Almost 2015

Today is his birthday..

Just a simple happy birthday in the morning... It's all that I can say...

Things are not yet normal..

Maybe normal will become luxury from now on...

It's almost 2015

I used to write here about my wishes and expectation for the coming year and I haven't done that for a long time..

I guess all my wishes have been granted so I cannot ask for more... I'm just too ashamed to do it now...

I'll go with the flow, with whatever is given to me...

Trying to be a better person for the coming year and years...

May God help me :-)

Happy new year!

Beethoven 2nd

Nonton beethoven 2nd di tv

Filem tentang keluarga dan anjingnya...

Film lama memang, but I love it...

Some scenes do make me sad though :-)

This is a typical ever after hollywood movie... So....

Anyway...

I miss having dogs around the house...

Someday perhaps... If God permits...

Masih belum "cukup"

Mungkin memang masih belum cukup

Masih harus berusaha lebih baik lagi...

All should be done by God's rules

Never again to disobey...

:-)

Mudah2an semua berakhir baik...suatu saat nanti...

Hardest part

It's when I need to let go of my life

And he is my life ever since he's in my womb

So I fell a part...

He returns though...

I hope he chooses me...

But if situation does not allow that, I pray that he is in good hands.... God's hands..

Amen

Reality bites

This is earth now...

Where all realities exist...

And dreams are 5 cm in front of our forehead...

Reality bites but the dream afloats...

I need to put my feet on the ground

Make sure I'm walking this earth correctly

Putting all my best efforts to get through

And making sure all the bills are paid ;-) for sure...

I think I had always been a people pleaser... Making sure everyone is happy of what I do...

It won't be like that anymore...

Main happiness would be of my son's

The rest is just detail

:-)

...

Memang benar, semua yang di luar kuasa kita harus diserahkan pada Nya...

Be strong... Be safe...

Always...

03.18

Kebangun jam segini...

Yang diinget cuma blog sebelah aja

Nungguin update...

Come un fou :'(

Another galaxy

Perhaps it's where I should go now...

Alone if it's required..

I had written more on my other page, simply because I needed to let it out.. :-)

Anjing

Saya percaya bahwa makian tidak menyelesaikan masalah..

Dan saya percaya bahwa orang yg mudah memaki itu jiwanya masih lemah 

:-)

May God help you...

PS. I personally love dogs..

Learning

I am still learning..

To expect less from people to be away from disappointment

To work harder and let go of the result

To give with all your heart and never check what has returned

To say nothing when I have all the words to tell...

Yes, I'm still in the early chapter.. :-)

Siomay

Salah satu jenis makanan yang bisa menggugah selera...

Apalagi kalau yg dibawain siomay yg terkenal enak :-)

Siomay ini dibelinya di rest area km 98 tol dari arah Bandung.. Satu tempat dengan yang jual roti bakar... Roti bakarnya enak juga lho...

Anyway, ini enak bangeett! Sampai pengin nambah kalau ngga inget angka timbangan :p

Thanks Dim!

Things

When something is not working as it used to, maybe it's a sign

Maybe you need to slow down

Maybe you need to remember your promise

It might be a premonition of bad things...

And it can be any technical issues that we can think of...

No one knows for sure...

All I know is I need to not fight it

It's the universe saying "no" for now...

"No" or "Wait"

Good morning good people :-)

Enjoy your weekend...

Blogger error

Kenapa gagal melulu kalau posting..

Cuma satu blog yg bermasalah atau semuanya kah?

Atau aplikasinya ini yang error?

Hmmm..

Kalau ini berhasil keposting berarti ga semua blog yang kena...

Heaven...

Sampai rumah jam segini, liat baby boy masih tidur siang...

Bisa ikutan tidur siang di sampingnya...

:-)

Simply heaven...

Nothing to loose

I think I have let it all go...

So whatever will be, will be...

Conceal, don't feel... 

:-)

Symptomps

It seems that my feet can no longer support the burden...

And the whole body shakes..

And weak...

But those are not to be seen by people

I know that I've been given the strength, but it seems to slowly evaporate each time I got hammered down...

I hope not

My strength is within...

And this physical symptomps mean nothing...

So help me God..

New job?

I just submitted another application and this one seems to fit my qualifications, meaning that I have quite some experience in the area. It's Jakarta based but from what I read, it'll cover the whole country.. Quite interesting post (for me)

Tomorrow I'll have this interview for one post that is based in KL. I like the idea of having a job there but if I think about my little sonshine, I know that it won't be easy to arrange...

Well, I'm sure that He will give me what I need based on what I am capable of handling at the moment...

He won't give me anything that I cannot manage :-)

It's very close to new year now..

So perhaps it'll also mean new start..

We'll see.... ;-)

The old me

I am still my old me..

Cukup

Seberapa kuat kah kita musti berjuang...

Kalau kita bukan orang yang mudah menyerah, apa indikasinya bahwa kita belum menyerah?

How long you will stay strong?

Sampai Tuhan bilang "cukup"

When God says that all our efforts are considered enough, He will twist the situation...

Kuncinya sabar dan rela...

Sabar menghabiskan porsi dalam piring di hadapan kita..

Sabar untuk tidak meraih makanan lain yang belum matang karena akibatnya bisa keracunan atau sakit

Sabar bahwa semua hal itu ada waktu yang terbaik untuk muncul dan dipetik

Rela menghadapi apapun yang menurut kita tidak adil karena yang tahu itu adil atau bukan hanya Tuhan saja

Rela memaafkan apa-apa yang tidak sesuai dengan mau kita.. Kemauan kita kan belum tentu kehendak Tuhan

Intinya, percaya selalu kalau Tuhan ada bersama kita... And that He will carry us when we are tired...

Just believe...

Don't die

Not just yet...

Bebek madura

Terkantuk sangat saat menyetir pulang..

Sempat berhenti pasang lampu hazard untuk ambil permen karet..

Lagu pengiring "terpaksa" didengarkan via hp, yang beat dan pilihannya bisa diulang... Tentunya supaya tidak tambah ngantuk..

Belum berhasil..

Zig zag dimulai.. Mencolek jiwa pembalap supaya mata tidak terpejam..

Cukup berhasil... Sambil nyanyi keras2 lagunya The Fray...

Sampai dekat rumah mendadak pengin bebek madura ini.. padahal tadi inginnya langsung tidur pas sampai rumah..

Makan dulu lah, toh emang ngga bisa langsung tidur karena tugas utama sudah menanti :-)

Have a good evening!

Pendant

I looovee this new pendant (and necklace)

Its shape is like a military dog tags that I do really like

It's a constant reminder that I am a fighter, not a quitter... But also know when it is time to retrieve...

So... This is still my fight until God says that it's time for me to retrieve...

:-)