year end

Approaching 2016

One year has almost gone

Another reduction of my time in this world

I will not write resolution or wishes for next year, God knows already.. :-)

May we be filled with His blessings all years to come

Happy (almost) new year...

Milestones

There is always milestones on your path

Ones that make you realize that you are walking towards the right direction, or so you think :-)

I guess I am walking towards the right one...

Impossible as it may seemed, anything is possible in His hand :-)

Just walk the path

Until someday when all wishes are granted..

Rain

Today is really my day...

Because it's raining!!

3 stations away from where I get off

I love it!

Thank you Lord :-)

Today

I love my morning! ;-)

Dapat duduk di kereta, lumayan walaupun cuma 2 stasiun... Haha..

Terima kasih KAI untuk kadonya..

May all those wishes return back to the sender :-)

Terima kasih semua

Matur nuwun

Merci beaucoup

Thanks much

H-1

Baru kali ini masih masuk kerja sehari sebelum lebaran :p

Emang belum dapat cuti soalnya

Dan karena ngga berpengalaman, ga kepikiran untuk bawa bekal ke kantor :p

Ternyata tukang jualan udah tutup semuaaaa... LOL

Lho bulan puasa kok perlu ransum? Hehe.. Iya, Saya ngga puasa hari ini karena beberapa hari drop ngga enak badan :-)

Selamat lebaran temans

Mohon maaf lahir dan batin

Selamat menikmati liburan ;-)

Time's up

When the time has up, I hope I can let go everything that meant the world to me..

It means that every time I have chest pain, I shall not remember any of it

Or every time I go to sleep, I shall not embedded any memory in my heart

For I may not wake up in the morning

Black - White

In the world of black and white

You need to decide whether you want it black or white...

What if I want it grey with white dominant?

Or grey with black dominant?

I don't know...

But the world to me, is no longer black and white as I see it before...

3rd

Today was the third day I am at the new office

New friends, new environment, new routes, and definitely new experience...

Overall I think I'm going to enjoy this ride ;-)

Oya, selamat berpuasa ya.. 

Last day

Kemarin adalah hari terakhir di kantor lama dan perkenalan pertama dengan teman kantor baru (sibuk sekali agendanya.. :p)

Berpamitan pada bos2 yang ada di hari sebelumnya dan sedikit perpisahan dengan teman2 di hari H

Syukurlah ternyata masih bisa meninggalkan jejak yang baik, profesionally and personally :-)

Dan hampir tidak ada yg menangis...syukurlah...

I hate sad goodbye...

Because it's not a "goodbye", it's a "see you around"

Thank you my dear friends and colleagues

Will surely miss you guys

But it's time to move on..

Somehow I'm sure our path will still cross

So it's hello for new colleagues

Let's roll this together ;-)

2 hari

Sisa hari untuk bekerja di sini

Transfer proyek sudah

Bersih2 laptop sudah

Email farewell juga sudah disiapkan

Bersemangat nampaknya memulai kerja di tempat yang baru nanti

Deg-degan sedikit mungkin karena ini juga sesuatu yang baru sama sekali (kebiasaan ya kalau pindah kerjaan itu blank alias start over :p)

Tapi... Semuanya pasti akan berjalan baik

As long as He is within my every step.. :-)

Sabar

PR saya saat ini... :-)

And I have been reminded that if I should need any help, then ask Him for help

And when I ask anyone for help, then my request by heart would still have to be directed to Him

So help me God...

New teacher

Hari ini ganti guru biola

Mudah-mudahan menyenangkan juga seperti beliau

Yang penting sih yang sabar dapat murid kayak gini :-)

Cuplis

I think I love my car too much

Had a dream of meeting old friends from the automotive club where Cuplis has been a member since the beginning..

Weird...

Or should I call her and ask how is she doing coming into my dream?

Hmmm.. Dunno...

I don't usually do that

Human age

Once again I was reminded that we won't know when our time will end

No matter how much we are so passionate about life

No matter how much we embrace life

No matter how big we plan and dream for the future

Eventually we'll die....

RIP Pak Hadi, my violin teacher who was always passionate about violin and was almost achieved his dream of making violin workshop

Let it be ;-)

Emang ya, bongkar2 "arsip" sosmed itu kadang seperti menebar garam di atas luka #eeaaa

Udah pula dasarnya ngga gaptek jadi bongkar apa aja bisa (dan mudah) *sigh*

Udah ah, stop looking for something that's not ours to see :-)

Nite2!

Moment

It's one of those moments when you feel...

Yes, everything is going to be fine

And someday, dreams do come true

I do believe...

Regardless all the talks, conversations amd opinions...

And I keep that in mind :-)

Good night universe

I will see you tomorrow (if God permits)

Better

Seperti halnya saat saya tadi pesan kwiteau bebek ini...

Dalam bayangan saya adalah kwiteau goreng...

Dan yang datang ternyata kwiteau kuah...

Hmmm...

Better than expected...

Karena tadi saya cari menu mie rebus ga ketemu :p

Jadi, sudah sejak lama saya tahu kalau saya menyerahkan jalan hidup pada Pemilik Hidup maka yang akan saya dapat adalah itu...better than expected...

Tapi terkadang ya masih suka ngeyel..

C'est la vie... :-)

Broken Records

.....

I need you to believe in my word

I feel like a broken record

And I've told you 700 times

I don't need to keep looking

My search is done

.....

(By Shakira)

Versions

"All of me" 

all over my playlist

With different version of acoustics and the original one...

Dandelion

Picture paints thousand words... 

And my dandelion belongs just here....

In my heart

None

And I just lost my words...

My countless definition of the world

And my appetite to write...

Until someday..

Decision

When you take a decision, you need to be ready..

For any of the consequences 

Manageable or not, you need to manage it...properly...

Chop Suey

.....

I don't think you trust

In my self-righteous suicide

I cry when angels deserve to die

....

by System of a Down

------

it will stay... for as long as I breath...

Back up

It's time to back-up my data

And delete some

Leave only what's necessary...

Home...

Sweet home...

And still tired..

But, I need to wake up early tomorrow for medical examination..

Wish me luck? ;-)

Journey of the week

Day 1: 

Regular audit day conducted in Palembang. Another usual day of document checking ;-)

Day 2:

Started with road journey, 3 hours to reach the nearest port and then changed to speed boat. Do not imagine modern kind of speed boat like we see on television. This type of boat, although fast enough, is long and narrow. And the driver was very skillful considering how very wide and how very narrow the stream was.

When we got into the boat, it was already dark on some parts of the sky. I did not wish that the rain won't fall, I wish the other way instead. And yes, through the 2.5 hours boat ride we got 1 hour of heavy rain. It was fun (for me) and I enjoyed it a lot. Luckily I had my phone securely placed inside an underwater pouch so I got to take video and photos during the rain.. My pants did not survive the rain though but I had my spare one ready while I had it dried (naturally) when we got to the location.

The camp was very modest, elevated wooden housing which we called Rumah Panggung. I saw this one row consisting 3 stars (anyone remember the name?) and one beautiful bright moon... (So beautiful that I wished I had my DSLR with me to capture it)

Day 3:

We conducted the audit until noon and then we started to move to the next location after lunch time. A bit delayed by the heavy rain, however we cannot really wait for the rain to stop because otherwise it will be too late and we might collide with the bathing time of the elephants. The elephants use the canal that connects this location with the rest of the world, so if they got ahead of us in the canal then we have to wait until they finish their bath, which will be too late and too dark for the water journey.

Rain did not stay long and we went to the next location with another (same type) speed boat after being transported with other type of boat called "Ketek" to the end of the canal. This is the boat type that made very loud noise and we had to use proper earmuff during the ride.

Safely arrived at the next location. Beat tired. We got small rain during the journey but not as extreme as the day before. The soil was all wet, slippery and sticked on my shoes :D making my safety shoes heavier than they already were..

What did I got here? A sky full of stars. No moon but the stars are just marvelous. Its like being sprinkle to fill the sky. The last time I saw something like that was in Mount Bromo, last year...

Those are additional benefit of my audit work. Nature that is not available to see from where I live...

Wait, but don't ask about clean water supply here... We had brown water from the river for bathing :p I cannot imagine myself brushing my teeth with that water so I had to use the mineral waters from the bottles *grin* (not so adventurous, huh?)

Day 4:

Same schedule as the previous day, audit until noon and then we went back to the city. Another 2 hours by boat and 3-4 hours by car.

Hit the hotel. Had a bath tub and enjoyed the clean warm water :-)

You need to appreciate what you have and sometimes you do not realize that you are so lucky before you are faced with the worse condition....

Day 5:

It will be just another audit day at the office, closing meeting, and fly back to Jakarta...

I am beat tired now...

Ready or not

Here we go....

Pagi-pagi sudah menuju bandara

Macet seperti biasanya...

Semoga aman di sana

Ngga ketemu yang aneh2

Tapi boleh lah kalau mau ditunjukin gajah atau macan atau buaya.. ;-)

Selamat hari Senin!

Hutan

Minggu depan jadwalnya audit ke hutan

Sudah lama ngga camping atau bergelut dengan alam.... Terlalu lama dimanja nampaknya..

Mudah2an masih bisa packing dengan baik dan benar, membawa semua kebutuhan...

Kalau gini baru ngeh deh, masih ga punya jaket parasut aja dari dulu...

Padahal dulu pas kuliah pernah pengen banget karena ada teman yang pakai (sayangnya harganya fantastis untuk ukuran saya waktu itu :p)

Sometimes

Sometimes the thing that we held on to is not nearly as important as the one we lost...

(Suburgatory - 2015)

:-)

Berharap itu bikin sakit, jendral.

Tapi cuma itu juga yg membantu bertahan

.....

...

.

New post

I got an offer and I have accepted it

But there are 2 stages before it can be finalised... I hope all goes well :-)

As God permits...

Instrument

My second week of class for this instrument

Last week was the first time.

First time for any formal class *LOL*

I have never been formally learn any instrument through music class, so this is my first experience

And I enjoy learning to play it

When I travel, I might prefer to take this instrument (and my DSLR) instead of my laptop :p

Hello Saturday, I love U!!

Sakit kepala

Tumben, hari ini sakit kepalanya mulai di pagi hari... Dan tidak menghilang sampai sore ini :-)

Bukan sakit karena flu kalau yang ini

Tapi maag...

Jadi memang tumben, karena sudah lama sekali tidak merasakan maag yang langsung menusuk kepala...

Umur

Pagi tadi...

Pas jemput sonshine di sekolahnya, ketemu dengan teman lama yang jg menjemput anaknya...

Sempat berdiskusi panjang lebar tentang bagaimana saat kita dipanggil Tuhan nantinya... Secara teori tentunya..

Sore ini... Bangun tidur siang dengan sonshine...

Cek email di hp

Ada berita duka cita dr alumni Swedia

Beliau yang meninggal ini masih cukup muda

Terakhir saya bertemu saat ada acara di rumah ibu Dubes (pertama kali bertemu lagi sejak dari Gothenburg)

Saat itu beliau masih sehat dan bersemangat sekali membangun negeri ini lewat generasi mudanya (beliau ini dosen UGM)

Ternyata beliau menderita kanker hati dan terdeteksinya terlambat... :'(

He was a kind person and he was the person who welcome me at the bus station when I first landed in Sweden (him and my aunt)

Setelah itu cek group wa

Ada berita duka lagi...

Ayah dari teman kantor yang tadi siang saya tengok ke RS ternyata tidak bertahan...

Hari ini saya diingatkan lagi...

Umur manusia itu tidak ada yang mengetahui...

Dan kapan pun itu kita harus siap...

Mudah2an saya bisa siap setiap saat :-)

Test result

So... It continues to the next level...

Semoga berjodoh ;-)

Diberikan yang terbaik menurutNya untuk saya saat ini...

Amin

Batuk

Akhirnya mulai ketauan juga hasil dari sakit kepala tanpa henti sejak 2 minggu yang lalu..

Hari ini tenggorokan mulai sakit :-)

Kalah juga akhirnya...

Mari dinikmati saja kalau begitu ;-)

#siap2 bikin teh panas pakai lemon

So...

This is it... :-)

March be nice

New month already...

I hope everything are going good

All things are great

All issues resolved

All are fine :-)

These days 4 years ago, I was having trouble breathing and was not able to sleep peacefully :-)

Yes dear son, I was counting the days to have you delivered..

I love you then, I love you now, and until the day I die...

Kopi

Saya dulu bukan pencinta kopi

Sampai sekarang pun saya mungkin lebih suka teh daripada kopi

Tapi saya mulai rutin minum cappucino sejak OB kantor lama saya rajin membuatkan (dan enak)

Sekarang sudah berganti kantor tapi saya masih suka minum kopi kadang2

Biasanya saat kantuk mulai menyerang (terutama saat sedang audit)

Padahal kopi itu tidak membuat saya tidak mengantuk sebenarnya :p sugesti saja lah... Atau kebiasaan kalau ngantuk minum kopi...

Dulu saat masih jadi sopir akap ke Solo sih saya minum coca cola kalau ngantuk :p

Anyway, dari begitu banyak jenis kopi yang saya minum (banyak karena banyak juga yang disediakan oleh klien, jadi ngga milih2), sepertinya saya mulai bisa membedakan... Kopi mana yang nantinya bikin maag saya kambuh dan mana yang aman.. Aromanya ternyata berbeda :-)

Semua karena kebiasaan..

Tapi ada hal2 yang memang tidak bisa dipelajari dari "cuma" kebiasaan ;-)

Energi

Entah kenapa pulang audit hari ini rasanya cape banget

Energinya seperti tersedot :-)

Awalnya terpikir karena memang jarak tempuh yg cukup jauh pulang pergi tadi

Tapi rasanya bukan karena itu

Agak lama baru terpikir...

Mungkin itu alasannya..

Pilar energinya ada yg bergerak menepi, istilah masa kininya "melipir"

Semoga tetap kuat :-)

Car wash

Mandiin Cuplis karena dekil banget

Duduk di kursi tunggu

Ternyata di meja sampingnya ada asbak

Pantesan pusing...

Emang beneran ga tahan bau rokok walaupun dulu pas kuliah kadang beli juga (dan dibuang setelah dipakai 1-2 dengan tidak efisien)

BSD-Merak

130 t0 140 kph

Start: 06.55

End: 08.19

Regulator

Regulator itu artinya yang me-regulate alias mengatur

Bisa jadi untuk alat atau untuk masyarakat, i.e. Pemerintah

Lalu kalau regulatornya bocor gimana?

Kalau sesekali mungkin tidak apa

Tapi kalau sering tandanya musti diganti ;-) 

Artinya... Ya ngga boleh sering2 bocor kalau ingin semuanya berjalan dengan baik..

Susah emang jadi regulator karena harus lurus, by the book, ngga boleh longgar karena nanti bisa chaos...

Selamat hari Selasa...

Semoga sehat menjalani hari dengan regulator yang berfungsi :-)

*siap2 nyetir akap*

How to train your dragon

It's the movies that I love, not the book because I don't read the book. Simply because I have no time to read them

So back to the movie

I looooove it... And I love Toothless, the black dragon that's almost impossible to tame..

It's almost like loving Melan

Toothless and Melan both are considered vicious animals but both are so lovable, so loyal to the owner.. Dan manja bangeeettt... Manja dalam konsep yang cuma bisa dimengerti pemiliknya karena kalau orang yang tidak kenal Melan dan melihat dia menubruk saya atau menggandeng tangan saya dengan giginya, pasti akan shock.. *grin*

Sekarang ada Bumblebee, tapi dia tidak se-vicious Melan..

Somehow perhaps I have special interest to anything that looks vicious on the outside, but soft, tender and lovable on the inside..

Have a happy weekend and a good rest :-)

I know I'll need those... *completely wreck by the business travel journey this week*

Papparazzi

Di sini lagi... Di bandara Sepinggan Balikpapan

Pesawat direschedule dari jam 6.30 ke jam 12.00

Buat saya itu anugerah... :-)

Pertama karena saya baru bisa tidur jam 3an (dan seharusnya jam 4 sudah siap2 ke bandara) dan kepala saya masih sakit (sampai sekarang sih walaupun membaik sedikit)

Kedua karena berarti baby boy bisa jemput ke bandara ;-) kalau pagi kan dia pasti belum bangun...

There's always blessing in disguise in every unfortunate event..

Dulu saya pernah delay 5 jam dari Bali (harusnya pesawat jam 13 jadi jam 18)

Blessingnya adalah karena saya jadi punya waktu lebih banyak setelah paginya diving di Benoa... Dulu saya belum tahu kalau setelah diving itu tidak boleh langsung naik pesawat karena perbedaan ketinggian yang ekstrem bisa menyebabkan kerusakan jaringan otak :-)

Sambil nunggu boarding, tadi saya mengamati bapak2 yang pegang kamera SLR dan iseng menjepret para penumpang yang sedang menunggu di sini :p

Kayaknya tadi lensa juga mengarah ke sini :D semoga hasilnya bagus ya pak ;-)

Penyakit lama

Tumben ni...

Udah lama ngga kena penyakit ini

Penyakit harian waktu SMA

Maag :p

Antara salah makan atau stress :D

Hehe..

Habis break makan malam ini langsung tidur aja deh

Masih jauh perjalanan ke Balikpapan-nya...

Wednesday slow machine

Alias kesiangan bangun...

Ketiduran lagi maksudnya...

Well, it's gonna be another loooooong day... Pagi ini mau cek tambangnya dulu baru lanjut dokumen..

Hello Wednesday ;-)

Zombie mode

Begini ini kalau udah ngga terlatih begadang...

Tidur malem banget padahal harus ngejar flight pagi

Jobnote dadakan gini bikin pusing kalau belum kenal sama kliennya, musti "by the book" dulu soalnya *sigh*

Semoga lancar semuanya...

Semangat! *pijitin kening*

Selamat hari Selasa :-)

Yesterday's gift..

We woke up late on Saturday, my son woke me up.. I thought we can have a lazy day because I'm still tired after the business trip

But no...

I called the music course where I had signed up for him and they told me that the lesson start today! And that they had mistakenly wrote down my number so they couldn't reach me.. Rush!

So we went to the course and baby boy seemed to enjoy it although I had to stay in the classroom. 

Back at home, lunch time, I received a call from one of my closest friend from college. She got terminated from her work and she needed to talk to someone (it's an honour that she chose me). And then she asked certain phone number that I remember by heart because she doesn't have it in her phone. She said perhaps he knows some opprtunities.. (So, has she contacted you? :-) )

At gandaria, met many persons that I haven't had time to talk lately and we exchanged news. It was nice. Heart warming.. :-) 

During the ceremony, baby boy played with his cousins and did not cry at all (horray!)

I was grateful for yesterday and I'll be grateful for today ;-)

Hello Sunday!

Valentine

They say today is valentine day

But I don't celebrate valentine :-)

Because it should be throughout each day of our live...

Iya saya sedang belajar...

Tapi bukan berarti yang sudah ada dan saya simpan itu akan saya lupakan...

Time will tell...

Yang saya peringati hari ini adalah hari pepadang

Selamat hari pepadang teman2 semua

Semoga sih SGS selalu meliputi kita...

Mini 3

Udah keluar yang baru lagi aja..

Avec touch ID...

Plus en plus... ;-)

I may want this but I don't need it for now... 

Yang mini 2 masih bagus dan masih berfungsi baik kok *wink*

Masih bisa untuk cek2 site atau blog yang mungkin ngga akan sering di-update lagi..

Di bandara Sepinggan

Boyce Avenue playing in ipad...

All of me ;-)

Baiklah...

Saya boarding dulu :-)

Cold

2 hari ini tidurnya tanpa AC

Tapi tetep kedinginan aja :'(

Mudah2an bukan karena sakit

Mudah2an karena dinginnya AC di lorong depan kamar yang masuk ke dalam...

Semalam mimpi yang aneh...

Cuplis harus mengarungi banjir dan yang bawa bukan saya tapi anak kantor 

Banjirnya hampir sejendela! *mimpi kok bikin deg2an*

Jadi Cuplis harus masuk ke jalan yang banjir itu dari atas bukit berbelok ke kiri karena dua jalan itu saling tegak lurus

Begitu masuk air, karena ngga boleh ngerem, jadi belok ke kirinya agak "ngepot" (apa istilahnya ya..) sehingga bagian belakangnya terayun ke kanan...hampir menabrak pembatas jalan

Saya duduk di belakang sopir dan 5 cm lagi bisa crash ikut dihantam pembatas jalan..

Selanjutnya blur...

Saya bukan tipe yang mengartikan mimpi

Mimpi bagi saya cukup bunga tidur, yang artinya saya belum pasrah pada saat akan tidur

Idealnya, kalau tidur itu sudah pasrah tidak akan bangun lagi...dan supaya lancar jalannya tentunya tidak mengingat apa2 lagi tentang dunia (baca:bermimpi)

Masih belajar.... :-)

Selamat pagi...

Jangan lupa menabung yang bukan untuk keinginan ;-)

22:47

It makes me smile... :-)
Thank you

Live music

Ubacksound: you're beautiful-James Blunt

Nunggu dijemput klien...

Waiting at the lobby hotel

Listening to nice slow songs.. (The singer's voice is very nice)

Enjoying the rythm

Mungkin suatu saat bisa begini lagi, but with better company ;-) and no gadget...

Dan di tengah2 blogging begini tiba2 teman kantor di kursi depan bilang gini:

"Cha, ada cowo ganteng banget"

"Mana?"

"Itu.."

"Yang bule?"

"Iya"

The conversation is a bit weird... 

Soalnya teman saya ini juga cowo *tepok jidat*

Current backsound: Last kiss - Pearl Jam (I love this song!)

Good morning Balikpapan

Waking up today to a phone call from home and heard his cry... :'(

I miss you too son...

Semalam hampir ngga bisa tidur karena tidurnya tanpa ngelonin kamu

Besok ibu pulang ya...

Good morning Balikpapan..

I hope today will not be as gloomy as the weather...

Bathtub

God never fails us :-)

Even the smallest thing..

Dapat bathtub! Pilihannya sore ini adalah berenang dulu atau langsung rendeman sambil nonton tv :D

Lalu lalu... Dapat room yang dekat lift *wink*

Someone told me once, kalau ga salah inget, enakan deket lift karena ga cape jalan.. :p ada benarnya..

Thank you Lord...

:-)

Safely landed although I got motion sick..

Berharap ada bathtub nanti di hotel buat rendeman kaki :p

Cape badan kok ga ilang2 :-)

Semangat! Hufff..

Indomie

Menuju bandara CGK

Pengin sarapan indomie walaupun ngga sehat :-)

Mulai hujan di tol menuju bandara

Tapi semoga lancar semuanya...

Good morning Wednesday..

Give me your biggest smile ;-)

Thank you

:-)

Good night dear universe...

Semu

Bahagia itu semu..

Saya lebih suka damai..

Tapi menjadi damai juga sulit, bila kita belum mau berdamai dengan hati kita sendiri..

Saya masih belajar..

Sabar memang pe er nya, tapi narima sedang ujian naik tingkat..

Sebisa mungkin tidak menoreh luka di manapun..tapi mungkin mustahil..

Saya bilang "mungkin" karena tidak ada yang mustahil kalau Tuhan sudah berkehendak..

Kalau pun tertoreh, Tuhan yang akan mengobati..entah apa caranya..tapi saya percaya obat-Nya adalah yang terbaik

May peace be with you..always..

Weak

I won't look back because it may cause tears...

I won't cry because it weaken me...

...

..

.

A little more faith and spoonful of patient

I hope I am granted those to keep on walking... Smiling... And sometimes to be happy...

Rain again

A little faith and spoonful of patient...

For now, that's all I can have

Happiness comes second, after baby boy :-)

It is safely kept inside and maybe 19 years from now, I can open it.. Less years if God permits :-)

It's rainy Tuesday morning..

Be happy ;-)

Time

I believe that if it's meant to be then it will be..

No matter how hard we or anyone else try to stop it :-)

The universe will conspire to make it happen...

All it takes are a little faith and add a spoonful of patient..

Honest

Being honest and true to your words are sometimes not easy..

Especially when you promise something that is different from what your heart says

It's hard..

But I don't want to lie when anyone asks whether I have kept my promise or not (someone did ask)

So no matter how hard, I'll keep going..

Good morning Sunday ;-)

Please make me strong

Love

I do agree with Winnie the  Pooh ;-)

Good night universe...

I'll see you tomorrow if I am still granted a life :-)

Let it rain...

Hujan sore nih...

Ah hujan jam berapa pun kan saya suka

Kebetulan hujannya turun pas sedang singgah di rumah adik saya

Baby boy yang minta karena ingin main dengan sepupunya...

So it's raining with good company around

Setelah seharian mondar mandir ngurusin cuplis dan bersih2 ;-) this is quite nice, just sitting by the window and listening to the rain... and occasionally check some updates on the blog...

Have a good evening world...

Let the rain pour down... ;-)

Grateful

Musti belajar lagi mensyukuri hal-hal kecil yang mungkin sempat terhalangi oleh hal besar yang ngga jelas..

Pagi ini aja udah banyak yang bisa disyukuri..

- Bangun pagi dibangunin baby boy dan dia ngga rewel.. (Ini pengaruh lho, hari dimulai dengan ceria tanpa ngomel)

- Ketemu bapak ibu sebentar di rumah dan semua sehat

- Di jalan mau ke bengkel, pas putaran U yang biasanya banyak polisi cepek, kali ini ada pak polisi muda dengan motornya. Begitu mobil mau putar balik langsung menstop mobil dari arah sana (makasih pak polisi, u've made me smile)

- Di bengkel, bumper yg lecet2 itu dijanjikan mau diurus langsung sama orang asuransi ini. Minggu depan mobilnya ditinggal aja katanya... 

- Baca2 tulisan di blog sebelah dan dari pagi udah bikin senyum :-) 

So let's be grateful for those little things..

Caramel macchiato

Pagi2 bawain kopi ke bengkel...

Biar urusan klaim-an lancar :p

And for me, it's caramel macchiato

On the go...

;-)

Jumat Mendung

Udah jumat ya...

Mendung pula ;-)

My kind of weather 

Hello rain..will you keep me company? :-*

Technical Test

2 hari yang lalu saya jadi ikut test-nya

Ternyata benar, test-nya adalah test Toefl dan kemampuan menulis teknis dalam bahasa inggris...

Topik essay-nya cukup sulit karena akhir2 ini memang tidak berkutat di area itu, jadi kurang terkini untuk info regulasi dan kebijakan

Katanya kalau lanjut, minggu depan akan dipanggil interview

Semoga berjodoh...

Karena minggu depan saya cuma ada di Jakarta hari senin saja :-)

5 weeks

Ngga terasa ya, ternyata sudah lebih dari 5 minggu berlalu...

Tapi rasanya ga pas juga kalau dibilang ngga terasa..

Karena rasanya itu di sini... *tengok2 ke dalam hati*

Cape-nya juga terasa...

Naik turunnya juga terasa...

I won't give up....but can I say that I'm tired for now?

It's always a happy ending, right?

So it's not yet "the end" for the moment...

Ahead

It's not an easy road ahead...

But I'll try and I won't give up...

Just need to keep my faith and walk through what comes on the way

Batagor

Siang ini judulnya junk food ndeso..

Mendadak tadi pengen batagor buat makan siang

Akhirnya meluncur ke tempat jajan SD...nostalgia jajanan jaman dulu kala...

Beli deh batagor sebungkus

Padahal ya, ini bisa dibilang batagor tepung :D

Namanya juga mendadak pengin :p

Tetap nikmat aja makannya

PS: bukan ngidam lho yaa

Se.ren.di.pi.ty

Don't you agree?

01 February 2015

Februari kali ini diawali dengan hujan sedari pagi..

Tampaknya akan awet sepanjang hari...

Tentu saja saya tidak keberatan, karena saya suka hujan :-)

Hello February!

Surprise me....

Kongres 2015

Rapat sosialisasi kongres 2015 di Gandaria...

Ga terasa udah hampir 5 tahun berlalu

Waktu kongres 2010 ngga ikut berpartisipasi karena sibuk persiapan acara sendiri...

Time flies...

Semoga Mei ini ngga ada halangan untuk bisa ikut kongres :-)

Kangen juga ternyata...

Sepertinya kemarin terlalu lama vakum berorganisasi..

Berlebihan

So it's true..

Emang apapun itu tidak boleh berlebihan..

Tadi sore ternyata saya senang berlebihan, akibatnya salah mengartikan email :p

Untungnya tadi dibaca ulang karena memang harus konfirmasi kedatangan

Kalau tidak saya selasa pagi sudah standby di lokasi, padahal testnya hari rabu... *tepok jidat*

Sing sareh, kata salah satu eyang saya..

Yang sabar... Jadinya teliti... Tidak salah arti dan salah langkah :-)

Selamat tidur duniaku...

Recovery

God speed...

Mudah2an weekend ini bisa cukup istirahat biar sembuh total..

Badan masih sakit semua plus baby boy juga sakit batpil dan demam...jadi ya emang jatahnya istirahat seadanya karena piket malam.. 

Tapi yakin lah, kalau ini jalan-Nya pasti selasa udah sehat dan bisa ke US embassy ;-) musti belajar dulu ni kayaknya biar lulus test...

Semangaat!!

Jangan lupa makan buah... #self reminder

Technical writing test

Mudah2an selasa depan sehat, bisa datang ke tempat test dan bisa mengerjakan dengan baik :-)

Semoga ini jadi jalan-Nya....

Kecarian

Istilah yang muncul saat saya kuliah

Bahasa formalnya mungkin "kehilangan"

Tapi kalau kecarian ini ya tentunya ada faktor mencari-nya

Hari ini saya mencari... Jadi terdefinisi sebagai kecarian... :-)

Good morning Friday

:-)

Please be nice... 

Dust it off

The advantage of being a kid is that when you fall to the ground, you'd just dust it off and try again..

Adults however, they overthink things...

And in certain points they can stop because they're not sure if they can survive in trying the whole things again

Perhaps my adult side is winning now...

Overthink things because I may not handle it if it gets broken again...

Well, I should've said "screw it all, if it got broken again then I'll buy more glue to patch it back"

I am sorry...

Bersyukur

Sebelum saya benar2 tertidur, ada cerita tentang hari ini

Pencerahan dari rekan kerja saya

Tentang hidup...

Beliau ini dikaruniai 2 orang anak, laki2 dan perempuan.. 

Si kecil sejak umur 2 tahun mulai mengalami kejang2... Dan kondisi itu tidak berhenti hingga saat ini, 13 tahun kemudian...

Tentu saja kejang itu mempengaruhi perkembangan si anak... Menurut dokter, tiap kali kejang ada 50 syaraf yang terputus... Beliau bilang mungkin sudah lebih dari 6000 syaraf yang putus :'(

Perjuangan yang luar biasa menunggui anak yg kejang, menjaga supaya saat kejang tidak mengenai benda tajam atau berbahaya, karena menurut dokter kejang itu tidak boleh ditahan atau dipegangi... Hanya dijaga supaya si kecil tidak terluka..

Menjaga saat si kecil tiba2 hilang kesadaran di tengah2 kolam renang, atau di dekat pinggiran tembok yang tajam, 48 jam tanpa tidur... 

Keluar masuk RS, mencari second opinion, hingga beberapa kali ke Singapore.. Sampai ada dokter yang mengatakan bahwa untuk bisa mengatasi kejang ini harus lewat operasi karena obat hanya membantu 20% saja

And God's help is always there...

Anak laki2 dan istrinya menemukan referensi dokter ahli syaraf di Semarang..

Singkatnya, si adik menjalani operasi syaraf... Dengan dimudahkan Tuhan karena dalam 2 minggu bisa dioperasi sedangkan biasanya harus antri selama 3 bulan..

Operasi yang memakan waktu 14 jam itu selesai pada jam 2 pagi...

Rekan kerja saya bercerita bahwa dia menangis saat melihat anaknya keluar dari ruang operasi dengan kondisi bekas sayatan operasi di kepalanya...

He couldn't bear to see her like that...

And I can imagine that I would cry as well if I was him.. 

She's getting better now, walaupun masih kejang...tapi sudah jauh berkurang..

The whole family stay strong together...

And I can see that he loves his baby girl so much when I hear him talking to her on the phone..

Yes, everyone has their own problems to deal with...

Either you choose to stay close to God and don't give up or you make your distance from Him and basically surrender...

Bottom line is... Be grateful for what you have..

And I am grateful for my baby boy

May God keep us together...always....

Good night..

Flu

Ternyata beneran menyerah badannya..

Mudah2an sakit karena cuaca dan bukan karena hal lain :-)

Seakan2 diprotes oleh semua sel dalam tubuh...meminta supaya mereka diperhatikan...

Iya...maafkan... Ada yang lebih penting untuk menjadi perhatian saat ini...

Tapi malam ini memang saatnya beristirahat, supaya kembali sehat...

When your ride is tired, you need to give it a break :-)

My dear 7 siblings... Let's rest tonight for tomorrow and the rest of days will be full of struggle ;-)

Nyerah juga ni badannya...

Ayo.. Jangan sakit... Not yet at least..

#pengen sop hangat dan tidur aja#

Bekas "tattoo"

Tiba-tiba saya ingin tahu

Bekas temporary tattoo saya yang dulu meradang jadi seperti apa ya :p

Letaknya tidak di posisi yang bisa dilihat tanpa cermin soalnya

Hmmm...

Tapi saya ngga nyesel kok kalau pun ada bekasnya ;-)

It'll be an unforgettable mark...

Rindu

Entah saya baca di mana...

Tapi rindu yang paling bermakna adalah bila dua manusia saling merindukan dan membawanya di dalam doa...

Karena sebenarnya manusia itu satu :-)

Jadi wajar bisa bertemu di dalam doa...

Dan tidak juga mengherankan bila yang satu bisa merasakan yang lainnya...

I feel you although I don't see you

--quotes from City of Angels

Rainy days (and you)

Hujan pagi-pagi selalu membuat saya senang.. Entah kenapa..

Walaupun bisa dipastikan kalau lalu lintas menjadi lebih padat alias macet..

Ngga papa... ;-) 

Lagipula hari ini memang perjalanannya panjang kok... 

Selamat hari SelaSa ;-)

Serendipity

I still don't believe in ever after

But I do believe that everything happen for a reason... Reason to choose whether you'd be weak or strong... Brave or scare... Happy or sad...

It's all up to you...

But all for a good reason...if we truly believe..

So coincident? There is no such thing...

No matter how hard you try, when God says no, then it will not happen...

Serendipity is one movie that I think can picture it clearly... At least that's how I remember it.. 

Good night universe...

Please keep me save :-)

Break

Had a lunch meeting with my friends today... Well actually, only 2 of 3 that ate lunch :p because one of us is fasting today

It's always nice to meet your friends..

Hearing familiar voice talks.. And discussed.. 

From something critical to a nonsense that brought laughter..

It's a luxury :-) to be surrounded by people who cares...

Don't you think?

Konsentrasi

 Ternyata konsentrasi kerja itu termasuk yang membuat kita lupa atau tidak eling

Lupa bahwa kita harus selalu mengingatNya..

Di saat lupa yang hanya beberapa detik itu, masuklah niat-niat jahat.. Dari skala kecil hingga berbahaya :-)

Dan karena sedang lupa, maka niat-niat itu bisa mencapai tujuannya...

Untung saja rekening atm yang dipegang ayah saya hanya isi sedikit ;-) masih tetap dilindungi walaupun "lupa"

Selamat pagi...

Stay safe :-)

Honest

Mencapai tujuan kadang perlu disertai pengorbanan...

Mengurangi apa yang menjadi kesenangan

Mengurangi apa yang membuat senang

Untuk saat ini, semoga itu cukup...

Istilahnya umumnya mungkin "puasa"

Walaupun tidak sepenuhnya tepat

It's a promise that I need to keep...to be truth and honest...

Semoga dengan ini, jalannya lebih lancar dan selalu dalam lindungan-Nya...

Dara

By Ariel "Noah"

Good morning universe :-)

Thank You...

Sign out

Something is not right

Somewhat evil...

I need to sign out for awhile...

Until it's all clear :-)

But I'll still be around...here...

Happy weekend!

Bandara Halim Perdana Kusuma

Akhirnya menginjakkan kaki lagi di sini, walau bukan untuk terbang..

Kali ini urusan kerjaan... Di salah satu hanggar di sini..

Terakhir saya ke sini kira-kira 7 tahun yang lalu, ada privat jet yang menunggu untuk penerbangan pp ke Belitung..

One day trip yang menyenangkan :-)

Kapan lagi Jeng, Nda? 

Prakarya

Kata dokter fisioterapi saya, prakarya di pergelangan kaki ini cukup bagus :p

Ternyata pak dokter yang sudah berumur tadi lumayan gaul ;-)

Ngga sia-sia tadi berkutat dengan prakarya... (Kerja apa ngga sih :p)

Dive

Ternyata sudah dari 2012 majalah ini disimpan di laci kantor...

5 bulan setelah saya pindah ke kantor ini..

Paling tidak sudah 2 lokasi yang saya sambangi sejak itu.. Bunaken dan Bali :-)

Next trip? Soon?

Semoga....

Unintended

---- by Muse

You could be my unintended
Choice to live my life extended
You could be the one I'll always love
You could be the one who listens to my deepest inquisitions
You could be the one I'll always love

I'll be there as soon as I can
But I'm busy mending broken pieces of the life I had before

First there was the one who challenged
All my dreams and all my balance
She could never be as good as you

You could be my unintended
Choice to live my life extended
You should be the one I'll always love

I'll be there as soon as I can
But I'm busy mending broken pieces of the life I had before

I'll be there as soon as I can
But I'm busy mending broken pieces of the life I had before

Before you

Cicak

Katanya nih, kalau kejatuhan cicak itu ada artinya...

Saya lupa artinya apa :p karena memang ngga percaya hal-hal kayak gitu...

Nah kalau cicaknya memanjat kaki saya gimana? Ada artinya juga kah?

Artinya... saya kurang banyak bergerak karena sampai bisa dikira kaki meja oleh cicak :p

(maaf ya cak, buntutnya jadi putus... )

Je ne sais pas pourquoi, mais tu me manque...

Ultrasound

Sesi fisioterapi malam ini...

Ngiluuuuu banget pas di-ultrasound... Huhu...

Kemarin ngilu parah pas dipanasin...

Duh.. Terima aja deh, emang lututnya cedera :'(

Semangat!!

Siblings

Saya sedang fisioterapi lutut saya

Di ruang sebelah ada anak kecil yg nampaknya sedang terapi inhalasi

Ditemani kakak dan ibunya

Si anak ini menangis jerit2, ga tega dengarnya

Si kakak berusaha membantu menenangkan adiknya

Sampai2 nyanyi lagu potong bebek angsa supaya adiknya berhenti menangis..

Ah.. Saudara memang harus saling menjaga

Seperti saya menjaga adik saya

Dan dia menjaga saya

Seperti saya menjaga sepupu2 saya dan mereka menjaga saya

Seperti saya menjaga teman2 dekat yang sudah seperti saudara bagi saya, dan mereka pun menjaga saya

I love you all :-*

You know who you are...

Thank you

I wish the same for my baby boy.. Someday perhaps..

5 years

I had a discussion with my colleague today about how long we should stay in a situation 

Work-wise... He said it should not be more than 5 years if you dislike it and you think there's no gain for you there..

After 5 years, you get into the comfort zone of habits that may be difficult to be changed and you might willing to compromise with whatever you receive

I agree...

And I said that I intend to go before 5 years (amen to this)

Do you think it only applied work-wise? :-)

I think for other situation, the period varies... But the phylosophy remains the same..

It's either "take it" or "leave it"

Good night kind hearted people...

Weird

It does not feel that I still belong in this place...

Dawn of the Planet of the Apes

Just watched the movie

It's the sequel of Rise of the Planet of the Apes

The main Apes character's name is Caesar

Do you remember?

You said it's the movie where the apes is handsome...

:-) and then I watch it with my occasional heart race due to its plot...

Have a nice weekend!

All of Me

I think it's my first time of loving and hating one thing at the same time...
This song, originally sang by John Legend... but Boyce Avenue made a cover of this song..

I love this song so much when John Legend sing it..
But with Boyce Avenue, it cut too deep and leave scars that I could not bring myself to listen to it just now...
This is not right... I need to try again...

So here we go...
*playing the song over and over*

What would I do without your smart mouth?
Drawing me in, and you kicking me out
You've got my head spinning, no kidding, I can't pin you down
What's going on in that beautiful mind
I'm on your magical mystery ride
And I'm so dizzy, don't know what hit me, but I'll be alright

My head's under water
But I'm breathing fine
You're crazy and I'm out of my mind

'Cause all of me
Loves all of you
Love your curves and all your edges
All your perfect imperfections
Give your all to me
I'll give my all to you
You're my end and my beginning
Even when I lose I'm winning
'Cause I give you all of me
And you give me all of you

How many times do I have to tell you
Even when you're crying you're beautiful too
The world is beating you down, I'm around through every mood
You're my downfall, you're my muse
My worst distraction, my rhythm and blues
I can't stop singing, it's ringing, in my head for you

My head's under water
But I'm breathing fine
You're crazy and I'm out of my mind

'Cause all of me
Loves all of you
Love your curves and all your edges
All your perfect imperfections
Give your all to me
I'll give my all to you
You're my end and my beginning
Even when I lose I'm winning
'Cause I give you all of me
And you give me all of you

Give me all of you
Cards on the table, we're both showing hearts
Risking it all, though it's hard

'Cause all of me
Loves all of you
Love your curves and all your edges
All your perfect imperfections
Give your all to me
I'll give my all to you
You're my end and my beginning
Even when I lose I'm winning
'Cause I give you all of me
And you give me all of you

I give you all of me
And you give me all of you

.......
.........
...........
.............
what would I do without your smart mouth....

I always have headache when I hold back like this... :'(
There's only one way for it.... Be patient...

Evening Run

My first run in 2015
Not too bad...
Considering the low energy level and the injured knee
I think I need to get it checked since it's not getting better after the Shell race
No more race though... For now :-)

So, One of this year resolutions is to excercise more...

Happy ending

There are words saying that it will always be a happy ending and if you're not happy then it's not the end...

Perhaps it's true.....in a way :-)

So are you happy now?

Other words say that if you don't like where you are now (situation wise), then move, because you are not a tree

It's also true...somehow

Do you like it "there" now?

All of those 'wise' words are there to give courage, strength and support....if you are willing to use them...

Am I willing to?

Well, I am...

But... (There's always a "but")

I'm still learning to listen to the purest voice in my heart before using those words...

Also trying to keep my balance...mind and soul...

So we'll see

My story continues... (Be patient)

Moonshine

It's a bright full moon tonight..

Can you see it too? :-)

Conceal, don't feel...

Don't let them know

Well now they know!

Let it go....

That perfect girl is gone

Let the storm rage on...

The cold never bothered me anyway :-)

Eight Below

It's a movie about dogs.. Siberian Husky who got deserted in Antartica

I don't know why but this kind of movies about dogs are the ones that can make me smile (truely) 

And somehow give me hopes...

Life is not just this...great things can be done....great things can happen.....

This maybe one stage that I must get through so that I can really pursue my passion after....

I do hope so :-)

Easy

Who said it's going to be easy?

It's especially not easy to smile not from the heart...something that I have never did (I guess)...