :)

tiga taon yang lalu...
ngga begitu inget sih... ngga ada catatan ataupun log apapun...
yg berarti.. ga ada yg spesial (except for my B'day, of course!). palingan gue sibuk di kantor :) hehe..

empat taon yang lalu... dan seterusnya...
masa2 penuh intrik dan kebodohan2 :)
yang mestinya sih gue ingat dan gue ambil pelajarannya supaya ngga terulang lagi...
tapi.... hemm... susah juga untuk diingat... (short memory capacity mode: ON)

terusss.......
kenapa gue mengingat2 hari ini di taon2 lalu?? or at least bulan ini...??

pertama, krn ultah gue di bulan ini ;) jadi buat yg lupaaaa... CATAT!!! :D

kedua, krn banyak cerita yg dimulai bulan ini... banyak?? :p hueuehee.. plisss deh... (exagerating mode:ON)

ketiga, krn banyak cerita yg berakhir di bulan ini... (exagerating mode:OFF)

keempat, karenaaaaaa.....
bulan ini biasanya gue merasa banyak banget orang yang sayang sama gue....!!!!!!!!

Friday, July 14, 2006.... A memory...

01:16 pm
Love you more for today...!!!

By just being there for 5 minutes with the books... with the smile... and with your tired eyes (since you haven't slept since yesterday).

I come to the point to understand that I actually don't want anyone else to carry my burden, but just to have someone to be by my side ;)
even if they're not talking and just being there in silence :)

and you said, "love me more (only) for today?! poor me :'( "

Huehehe.... :D

I said, "Not a chance my friend... love you more everyday... just like you said"

Thanks for your nice companion lately and for saving each other days everytime!!! ;)

cute flower...

Hemmmm....
Yes, I know....
HE loves me for sure ;)
Anyone else? :p *wink wink*

heaven and earth

man: "God, I have this opportunity here.. Not exactly what I want, but still is an opportunity for me to choose... What should I do? Move it closer to me please, if it's the right one"
God: "......."
man: "It's getting close... should I take it or not, with all that hesitation that I feel??"
God: "......."
man: "Please God.... Just give me some signs!!"
God: "......."
man: "Ok, now I get another opportunity... Is that a sign from You or not??!!!"
God: "......."
man: "Getting more of that hesitation here... hallooooo??"
God: "......."

* All the choices and opportunities are out there for you, pick one and you've chosen your path
* Confusions happen sometimes :) But it's yours to decide. Beside, it's you who have to live your life anyway ;)
* Don't expect Him to give all the obvious clue for you. Work for one!! But don't just jump into conclusion (read: thoughtless one, by the way)
* From my language: Yen wania ing gampang, wedia ing ewuh... Samubarang ora bakal tumeko
* Donc, Bonne chance!!

no me ames...

World Cup 2006

one sms:
----------------------------
Italy goes to final honey ;p
From : D***B****
4:33am 5/7/06
----------------------------

one very good news when I woke up today ;)
thanks for the sms!!!! ^_^ and the "early morning" chat before that... ;)

will tomorrow be

just another day.....??

or will it be

a big turn upon your whole life....??

....
.....
......
........
..........
.............

I'd say.....

whatever will be... will just gonna be...

* For a friend...

......
My mama said,

You can't hurry love
No, you'll just have to wait
She said love don't come easy
But it's a game of give and take
You can't hurry love
No, you'll just have to wait
Just trust in a good time
No matter how long it takes
......

(You Can't Hurry Love - Phil Collins)

... on your uncertainty

sayang itu...

yang tulus dari hati...
yang terucap tanpa diminta...
yang terasakan tanpa batasan...
yang terpancar menghangatkan batin...
yang memberi tanpa mengharap kembali...

bukan hanya terurai oleh kata...
bukan terjadi karena diharuskan...
bukan hanya kewajiban dari suatu ikatan...
bukan pula yang takut-takut untuk menunjukkan...

* untuk seseorang... Who oncE care so much for me... although you're in A position of "only frienD"
thank you so much...!!!
for letting me understand that if you truly care, it will be on the air around you...
for letting me feel the struck of warm electricity when you only asked how I'm doing...
miss u...

happiness arrives

by mean of different things... different person... different situation...
on a time when you least expected
on a place where it's unlikely to occur
it comes...

and you just have to be grateful that it does...

PS. Thanks for everyone who allows yourself to smile while I was around. That's my biggest source of happiness, to be able to make you smile ...

one week at Yogyakarta as a volunteer...

..............................
.........................
....................
...............
...........
.......
....
..
.
It doesn't make you a hero...

kriiingg...

received calls:
+6221...
1:13am 27/5/06
00:06:55

"lagi ngapain??"
"lagi tidur. kenapa?"
"ngga papa. mau bangunin aja..."
"gue ga mau buka mata neh... mau tidurrrr... capee"
"ya udah gue tunggu sampe loe buka mata"
"iseng amat sih.. gue tidur lagi yaaa...."
"iya...."

* dialog yg sedikit dipersingkat (karena agak lupa detailnya-red), tanpa mengubah inti percakapan

Meaningless conversation??
* the content of the conversation -- not important
* the time of call -- very disturbing
* the reason of calling:
1. just to hear the voice --> very meaningful and kind of sweet
2. just for fun --> completely meaningless
3. emergency call --> not likely, see point "content of conv."

conclusion???
.....

earthquake

This morning at Yogyakarta and around....

Let's pray for the victims...
and help them in any way with the strength that we have...

Je vous present...

MELAN ....

for the ones whom I care a lot...

....
I thought I could live in your world
As years all went by
With all the voices I've heard
Something has died
....
Don't Cry (alt lyrics) - Guns N' Roses

Love hurts, Love scars, Love wounds' and mars
Any heart not tough or strong enough
To take a lot of pain, take a lot of pain
Love is like a cloud, it holds a lot of rain
....
Love Hurt - Nazareth

"Never fear 'cause He's here to answer your query
Don't shed a tear for He shall heal the injured"

night out

abis jalan sama "lulusan" kantor lama gue plus satu orang yg masih kerja di sana :D
ga jauh2, cuma makan aja... tapi menentukan tempatnya itu loohhh...
berangkat dari rumah jam 5 sore (jemput Rina dulu di Citos, trus ke Kuningan ketemu yg lain), baru mendarat di "restoran" Menteng jam stengah 9 malem :p
susah juga ya kalau dari awal belum dipastikan mau kemana
untung sopir kita baik :p hehe... thanks ya Lex!!
pulangnya mampir Setiabudi building dulu.. ke parkirannya maksud gue :D
soalnya mobil gue ditaroh di situ, secara (ampun deh gue.. ketularan gaya ngomong "secara" gini.. :p ), sekali lagi, secara kita cuma ber-5, jadi ga efektif banget plus buang2 bensin kalau pake dua mobil. selain itu, alasan terpenting adalah... ga bisa saling mencela!! huehehe..
senang juga......
udah pada "mapan" nih sejak lulus dari kantor lama :D berarti tinggal gue donk..
ayo semangat!! semangat!! :D

well, it was a nice meeting ;) and I guess we'll meet again soon.. for another treat...
next would be... movies and sea food... my favorite ;)

...

kemarin Macan kembali bertunggal dengan penciptanya
jam 15.00 di RSH Ragunan :'(
cek darahnya menunjukkan kalau dia kekurangan darah merah...
malamnya, dia dijemput untuk dikuburkan di makam keluarga (samping rumah-red)
malam itu juga Melan diperiksa di RSH dengan gejala sama yaitu muntah2 dan diare
dokter bilang dia pucat sekali.. hasil cek darahnya sama dengan Macan: anemia
gara2 apa?? ternyata gara2 CACING TAMBANG!!!
kayaknya satu rumah mesti pembasmian cacing nih...
ga cuma hewan peliharaan, tapi yg punya juga :)
anyway, Melan masih bertahan...
hopefully she'll survive...

je suis triste...

siang tadi, si item kecil mati... :'(
sakit sejak hari jumat kemarin...
sempat terlihat sehat, tapi pada akhirnya tetap ngga mau makan... :'(
but she died like she was asleep...
I guess her duties in this world had been fulfilled

macan juga sakit, nyusul adiknya...
sampai saat ini si macan juga masih lemah, ngga mau makan...
coklat-putih dan si hitam udah diadopsi orang kemarin...
jadi sekarang melan sendirian di luar...
ada stela dan memey sih, tapi tetap aja sepi tanpa saudara2nya...

hikss...
je suis vraiment triste...
apalagi tadi abis liat video waktu mereka masih lengkap...
hueee...
wis..wis.. gue sign off dulu aja :'(

greatest sense of humour

tonight someone reminded me
about who has the greatest sense of humour...
who can makes us laugh not only at that moment, but long after that
who can makes a very simple joke seems complicated at a time
who can makes you spend years and more years to understand the jokes
who knows that the jokes won't be funny for you unless you have a very big heart to understand them, and despite that knowledge, still plants the jokes everywhere at any time

but still.. the jokes continue... and the humour spreads...

for a friend...
whom I have not talked to, in such a way as tonight, for a very long time...
thanks for the reminder that the Highest Power has a truly great taste of humour

Girl from Mars

Do you remember the time I knew a Girl From Mars?
I don't know if you knew that
...
.....
...
Today I sleep in the chair by the window,
It felt as if you’d returned
I thought that you were standing over me,
When I woke there was no-one there
I still love you, girl from.. Mars
...
...

by: Ash

just a blast from the past that I watch today on a music channel in television...
one of many soundtracks of my life

1 down, 4 more to go...

(since one of the 6 should be ours.. :p)














there he goes... my little brown puppy...
hope you're with a nice family that loves you...

little things with paws...

cute but fierce
adorable but unpredictable

prayer by mistake?

ever realised that what you said might happen although it's not intentionly?
ever noticed that what you do or say is somewhat like a prayer which may come true??

notice this...
on March 9th, 06.
I wrote that I have 10 dogs. Tiny mistake of calculation since 7 + 1 + 1 + 2 equal to 11.
and how many do I have now?? 10 dogs...!! :'(
one of the puppies died when it was no more than 1.5 weeks old.

coincidence or "prayer by mistake"??
I'd never know for sure...

trick or treat

sometimes you lift me up, and then sometimes you bring me down
I wonder what you're gonna do each time I turn my back around
you're either devil or an angel, a Jekyll or a Hyde
trick or treat... bitter or sweet...

the day that we first met, I didn't know what to expect
and so I fell in love with you and now my mind is just a wreck
depending on the mood you're in, you're either good or you're bad
trick or treat... bitter or sweet...

tell me why you're fooling with my mind
I'm either way up front or far behind
it's up or it's down and I love being around
when it's high up in the sky

but when it's low you bring me down and I don't know what's going on
I don't want changes from a boy that I just can't depend upon
you either love me or you don't
you either will or you won't
trick or treat... bitter or sweet...

(sang by: Nikka Costa)
- song from teenage-hood that can still applied anytime-

puppies!!

7 puppies were born on 8th of March.
The first one came out at 00.05, and the rest came afterwards.
The process was completed in 6 and a half hours later.
Memey was in great pain and exhausted... but she managed it very well.



















So now, there are 10 dogs in my house ;)
7 very cute little ones, their mother (Memey), their big sister (Stela), and my two other dogs (Cokie & Bogel)

Memey

have a week off from the course this week
I thought I can have some relaxing time
but nooo... I have to take care of a pregnant dog
and not just a dog... it's Memey!!

FYI, Memey is the mother of my brother's dog, Stela
She is not mine, of course, since it's too expensive for me to have those kind of dogs as pet (the food, the veterinarian, etc), considering that I'm incomeless for the moment :P. They're the APBT. She belongs to one of our friends whose wife just recently delivered their second child. I'm sure it will be too much for him to think about the dog, while he, himself, is too busy taking care of his wife and little daughter.
Anyway, back to Memey...

I never knew how my dogs (regular dogs) delivered their puppies before since they just showed up in the morning, those little things with paws.
I didn't even know if my dogs had some trouble or pain when delivering them.
Bottom line is, actually, perhaps I don't care on how it happens, I'm just happy about the result (read: puppies).
But this one.... I have to care.... :'( Since it is entrusted to me (actually, it's not my responsibilities.. but my brother's... but he's working and currently I'm not... so I'm home most of the time, with those dogs, obviously)
I just read some stuff about pregant dogs on the internet, seems like it's complicated
So many things to do, to watch over and to care for... :'(
I just hope Memey is experienced enough about this, since it will be her third times...

to work or not to work

cari kerja... terus kerja....???
atau belajar dulu... baru cari kerja... terus kerja...???
crucial choice :(
kadang2 gue berpikir gue harus kerja...
berarti gue sebenarnya masih belum mau kerja donk...
tapi cuma terdorong oleh situasi dan kondisi doank...
kalau gitu, yg bagus itu sebenarnya gimana sih??
kerja karena emang suka.. kerja karena butuh.. atau kerja karena terpaksa.. ??
hemm.... saatnya untuk berpikir :)

...sigh...

compare toothache and heartbreak?
why do some people do that?!!
both situations are the same...
painful as hell flame.. (yeahh... right... like I've been there myself :p)
both of them distract your concentration, reduce your appetite and also possible reason for headache...
very annoying indeed...!!
however, they have a positive damage...
it can be helpful for those who are in diet ;)
don't you think so?? :)

waiting for the rain

was headed home after class, but caught by the "not so heavy" rain
in a thought that I should learn more "french" and that I could catch the first 'nice' train home at 16h00, I stay here
what am I doing?? free internet!!! my favourite, of course :p
I might even consider staying longer next time just to read my friend's blog :p
couldn't open my email though (or at least I don't try to do it, since there's this warning infront of me saying that this internet connection is only for french sites !@#!$ and not for personal usage -- and I don't consider blogging is personal usage :p)
anyway, my point of waiting for the rain might become useless... since the dark cloud is still out there... probably waiting for my appearance out from the shelter and then... start pouring its cold water heavily on me..
well.... at least I'm blogging for free :p

25 messages

bad idea!!!
sending 25 message at the same time in order to save time and energy
"only" 25 since it was the maximum limit...
while I need to send more message to my friends, my mobile number is not working properly at the present (of course it's because of the smart "25 msg for time saving" idea)
I think I just crashed my number... :(
another bad thing is that I'm expecting replies from all 25 messages
which since 30 minutes ago, I only got one reply...
meaning that...
most likely I can't receive those replies...
once again... bad and stupid idea!!

lesson to learn today: patient!!!

don't let time to be the boss of you, let yourself to be the boss to control time

powerless

what strength do we have, if not because of the greatest power
in which we only borrow a tiny bit of its glory
only if you're close to the source...

three days of walking without strength
ready to collapse at any time... anywhere..
realizing that I'm not that close to the source
but one thing for sure...
the source will not withdraw its presence from me
although I'm just another creature in the universe

rambut baruku...

ancuurr abisssssss...!!!!
baru aja pulang dari potong rambut karena gue udah sebel sama rambut gue yang ngga jelas
niatnya sih cuma mau dirapiin dan ngga dipendekin, tapi kok jadi kayak gini ya?? :P
and guess what?!
tadi mba-nya nawarin gue buat potong rambut gaya Agnes Monica, sekalian juga rambutnya dicat kayak dia...
HUAAAAAAAAA......!!!!
bisa dianggap sebagai penghinaan, kalau ternyata mba2 itu ngga suka sama Agnes, yg notabene berarti dia mengusulkan sesuatu yg dia anggap jelek untuk gue
bisa juga dianggap pujian, kalau dia anggap gayanya Agnes asyik, dan berarti gaya gue asyik juga donk!! hehe... (padahal cuma T-shirt, jeans dan sandal jepit :P)
apapun itu, gue jadi tersanjung...
karena berarti tampang gue masih seumuran sama Agnes!!
huehehe.... parah!!

soulmate lagi

ternyata...
kayaknya bukan deh ;)
guess it was a false alarm

fatigué

today, everything started at 06h30 and finished at 23h00
at the finish line, I was so tired...
but still, I'm online right now...
writing something on my blog
something that's not really important to anyone else but me...
today!!
* exercised some capoeira kicks, which made me realize that I should train more often... :( but "time" is still the main issue here...
* one of my best friend got engaged. I wasn't there to witness it, but my camera was :)
* spending the whole afternoon to cross half of Jakarta area, just to trade something that I bought yesterday but ridiculously got mixed up and I ended up with the wrong item. I wouldn't be so keen to exchange it if not for the reason that the wrong item was so useless for me :(
* however, I had two good companies during my so called trip today. thanks guys!! Thank you very much for your kindness to drive the car ;)
* my cousin got lost in South of Jakarta and I had to pick her up on my way home from the trip
* got back in time to hit the shower and get ready for a marriage reception. Yes, tonight was Asti and Dolli's night and tomorrow will be Edy and Anit's day :) great party! huge one :D
And now... I need my sleep...
have to wake up early tomorrow because it won't be just another lazy day...

youngster

you know that I'm not that old... but recently, I've been hanging around with some young people since we're in the same language class.
And Oh My God!! Seems like I'm half of a century old :p well, not really..
Actually I don't feel old at all. A point that I might should start to think about :D
They're really funny sometimes and I really like them :D
It's fun, you know... to take a break from all the troubles that people my age (ohh... please don't say that...) tend to get themself mixed in the circle of never ending thought.

Speaking of never ending thought... how would you feel if your fiancé break the bind when you've already set up a date?? devastated??
I won't be surprise if you do...
but what will you do if just in a short time, you become the reason for someone to break his/her bind?? the same situation, but this time, you're the bad person...
for revenge?? pure love?? other reasons??
any reason will still lead to only one thing.. you have made other feels the feeling that you yourself hate to be in one
I still believe, that everything that's not well started may have difficulties to have good ending also...
so it will be just a question of strength, how strong you can handle the coming obstacles....

comment ça va mon ami? ;)

Happy New Year 2006!
Selamat Tahun Baru 2006!!

May good things come in the coming year...