pitbull

Watched a film about 2 dogs and a cat this morning...
One of the dog is a pitbull and looked like Melan...
I miss her... :)

Goodbye Melan

Just two days ago I lost my dear dog.... Melan...
She was trying to jump over the fences, as she always did... but the leash was too short so it took her to her final resting place...

She's my only dog that I took care of from a puppy...
She almost died when she was 2 months old...
her siblings died, running out of blood because those Necator worms sucked up their blood... She was dying too...
I had her everyday on hand for medicine and food, and promised myself that I will take good care of her if she survive... and she did...

She became a healthy dog of no fear (except of me :p), full of energy and no trace of feeling any pain what so ever... This last one of course because she's a pitbull which is known as dog who understand no pain.
She had a several bloody fight with her big sister, but she didn't feel a thing... And it was just left me screaming seeing all those blood from both dogs...

She's not easy to handle sometimes, but she understood me or any other member of my family when we were sad or not in the good mood...
She seems to try to cheer everyone up every time she has the chance... even my little niece who's not yet 2 years old... Anyone would see it as frightening scene to see a small child with a big dog like her... but she won't ever harm her... it's a proven fact...
I won't cover the fact that she's quite stubborn as well.. especially when it comes to cat... -wonder if this cat vs dog will keep on going forever-
She's also quite naughty and is able to destroy many many things at home... :p
BUT... she's also afraid of the thunder... :)

She'd be 5 years old next year... A grown up at the human age...

I was supposed to take her from my parents home to my own house after the marriage, but there were several reason why we're not able to do it... One of them is that I was not in a good shape to handle an energetic pitbull during my first trimester...
I believe that everything happens for a reason.... even this incident...
I believe that there was reason why she survived the Necators and was there by my side for almost 5 years...
I believe that her presence in my family has given each one of us a memory to remember... a good one... and that we also learn a lot from it...
I believe that it's her time to leave us now...

Farewell Melan... Be in peace....
You know I'll love you always...
And I shouldn't shed a tears again now because I did that on the day you died... endlessly...
I know that you can understand why I'm not supposed to be sad anymore
I'll tell him the story about you when he's born later... I'm pretty sure he'll love you as much as I do...

week by week

Wow!! It's October already... I have left September empty... just like that.. :p

Baby news...
Everything seems to be fine... still copping with the vomiting, although it's getting much better now
Although there are still some days when I just have to vomit so hard that it feels like I'm emptying my stomach, and then collapse the next day - not literally :p, but just feel very weak. The good side is.. it's manageable now... I don't feel weak all day like before because I can always eat better in the afternoon after those bad days..

The doctor said that the baby is moving actively inside.. well, no wonder I feel quite sick.. someone is jumping around inside my stomach and you don't expect yourself to get sick?! please... :D *kiss baby kiss*
I've always been a sleeper... sleeping anywhere and anytime...
but with the baby, it's just getting worse... more and more!! haha... so fun!! :))

Work update...
I can work from home and come to the office twice a week, or more if needed :D this is nice, considering my condition last month ;) I have to admit that I'm a bit slow with work now... but I'm trying hard here...
Not so easy to work and to vomit at the same time :p but I get a lot of support from my husband... (love you!)
He drives me to work and pick me up again if I need to be at the office, and if you may not know, but his office and my office is very far apart... an hour drive if you're lucky... - since my office've just moved to another building which is located in the center of traffic jam!

Gossip update...
hmm... I'm a bit isolated from this one :p
we'll see if I can write anything this October and if anything is interesting enough to be written :p

strong baby

Wow... this is new to me!!
I'm getting myself weak for a baby!
Never thought that I'll be this weak when I have one, but this surely drains up all my energy... So I guess the baby is a strong one... ;)
Please stay healthy dear baby and help me keep up with your needs... :-*

B'day

hey! I missed my B'day on my blog. That rarely happens... :p
I'm 31 years and 5 days old now ;) haha...
With all the things happen lately, I forgive myself for not writing anything on my blog :p
Lack of time, lack of sleep, lack of many things... but on top of those things, I'm very happy :D

If you remember my post about resolution here, it all comes in stages... eventually...
A house, a dog (coming soon), and next one... :p
Let's hope everything is going to work well for me, that I'll always be healthy and strong to take this next one ;)
May God bless us always.. amen...

ps. Chris, I may not able to visit you on April if this one comes through, but wish all the best for me please :)

one by one

this resolution is truly realised..
step by step...
with all the hard works and all the efforts ...

We are now officially married... :) 26 June was our day.....
We now live in a small house, near a water channel (not in front of it though like what I've drawn before :p), and I'll bring Melan soon to our little house... And who knows what will be next... ;)

Let's hope our day and our way will always be blessed by the Owner of the Universe...

mendadak melow

kenapa yaaaaaa....???
it's less than 2 weeks already!!!
time goes by so fast :)
hope everything will be okay...

counting down starts now...
at 10...

menghitung hari

ternyata udah kurang dari sebulan ya...
cepet juga :p
sejauh ini masih lancar...
pusing? pastinya...
berantem besar? kejadian juga... hiksss...
senang dan gembira? itu sih udah ga perlu ditanya lagi ya... :)

above all, I'm happy...
happy that God blesses us always, in all the things that we did...
happy that we have a great family and friends...
happy to know that it won't be another easy journey, but it will be a journey for the best of us together... for both of us to bring what's best inside...


happy to count the days... when it won't be you or me... but it'll be us...

blogging

time goes by so fast...
and I've been blogging for almost 6 years!!! :p
9 days from today, it'll be exactly 6 years.... :)

lots of tears of sad and happiness
lots of smiles and joys
lots of unpredictable things that I didn't know will happen
and those are just tiny trace of my life, as I will embrace a new chapter.... soon.... ;)

what's going on?

haven't blogged for quite a long time...
no time to do it when I'm connected to the internet with my laptop, but my blackberry doesn't seem to cooperate when I feel like blogging... I wonder if it's because of the internet browser version in the device *sigh*

Anyway...
what's going on?

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I'm engaged now ;)
as per today, that is...

(never thought that I'll finally get to that stage, huh? :p me too!!)

it's been a while and life's not getting easier... ;)

tu me manque...

beaucoup...
de plus en plus...
mais tu es tres occupe... je sais...

so I'm grateful for tonight...
that you've spent it with me...
and for tomorrow...
that you'll spend it with me again...
and for every time God says it's okay for us to spend time together :-*

and February went by without a trace...
but I know that I'm truly blessed...

reality bites

Have you ever been laid off?

It has never occured to me that I would experience that...
But here I am...
With a news coming from our own COO that our office is going to be closed, thus all employees working there will have their contract terminated.

Hey, I'm a permanent employee here! But if there's no office then permanent or contractual term will only differ in the package. Still... Jobless is the title for both...

It's not the work...nor the money... It turns out that I care more about the friendship that grew in the office.
I'm the kind of person who believe that God will never abandon me (us), so I'm not worry about what I'll do next...there will always be something to do to pay the bills :) I just need to work harder to get it ;)

I spent a couple of days in a very moody atmosphere... Cloudy...and a bit dark...
What I'd miss the most are the colleagues that have become my friends, good friends...
Everyone will split out, find each own way to continue living...
Damn, I'd miss you guys a lot!!!

I'm sure I'll come across you guys in the future, but I'm really going to miss all the laughs, fun, gossips, and the presence...

All starts well should ends well...
So let's give our best for these last days...
And good luck for all of you!!

berhitung

Tambah... kurang...
Kali... bagi...
Banyak sekali angkanya...

Shock!!
Kok bisa banyak?!
Ngomel sejenak...
Gimana caranya bisa berkurang?!

Menyerah...
Berhenti meneliti...
Nanti saja dipikir dan dilihat lagi...

Tapi... Kok pipinya basah?!!
Karena hasil berhitung atau karena alasan menghitungnya?

Jangan sedih sayang, semua akan baik-baik saja...

*for the one*
-thank you-

comment deletion

Remember I said that I'm using a new tool for the comments? Yes it's in here
But after awhile (5 years to be exact), they decide to remove their free services.
I've looked around the net to see if I can import those comments into the new blogger comments, but I found nothing.
So, since I'm deleting the script to that tools, all comments posted will be gone from the blog and you can't check them (I'd still have those though, and I'll import them back someday when blogger give its suggestion :p )

A friend told me that it will be like letting go off the past (she's just deleted her blog).. Maybe she's right :)
One resolution to be done...

Have a great day everyone!

hello 2010

It's more than 2 hours after the changing of the year... And I'm still not able to sleep yet..
Why do I grow the habbit of having insomnia on my holidays?!! Not so fun although I can stay in bed until afternoon..

Resolution 2010:
- hurting less and loving more
- working harder but sleeping tighter
- more patient and less anger
- talk less and action more
- braver and worry not

A bit high on the expectation to get all those things :p but I'll give my best shots!!

Now I need to let go...
All the bind to the past, all the story that shouldn't last, all the hurts and joy that got in the way, all of the doubt and reason that shouldn't be kept...

Welcome 2010, I'm greeting you with my smile... on my face and in my heart...
Let this year and the years to come become the time of happiness, peace and comfort to everyone...

Cheers!!