October

 I don't post many here nor in twitter, which have changed its shape for a while

This would be my first post in this year...

But I don't really feel there is something important to share

Maybe because I just let live runs its course

No expectation

No judgement (or trying to not judge)

Well.... again...

C'est la vie

Sabar, rela, narima

I am tired but I have to be patient

I am upset but I need to let go

I am overwhelmed but I need to accept all

Never easy to learn that your good intentions are being disregarded somehow 

Maybe not on purpose… but you can feel if you’re not being listened to…

Anyway… :-)

C’est la vie

Kangen

Kata Dilan, kangen itu berat

Biar dia saja yang pikul

Silakan Dilan.. stay strong yaa 😄

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And what’s with this random post that come up after several years of silence?

Nothing….

I just missed my old blog (with limited audience)

I assume people don’t read blog anymore

But if you do read it, please skip mine 

Because all you’ll read is random thought 

Stories

Everyone loves a good story
Especially those with happy ending

But not all stories have happy ending

And not all happy endings are to be told

Hope everyone is building their own happy story this Christmas :-)

Too early to say happy holidays, but do enjoy counting the days!

Nothing but

Stay safe and healthy
Stay close to the Lord

Never give up on what you believe

No need

There is no need to tell stories

If it comes with a condition

If a person should do certain things as requirement to know those stories

Stories are told willingly

Without terms and conditions

You are not required to tell any stories

If you don't want to do it... sincerely

That is why it is called Sharing

:-)

De quoi?

Je ne comprends pas

Ce que tu vas me dire

Tu as dit que tu veux me dire des histoires 

Mais histoire de quoi?

Seulement fragments de mots ou de photos 

Que ne pas se connecter pour moi 

Toi, si tu veux me dire des histoires

Essaies-tu de parler tous les histoires

Pas des fragments

Encore, je ne comprends pas

Ce que tu vas me dire

:-)

Voix

Quelques fois, je veux écouter ta voix
Mais pas de conversation 
Seulement ecouter :-)
C’est bizarre, eh?

Sejatine ora ono opo-opo

Kang ono iku dudu….

:-)

17 Agustus 2021

Happy Independence Day!

I’ve got a lot on my my mind lately

About my contribution to the country or at least to my work

I have always loved what I do, no matter what or where

Because people around me seemed to think that I contributed to the whole efforts, that my presence mattered, and my work was appreciated..

I have always loved to learn new things, understand more, be challenged 

But it doesn’t feel that I’m motivated enough now

Or maybe I’m just tired? Too lazy?

Anyway, it’s still something that will work it’s way around my head for awhile (or long while)

Although I think I know the answer..

I just don’t feel that I want to show my full capacity if I don’t feel that it will be worth it or if I feel that I won’t be appreciated enough

Maybe I’m just being overly too sensitive and that all these thoughts will go away in few days (weeks)

Who knows….

 Bon anniversaire toi :-)

Unchained Melody

Oh my love

My darling
I've hungered for your touch
A long, lonely time
And time goes by so slowly
And time can do so much
Are you still mine?
I need your love
I need your love
God speed your love to me

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(Part lyrics of the Righteous Brothers)

I’ll Remember

 By: Madonna

Say goodbye
Not knowing when
The truth in my whole life began
Say goodbye
Not knowing how to cry
You taught me that

And I'll remember
The strength that you gave me
Now that I'm standing on my own
I'll remember
The way that you saved me
I'll remember

Inside I was a child
That could not mend a broken wing
Outside I looked for a way
To teach my heart to sing

And I'll remember
The love that you gave me
Now that I'm standing on my own
I'll remember
The way that you changed me
I'll remember

I learned
To let go
Of the illusion
That we can possess
I learned to let go
I travel in stillness
And I'll remember happiness
I'll remember, hmm

I'll remember, hmm
And I'll remember
The love that you gave me
Now that I'm standing on my own
I'll remember
The way that you changed me
I'll remember (I'll rememeber)

Now I'll never be afraid to cry
Now I finally have a reason why

Sunday Morning

You know that song by Maroon 5?

Yes, Sunday Morning

I don’t remember the lyrics by heart, but every time I hear the song I felt it

It feels like snow… white…

A quiet morning, snow outside… and yes it’s cold but somehow my heart is warm

So I may not always remember what memory associated with the song, but I almost always can remember how it felt…

Hur mår du Sverige? Jag saknar dig :-)

Trust

I'm that type of person that trust my feelings... 

And so I've been having this weird feeling for few days for now and I followed that

I'm that type of person who'll look and find the information that I need, if I feel like doing it...

And so I did

I guess the lesson learned is that I should always trust my feeling because it will lead me to something

Small thing perhaps...

But that was something unexpected that has been going on for years

By someone I trust(ed) :-)

So when you thought you know the person inside out... think again.. :-)

You may find that there are things that they did not or do not share, knowing that it will raise questions from any person even from a person who try to see the bright side of everything

Good night world... Thank you for letting me know :-)

Universe

I am one of those who believe
that if universe said so,
then nothing is a coincident

So we’ll see...

...

I am truly sorry and I do apologize...
Selamat Lebaran...

“I’m out”

What does it mean?
I don’t know...
I just wish for the best..
Yes, just wishing... a weak thing for some people, but not for me...
I don’t think I ever had plans layout in my head
What I did try is to read what’s the Lord has planned for me..
And I am wishing that ”what I want” becomes that plan..

Bonne nuit :-)

Tu me manque

Beaucoup...

Mais je sais que ce n’est pas encore le moment

11 dan 12

Selamat ulang tahun Ibu
Semoga selalu sehat

I know that you always loves flowers
So I figured I got them for you today :-)


I hope I won’t ever dissapoint you again...

xoxo