one question...

yes he did... last night...
and yet,
there are still so much to be resolved...
so much to be on each understanding...
so much to work on...
so much to commit to...
but so much to be happy for...

I'm not cold feet here...
I'm just thinking...


"pourquoi tu veux m'épouser?"
"parce que, je ne peux pas vivre sans toi..."


*Still don't believe it happened...*

plus de 3 mois

et tu m'aime de plus en plus... :-*

je souhaite que ce seras d'être toujours comme ça

Happy Birthday honey!

Hope you'll love me more and more :p
Wish all the best for you and your life ahead...
And may I'll be a part of it as I have been before...

2 mois

et tu es encore là...
tu ne disparais pas come d'habitude...
et ça, tu m'as raconté déjà si tu ne partiras jamais...
alors, on va voir...
mais en ce moment, je sais que tu m'aimes et que tu essaies d'être là pour moi...
et puisque je vis pour ce moment, ça suffit...

should be tired of wishing...

but I wish that you can see my heart
with all the pain you caused...
and the happiness in mix...
and not too busy with your own..

"hey, I'm here... let me know if I'm on your way, okay? I'll just move aside and let you pass.."

meriang..

sudah hampir lupa rasanya sakit...
ternyata masih ngga enak...
apalagi bakalan sakitnya ngga di rumah...
meskipun cuma sebentar... :'(

mau ditungguin dan dipegangin tangannya..
sampai tertidur...
dan terbangun lagi saat sudah sehat...


*Je sais pas pourquoi, mais tu me manque beaucoup.. encore de plus en plus.. mais je peux pas d'être malade en même temps de ça*

wish upon a star

Just be careful what you wish for...
'Cause you just might get it all...
And then some you don't want...

-home by Daughtry-


*you really really need to be careful about your wishes*

first argument?

notre première dispute ce matin,
mais tu me manque beaucoup déjà...

you're staying...

and we'll see how it goes... :)

does my heart ready to be broken again???

.....
...
.

we'll see...

aduh...

ga boleh tu colongan....
kamu panik sendiri kan jadinya?
tapi pas ditanya kenapa, kok jawabnya cuma "karena ngerasa nyaman" aja??
hmmm....
ga ngerti deh maksudmu...
tapi ya sudah lah...
just stay...

my dear,

It was a fun saturday night.... ;)

So what's next? Bali for 2?? *wink2*

by my side

God knows when I need someone to be by my side...
to get me through obstruction... or just to be there...

And as always... He knew...

Just stay close for now... :)

Keraton Solo

It's the holidays...Lebaran!! (Maaf lahir batin yaa...)

I started to read Romo Mangun's "Burung-burung Manyar" a few days ago when I had Cuplis' regular service-check. An old book, first published in 1981.. I was only 2 years old that year :p
I've read until chapter 6 only, but I like it already. A mix of romance, fight, javanese culture, the royal family of Keraton in particular, the Dutch and Japanese occupation here - historical view, etc.
I should finish this book soon :) I have a dozen more to go :p

I'm currently spending my holidays in Solo, another center of Keraton beside Yogyakarta. I'm still accounted as one of the royal family which is called "Kasunanan" in Solo, but I've never had any interest in knowing more than just "you're in it". But reading the book gave me another glimpse of what it is (still my interest doesn't grow that much though :p).

Anyway, I just want to say that I'm enjoying my holidays with the whole big family and Cuplis :)

Happy holidays and enjoy Lebaran with your family!!


PS. Ran, enjoy your "far away" Lebaran, although it's without Opor Ayam!! :)

no more

of this..
or that..

...

mati satu tumbuh seribu

kill one and many attack...

bisa begitu ya??! :p *a bit amused*

good morning!!!

it's nice to come early to the office
the traffic is not so jammed... the sun is waking up... the fog's still there

When all seems so cool and fresh.... :)

and while I'm already here in the office, the traffic is beginning to soar outside... :p
(I'm at 17th floor and I can still hear the loud traffic :p )

Cuplis got hit

Yup.. Scene in the morning..

Although not exactly hit - crash - bang...
We were stopping at a traffic light (and I always keep my distance with other cars)... But this car infront of me just forgot to hit the break and boom!! It roll backward and I can feel that Cuplis is taking the weight of that car and it didn't budge although I hit the horn.
So I just got to get out and check.. And I can only think that I'm crashing my car within only a few months..there goes my "good driver" reputation..
The back of that car is actually stayed on my front!! Forgot to take a photo though.. Well what do u expect when u're shocked! :p

I practically had to knock the window and tell the driver that her car is bumping mine.
Yeeeeep, a lady driver! Sh**t, I always hate it when they say that girls are not good in driving because I'm a good driver.. But there's my proof.. *sigh*
And u know what, she didn't even realize that her car is moving!

I don't like prolonging this kind of thing, so after that car moved its butt of my car, I just checked the damage and was going inside Cuplis when the guy, her friend on the passenger seat, came to apologize.. See how polite she is?! Pheeww... (regardless is a fasting month where apologies seem to be everywhere...)

Luckily.. That car was bumping just exactly on my car plate and I put some kind of frame for the plate... And it held the weight of that car.. Thank God! So I don't need to get all the trouble of coming to the repair-shop.

Anyway now, I just arrived at my office and took photo of the plate.. See how it's curving in the middle? It should've been flat... :p

simple heart

why it should be simple??
because I don't handle well on complication.. :p

have a great weekend guys!!! ;)

and what do you know...
it's still numb... ;'(

guess I was badly fell

does being sleepy can also cause the numb?

my cappucinno on my messy desk..

my heart

just numbed...
no clear reason...
it's numb...

all the scars and the sore..
all the pieces that were glued back..

maybe it's just too tired... for now...

Prays

"God gives what you need in life and not what you want"

All of my life, I always get what I want... (well.. it's true.. :p )
I'm not the kind of person who likes to chase hard on what she want.. never do that..
And I don't think I'm the kind of person who ask a lot of things... (was not before, but I might ask more things lately :p )
But I do always get what I want eventually...

I wanted to continue my study.. and there I was in Sweden..
I wanted to travel free of cost.. and I was in Europe, got a chance to take picture in front of Petronas tower, stepped on five big islands in Indonesia.. everywhere and no money was spent.. I even get paid for it :)
I wanted to drive my own car to the speed limit.. and I have Cuplis for now..
I wanted to meet people from different countries... and I have friends from all over the world..


All of that are just examples.. and those are things that I acknowledge after a very long time, years difference between wanting and getting it... Only seen when I look back through the path of my life.. All comes at the time when I need it or you can say deserve it...
And I'm grateful for what I have...(and for what I don't have.. :p)
--although lately I feel like I'm not that grateful, feels like I'm wanting what other people have.. :( which shouldn't be like that... Thanks to the reminder from Anonymous' comment!!!

But just today..
I'm shown that I can get what I want... when I need it... and if I wish it hard (read: pray)

This morning I asked God for not giving me any chance to meet a person in any kind of way possible since I won't be able to refuse any meeting if he asks for one (I'm just being to weak to say no). and I practically begged for it... (we should, don't we??)
I asked him to give me reasons so I won't be able to meet that person.. reason that doesn't come from myself since I've already have so many plan today in which in all of that tight schedule, I still have some chances to meet that person, and he will take that chances with all his might..

First reason I got was a call from my best friend, asking what I'm going to do after work.. and she doesn't sound good at all.. So I promise to cut one of my schedule short and meet her afterwards... (she said we'll see though, since she's not really in her usual calm, which actually worries me)

Then I went to a meeting and had lunch with some friends from college at FX
When I got back at the office, another reason was there...

Second reason was from the person himself.. :) He said he might not have the chance to meet me today since he has to take care of some matters at home...

....
....
....
....
....

I asked for a reason... and He gives me (at least) two... (since the day is not over yet)
I actually really want to meet the person and was kind of hoping that I will have no other choice than to meet him today.... (although I was begging for not meeting him... but you know how it is when you want something that you know you shouldn't want)
Well, He knows better of my need.. :) He knows that I need not to meet him...

It's why my Yahoo Messenger status that I put on this morning is right after all
"Friday I'm in Love"
some people asked about it.. and now I know that I really am in Love...
.....with my life.....
:p hehehe.. narcissism?? a positive one if I may say so... :)

Have a good weekend everyone!! and Enjoy Life...!!
Live for the present and not for the past..
Care about this moment and worry not about tomorrow ;)

morning public transport....

My car is on its way to Solo with my cousin driving it right now...
We had a sad news yesterday saying that my grandma's brother passed away, so we need to get there a.s.a.p. It's a long weekend this week and public transport tickets for the whole family are out of questions.. So two cars are going to Solo...
I couldn't go with them because I have a whole staff meeting today, but I plan to leave after the meeting. Luckily, my dad got me a ticket for this afternoon's flight but with a very expensive price though... (however, it's still quite reasonable amount for emergency situation...)
Anyway, so I'm going there as well today....but without my car!!
I should've been the one who's driving it long way... I want to drive 600 km with it :'(
Well, maybe it's for the best... :)

Anyway, with no car at home, I asked Ira, one of my ganks who still lives in the same housing area with me, if I can come along half way to the office, since our offices are on different region. So she dropped me off at Blok M...
It was the nearest junction she can stop, so I practically had to walk a few hundreds meter to the bus terminal. Then I realize, I miss my morning walk that I usually take when I didn't have my car... :'(

There are 2 choices to take, busway or regular bus.
I took the regular bus since it was quite empty :) maybe since it's still 7 AM in the morning...
I sat near the entrance, my favourite seat on any public transport since I can feel the wind breeze there :p and also if the bus is quite full, I can still get some fresh air there (you know how Indonesian buses are when they're full).
But the bus wasn't so full... and the road wasn't jammed yet... and the wind breeze was still fresh... and I love it!!
As the bus passes the familiar road, I did my usual habit of watching people on the sidewalk...
And again... I miss that!! I never had a chance to do it when I'm driving my car... too busy watching the road and the car in front of me... :'(

So today I learn... that there are lots of things that I miss...
taking the bus...
my morning walk from the bus stop to the office...
watching people on the street heading for work...
seeing people who actually is working on the street...

I should give Cuplis* a break once in a while and take a bus instead...


*Cuplis, that's how I call my car :p

Don't Bother...

by Shakira

She's got the kind of look that defies gravity
She's the greatest cook
And she's fat free

She's been to private school
And she speaks perfect French
She's got the perfect friends
Oh isn't she cool

She practices Tai Chi
She'd never lose her nerve
She's more than you deserve
She's just far better than me

So don't bother
I won't die of deception
I promise you won't ever see me cry
Don't feel sorry

And don't bother
I'll be fine
But she's waiting
The ring you gave to her will lose its shine
So don't bother, be unkind

I'm sure she doesn't know
How to touch you like I would
I beat her at that one good
Don't you think so?

She's almost 6 feet tall
She must think I'm a flea
I'm really a cat you see
And it's not my last life at all

So don't bother
I won't die of deception
I promise you won't ever see me cry
Don't feel sorry

Don't bother
I'll be fine
But she's waiting
The ring you gave to her will lose its shine
So don't bother, be unkind

For you, I'd give up all I own
And move to a communist country
If you came with me, of course
And I'd file my nails so they don't hurt you
And lose those pounds, and learn about football
If it made you stay, but you won't, but you won't

So don't bother,
I'll be fine, I'll be fine, I'll be fine, I'll be fine
Promise you won't ever see me cry

And after all I'm glad that I'm not your type
Promise you won't ever see me cry


*nice... :)

still tired...

of living a lie...
for something that I don't have...
and something that's not mine...
which is everything to me for now....
.....
...
.

system status:

- heart disfunction
- hardware failure
- programs're not responding
- software needs to be reinstalled
...
Restarting is recommended...

wrong day

To use high heels... :p

Try being pretty once a year on your birthday... And guess what?
The building management decided to have a fire drill TODAY!!!! :'(
My office is on the 17th floor...
High heels and 17 floors of stairs?? Not a good combination.. *sigh*
Just hope I can still feel my legs tomorrow...

by the way...

today is my birthday!!! :p
well.. not until tonight actually... since I was born at night...

white rose

No one ever send me flowers before... :p (read: really send it by courier)
One red rose yes, a bunch of red roses yes, but they were all not sent :) it's hand to hand...
but this one....


It's just there on my desk this morning... :p

Thanks Black!!! ;)
It's nice of you to do that...

dream list

(Doesn't necessarily mean that I need it though :p )

- vacation - to Bali or elsewhere.. (postponed for lack of time)

- black rubber for my car
- iPod shuffle 2GB (not really needed actually since I've my radio in the car :p )
- mobile device, dual ON for GSM n CDMA
- notebook, weight less than 2 kg, windows vista, 10" LCD at least
- CANON lenses for my camera :p
- humid-proof box for my gadgets
- waterproof watch

Hmmm... What else... :p
I guess it's already a lot and I need to start saving NOW!!! :D

Tentang Diriku

by: Kahitna

Semalam aku bermimpi
Bertemu dengan dirinya
Ingin rasa tuk mengulang
Hangatnya cinta tadi malam

Sudah taukah dia tentang diriku
Yang tak mungkin mencinta disaat tak tepat lagi
Yang kuragukan dia akan bertahan
Bila tau diriku yang tak mungkin memiliki

Oh beginikah rasanya
Tak boleh lagi jatuh cinta
Tapi mengapa dirinya seolah memberi harapan

Jujur saja aku
Tak pernah rela melepas cintanya

For your eyes only... ;)

tuesday's work

Starts with...
"Your computer is unable to start..."

Thank God it's only for 15 min idle time... Pheewww...

bulan

Vra... Bulan sabit ni pagi2!! ;)
Padahal smlm berawan... :)

still sleepy...
coffee... cappucinno... *dreaming in a meeting*

good intention

Here's how I start this week...this day...
...With good deed...

Let's see,
I woke up early today so I can go to the office earlier than usual. Why? Because it's a week minus of the start of our team's probation period. In attempt of showing that we want to make this team work, so why not start this week with "I love monday".
And so I left home 45 minutes earlier than I usually do..taking the usual route of course.. (Home_Tekno park_Latinos_tol road BSD-Fatmawati_Antasari_)
Smooth at first, then there's an unusual traffic jam after Tekno park's gate :( the street is not being repaired, so the jam is quite strange...
I asked a truck driver coming from the other direction and he said there's an accident in which the truck fell side way ('terguling bhs inggrisnya apa ya?? :p') and suggested that I turn around since it'll take forever..
And so I did...
Told my brother about this as well since he has just left his house (see how I tried to start the day as good as I can? I usually left home much later than he does...)
So here I am (or should I say 'we are' since my brother's car is just right behind me), taking the route through Serpong market (jam near the market as usual, but still there's hope..) to reach the tol road...

We'll see how the rest of my day will go...


(Blogging while driving is suggested if u're in a traffic jam :p hehe...)

black rubber

I want that black thing on my car...!!! :p
Anyone knows where to get it? *lack of knowledge in car accessories shops*
(photo's taken at Gunawarman street)

just tired....

Enough of all the lies....!
Please just let me be...

start a day

(Sans toi)

Almost fainted at the gym this morning...
Ran for 15 min, did 3 sets of triseps and 1.5 sets of biseps... And I went yellow.. :p so I stopped... Had a hot tea and a cookie :)
Last time was in Lampung when I did a site visit on a project, but it was sooooo hot that day and I couldn't stand the heat :( but today? With air conditioner around... I should be just fine..

So why?!
- Low blood pressure?
- Lack of sleep?
- Too much caffeines?
- Work pressure?
- Too much on my mind?
- No breakfast? (I always exercise without one though.. A glass of milk is usually enough..)

Dunno... :'(

Well, it's better now and I'm on the way to a meeting..

(Blogging while driving is not recommended :p )

cappucinno

I think I'm getting addicted to this drink...
















It started a month ago... 10h00 in the morning...
and it continues until now... (have a cup of cappucinno sitting right next to me here.. :p)
every morning... and sometimes in the afternoon, when I really really really feel sleepy...

Shoot!! I shouldn't be like this...!! feeling sleepy everyday...

thought I've slept well...
I exercise well (go to the gym quite regularly now...)
eat well... drink well... (hahaha... no, I don't drink... well, unless there's an official occasion like the one at the house of Swedish Ambassador last time :p honestly, drinking in Indonesia is not fun... it's a hot country and you're drinking something that makes you even hotter? doesn't make sense... :p )

what else...
I drive well... (with speed, for sure...)
work well... (think my boss might protest on this one since I think I'm not doing too well lately... maybe I need some vacations... but with all the projects, I'm lucky to have the weekend for myself --which I'm forcing to always have it, of course --)

so it should be enough... sleep... eat... drink... work...
maybe lack of fun?? :D hehehe... not really...
I have had more fun in the last weeks than I had last month...

am I getting bored with the job??
well... no... I don't think so...
if I'm bored, I usually won't get up for work at all... :D (bad habbit... but good to know, so if the sign comes out, I know that I should start looking for new job :p)

my cousin said that I'm just too tired... (she said that she's tired just by watching me doing my activites.. :p ) really?? hehehe... dunno...

anyhow... I'm kind of enjoying to have cappucinno each morning ;)

wanted

@summarecon mall serpong
18.45-20.30

Finally... ;)
With Iit and Arum...

pile of books

I have a pile of books in my room... Books that I haven't got time to read yet... Books that I've bought since the start of this year... Good books! But I just don't have the time.. :(

Anyway, because of that, I've promised myself that I won't buy anymore books before I finish my pile of unread ones...
And then just now, I drop by at a book store (boy, am I looking for trouble there :p) and there's one book that interests me... (And of course I can't buy it because of my promise...)
It's called "way to live forever"
Tells a story about a boy with leukimia and writing a diary on the last days (or weeks?) of his life to know what death means...

I really need to finish all my books NOW :(


Ps: but I bought a new perfume though :p

toi

Je déteste d'être faible avec toi...!!
Tu sais que je n'ai pas la force pour refuser de la rencontre...
Tu sais que je vais faire ça, si tu me demande...
Et tu vois des mes yeux, si je n'ai pas le coeur de briser ton coeur...

Mais on doit s'arrêter...
Si tu ne peux pas, alors je vais l'essayer... tout seul...!!


...

Aaarrgghh....!!!

does it have to be this difficult??!!!
think positive...!
it's only been 2 days...
so just do it step by step and you should be alright...
as always... ;)

TAKEN

Saturday, July 12, 2008 - 23h45 @Blitz

Finally, I got to watch "Taken"... :D

We were thinking to play pool, but everyone just seemed to be too tired to play...
Anyway, we went to Setiabudi Building first (since it has both, cinema and a place to play pool, and we needed the options...)
We were aiming to see a midnight movie, but the tickets were almost sold out for "Wanted" (we really didn't want to sit on the front rows) but the choice of playing pool wasn't so interesting anymore...

So we're heading to Grand Indonesia... which I just noticed that I didn't know how to get there (and I should be the map of Jakarta :p). Thank God I was able to reach a friend from the office for direction (thanks mba Gina!!)

And so it was... Taken!!
Very interesting movie, for me at least...
I just love how the father would do anything for the safe of his daughter :)
It doesn't mean that I love the violence, of course...

I got everyone else who were mostly sleepy at the time, to be wide awake and see the movie from A to Z :D nice, isn't it... :p

Another fun of the week...!
keeps me distracted from some thoughts... :) Thanks!!

Love you guys so much!! We'll do it again next time we all get together...

arm training 2

I was suggested to use elbow support to prevent it getting worst... :(
Luckily it should be still a muscle problem and not neuro... ;)

Hancock

It was an accident actually that I got to see Hancock...
I was supposed to watch Wanted, as it was said by Ade, the one responsible for dragging me to the cinema (although I've already said that I was sleepy yesterday...)

So there we were the four of us, Ade, Fikri, Didit and me... watching the movie...
with a strange combination of seat - Fikri, Didit and me, three seats altogether; and Ade separated from us -
What was he thinking when he bought the tickets anyway? I was suspecting that he should be with one more person to sit there...
(my wild guess, it should be a girl! :p gossip mode:ON).
Luckily, the seat next to Ade was empty so Fikri moved there...
(with my previous assumption, I wasn't so surprise that it's empty and no one claimed it at the middle of the movie - suspected that he already paid for it... hehehe...)

OK, enough with the gossip (I have one more actually... but let's save it for later... so Rani if you read this, I'll make sure that the gossip is accurate before forward it to you :p )

It was a good entertaining movie...
Although at first I was kind of grumbling about Ade's decision (since I just met some friends as well at CCF and one of them said that her friends told her the movie wasn't so good),
but in the end...
it was fun..

It's fun to be with old friends...

And as they said it last night...
"Mumpung masih single ni, kalau ga mana bisa kita ngajakin elo kayak gini..."

Amid all of the questions asking "kapan nikah loe?", "tunggu apalagi sih?", etc.
it's nice to hear something different for a change...

I'm glad I decided to go out with you guys... ;)

Next time should be.... "Wanted"... right?? :D

Arm training...

this morning...

think I hurt my arm again... :(

african dance

So it is called.. :p

It was one hell of a dance!!
And most important thing, it was so much fun.. ;)

Thanks Ie, for keeping up with me.
Shall we do it again next week?
Or... One of the day of this week?? ;)

time heals...

almost everything....

le temps va guérir presque tous....

seuleument un jour...

après l'accord de dégager...

mais tu me manque beaucoup... de plus en plus depuis hier...
incroyable...!!!
je veux pas come ça... je déteste d'être come ça...
:'(

premonition

If such conversation occurs...
..... a should be forgotten conversation...

xxx (6/26/2008 2:48:09 PM): nobody is perfect, makanya 99%.
yyy (6/26/2008 2:52:13 PM): Kiss on the Forehead: I want to be with you for the rest of my life. ---> your 1%
xxx (6/26/2008 2:53:48 PM): ....thats why i said sorry for being not perfect to u.....
xxx (6/26/2008 2:54:01 PM): walaupun sering tak lakuin ke kamu...........
yyy (6/26/2008 2:55:26 PM): I don't want a perfect person...
yyy (6/26/2008 2:55:48 PM): I want him to stay by my side for the rest of my life...


So what do you think girls??
Is "kiss on the forehead" true and would last??
If it's true then 'the rest of my life" is not that long.... :'(
Or are you dealing with a player??

We'll see....

My Unintended

I'm loosing it... :'(
Never lost a fight before...
Should fight harder...
Keep all the feelings blocked...

But it's harder than I thought it would be...

Complicated should never be an option...

For this option, it's not even close to the worst... It's worst than the worst...!
Still I'm crawling to get my eyes fix on the best choice... one that everyone see as the best..
not an easy things... but I'm trying here...


I opt out my dear.........
so help me God...


I've promised to guard you... keep you safe from harm...
And I shall do that...
Don't know how... with all the feelings that are not supposed to grow...
But I will do as best as I can... to keep my words...

----------------

You could be my unintended
Choice to live my life extended
You could be the one I'll always love
You could be the one who listens
to my deepest inquisitions
You could be the one I'll always love

I'll be there as soon as I can
But I'm busy mending broken pieces of the life I had before

First there was the one who challenged
All my dreams and all my balance
She could never be as good as you

You could be my unintended
Choice to live my life extended
You should be the one I'll always love

I'll be there as soon as I can
But I'm busy mending broken pieces of the life I had before

I'll be there as soon as I can
But I'm busy mending broken pieces of the life I had before

Before you

-Unintended by Muse-

blogging with blackberry

Don't know if this works though :p

*background music: James Blunt - goodbye my lover*

why does grass looks greener in the neighbour's yard...
And why do you even want those grass when you have a yard full of nice trees??!!

I've no idea why...
But the man just keep on coming to see and, if nature's being nice, to smell, the grass...

While the grass thinks that it would not fit in with those trees, its curiosity draws it closer...and closer...
And you know what? Curiosity kills!!
Fortunately, the grass knows... So it stays in the neighbour's yard and try to ignore the man, which would be one of the hardest things it has to do in its lifespan...

*background music: Once - aku mau*




**** wish you could stop and let me be ****

still wish...

That you're not you.....


I feel my wings have broken In your hands
I feel the words unspoken Inside
When they pull you under
And I would give you any thing you want
You were all I wanted
All my dreams are falling down
Crawling round and round and round

Somebody save me
Let your waters break right through
Somebody save me
I don't care how you do it
Just save, save
Come on
I've been waiting for you

I see the world has folded in your heart
I feel the waves crash down inside
And they pull me under
And I would give you anything you want
You were all I wanted
All my dreams have fallen down
Crawling round and round and round

Somebody save me
Let your waters break right through
Somebody save me
I don't care how you do it
Just save, save
Come on
I've been waiting for you

All my dreams are on the ground
Crawling' round and round and round

Somebody save me
Let your waters break right through
Somebody save me
I don't' care how you do it
Just save me, save me
I've made this whole world shine for you
Just save, save
Come on
I'm still waiting for you

Save me by Remy Zero (OST Smallvile)

"My Last Breath"

hold on to me love
you know i can't stay long
all i wanted to say was i love you and i'm not afraid
can you hear me?
can you feel me in your arms?

holding my last breath
safe inside myself
are all my thoughts of you
sweet raptured light it ends here tonight

i'll miss the winter
a world of fragile things
look for me in the white forest
hiding in a hollow tree (come find me)
i know you hear me
i can taste it in your tears

holding my last breath
safe inside myself
are all my thoughts of you
sweet raptured light it ends here tonight

closing your eyes to disappear
you pray your dreams will leave you here
but still you wake and know the truth
no one's there

say goodnight
don't be afraid
calling me calling me as you fade to black

holding my last breath
safe inside myself
are all my thoughts of you
sweet raptured light it ends here tonight


by Evanescence

Wish...

I wish you're not you...

With all the smile and laugh that I really like..
With your curiosities and questions that make me think about a lot of things..

I wish you're not you...

Who do things on purpose, just to hear me say my silly comments.. and then laugh when I do..
Who got me think about what I'm thinking now.. about life and love..

I wish you're not you...

With your thoughts that struck my mind.. like a thunder in the spring time..
Who makes me see things differently... in a good kind of way..

I wish you're not you...

Who now always come to my mind each time I need a good laugh..

Don't mean to be ungrateful.... but I wish you're not you...
I wish you're someone else.....

but some wishes don't come true because it's just what you've got to deal with now...

pagi ini... hujan...

gue lupa gulung celana jeans waktu turun dari mobil dan jalan ke kantor.. jadi basah deh stengah betis... ga kering2 pula nih... :(
gpp sih.. krn gue suka ujan dan hari ini hujan ga berenti2 sejak pagi... :) senangnyaaaa....
lebih enak lagi kalau hari ini gue ga ada di kantor :p tapi sekarang gue lagi di meja gue di kantor, berkutat dengan blog (eh kerjaan juga lah :p ) plus gue lupa ga bawa jaket.. jadi AC di kantor berasa dingin banget!!! :D

udah lama ga nge-blog.. sedikit lupa cara yg baik utk nge-blog ;)

berharap gue di rumah ni... ada coklat panas... dan buku2 gue yg belum sempat gue baca gara2 pulang malem mulu... plus.. ada biola gue yg baru ;) huehehehe... yup! gue sekarang lagi mencoba belajar biola... artinya mencoba belajar sabar... :p soalnya susah!!! and not to mention costly :)
I wish I'm at home...

met taun baru...

semoga dunia semakin indah untuk semua orang... ;)

end of year means...

deadline for projects...!!!

why does it have to be like that??? pheww...

spare time

Pheeww... almost forgot about this blog.. :p
just a few days ago I talked to a friend and at different occasion to my cousin...
we had the same subject of conversation... TIME...
in a very similar opinion... that when we were still in college or university, we seems to have the whole time in the world... doing loads of things and yet we still have a good rest... time was unlimited... but money was not... ;)
in the contrary, after we're working now... we seem to lost a lot of times... we come home from work and we just too tired to do other things except being lazy in front of the TV and then fall asleep... :p but then, we have no problem with money...
it was so funny when we talked about that.. remembering the old times when we really don't have money even for food :p
you really can't have it all... :)
although I had the experience of having both pleasure in a short time when I studied in Sweden :p hehe...
Got a scholarship which means that I don't need to worry about cash..
Had a lot of time as well beside studying..
miss those days..... a lot!!!
:)

conversation by sms

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Sep 24, 2007 16:31:25
jam brp bu flightnya? mw dines apa jln2? smp bli buku dl, 2 biji pula..
udh, byasa aja ko! tetep inget lo, tp bkn gara2 org tu...

Sep 24, 2007 16:35:03
Ga se-ngeselin g ya? huehehe.. Nanti flight j5.15. Tetep inget g krn apa jdnya? :p maksa ya g?! hehe..

Sep 24, 2007 16:38:38
mgkn.. atau bs jd blm.. hehe.. ya akhir2 ini emg lg inget aja.. :p

Sep 24, 2007 16:39:16
:p tiati, ntar addicted loh!! :p

Sep 24, 2007 16:40:30
ya gpp kan.. slama ga bertepuk sblh tgn..
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no further explanation.. SOooo unclear.. :p

uncertainty is part of life, somehow...
what will you get if you have everything certain... secure...?
people always think that being secure and certain is what they're looking for...
but in real life... people also committed suicide because they're bored with the security and certainty... (I've lived in a country as such.red)

so what is it that people are looking for??
If I may say..
it's not certainty... nor security...
but peace in the heart that melt all the uncertainty...
it's not certainty... nor security...
but peace in mind that conquer all the insecurity...



Thanks for being so unclear... :p we'll see how it goes... ;)

ga penting...

kayaknya akhir2 ini blog gue isinya ga pentiiiinggg....!!!
berasa terlalu melow :p hehe..

bahkan ga sempat ng-update posting yg ini....
payah deh....!!!

so, mari kita coba dgn berita bergaya lain...

Great News!!
my cousin is going to get married at the end of this month...
my cousin whom I love the most :) not that I don't love the others, but we seems to have a bound since we're just babies :)
So, he will get married and I don't have a clue of the bride... :'(
a bit sad at the sudden news, felt like I've been left out of this one...
but we're grown up... and grown up keeps secret sometimes :)
so, I'm happy for him... hope she is the one for him... and that they'll be happy forever...

Usual News...
just break another heart with my stupidity of being kind but insensitive
another lesson learned, that men are really from mars and women are from venus
My grandma told me that I should NOT reject more than 7 proposal...
counting since junior high??? then I'm doomed!!! :p

Health News...
it's been my usual sickness since junior high... stomach ulcer..
last week was worst... but this week should be better...
so, no worry for now...

Gossip News...
a rumor said that one my (best?) friend didn't get married because her fiance just disappeared couple of weeks before the wedding...
so not true... fact is, she broke up with him for another guy who turns out to be a maniac.. :)

Language News...
start to learn Spanish since 2 weeks ago... :)
still try to remembering all the French grammar... :( difficult if you have no time to practice outside the class..

Pets News...
love my dogs still...!!!!

Friends News...
Either they have babies or they're having ones... :)
My turn will come up eventually :p

Work News...
anyone can give me better offer related to environmental work?? ;)


I guess that's it... waste of my time in the office... ;)

birthday animals....

July 27 - 31 ~ Parasite

If you are a Parasite :
An extremely lovable, adorable person, sometimes shy, with a passion for quick wit. At times, you prefer quietness. You love exploring various things and going into depth of each thing. Under normal circumstances you're cool but when given a reason to, you are like a volcano waiting to erupt. You're a fashion bird. People look forward to you as an icon associated with fashion. Basically, you mingle along freely but don't like talking much to strangers. People feel very easy in your company. You observe care in choosing your friends.

Anyone agree with that?? :)


*boring at the office with many things to do and very little mood (read: it's almost weekend boss!!!)*

back to reality

A week has passed
And I seem to be fine...
So was it for real?? Or was I just dreaming?
Was the feeling really exist?? Or was it just there with no intention to stay??
Did I really care about you?? Or was it just because you care so much of me??

Complicated.... should've never be an option.....

So back to reality... and to simplicity... is the best thing I should do...

flu

19 - ga bisa tidur semaleman, padahal badan gue udah berasa ga enak (which means that I should've rested)

20 - berangkat dgn modal tidur sejam, seemed fine at first, sampe kantor baru mulai terasa sakit kepala, terpaksa pulang setengah hari (bo! kerjaan gue banyak padahal.. :'( ), sampe rumah langsung tewas...

21 - masuk kantor, datang pagi... pulang terpaksa lebih malam dari jadwal rutin gara2 ada dinner (since we had our CEO from the other side of the world that day), sampe rumah cuma sempat tidur ±3 jam karena....

22 - jam 4 musti udah bangun, siap2 ke 4 Seasons gara2 ada acara kantor di sana (though I think I looked good this day, skirt for the day?? definitely unusual for me :p ), siang balik ke kantor.. ngejar deadline... demam naik turun... pulang ga terlalu malem, tapi stay up late to work on a presentation which should be done this morning (23/08) BUT was cancelled since we (my team at work) have to work on our reports for the deadline...

23 - hari ini... masih flu.. batuk makin parah.. tapi udah ga panas kooooq :p dan yg pasti... DEADLINE!!!! :'(

so it does.... or does not...

smile faded away on my face...
by the words that you said, I know yours is fading too...
my knees are getting weaker... thank God I'm not standing by you...
for those words will not come out... as I see the pain flickering in your eyes...
.
..
...
....
I guess it's best... for you and I...
for I'm still not sure about my heart
the pain is there of letting you go
but keeping you waiting will hurt me more
we'll see if our path will cross again
where I shall be sure... of you and I...
and I will be strong... for the two of us...


thank u for being honest and being you...

c'est quoi?

warm feeling on my chest when the word emerges...
smile is growing by the presence...
urge, to always see and stay beside...
with no words, just silence... the radiance still exist...

don't know why... don't know how...
such feeling happens...

don't know what...
don't know when...
it's just there unexpectedly...

...
....
.....
....
...

period of games is over..
thus verification is needed..
time will have to spent on it...
just to be sure that this is it..

...
....
.....
....
...

smile faded away on my face...
by the words that you said, I know yours is fading too...
knees too weak to hold this body straight...
even small fraction of water appear in the eyes...
for unknown reason...
for needing time to be sure...
...........
.......
....
..

I'll wait for time to tell that it's really true....

journey

-will be uploaded soon-

Leo

"There is a lot of flirtatious energy around you -- romance is definitely favored."

Do you believe horoscope??
I don't ....
:p

me and my energy

too many things to do...
with so much energy that I have... or so I thought..
gonna drop soon if I don't keep it steady.. :'(

June...

left without a trace or footnote...
........
.....
...
.
...
.....
........
busy month...

the old me...

I was then not like what I am today...

Just 2 days ago, one person made me realize it... not intentionally... but he did...
by the way he is... the way he smiles... the way he sees problems... the way he laughs at me... the simplicity that goes along with the complexity...
I was like him a few years ago... and I miss the old me... :'(

Life has its problems and obstacles that change people...
I didn't believe it then... but now I do...

So now, step by step... I'll try to be me again...
"Me" that I like ;-)


Thanks Adam!!!! ;-)
for the reminder...

D'cinnamons

Never thought it was from Indonesia...
Sound a bit like the Cranbberies... and basically... my kind of musics...
So, I love it!!!

Loving you (by D'cinnamons)

.....

loving you is hurt some times
i am standing here
you just dont buy
i am always there
you just dont feel
you just dont wanna feel
dont wanna heard that word
it doesnt mean i givin up
i wanna give you
more and more and more

.....

appetite for destruction

health destruction... and eventually... pocket destruction... ;)

a bit confusing?
well, for start... I've been eating a lot... and I mean A LOT... since around 2 weeks ago...

2 weeks ago I went to visit my grandmothers and that's when I started to eat double of my regular Indonesia portion (since my portion in Sweden is double than what I have at home... :p so it's Indonesian portion and Swedish portion for me)
Anyway, at first I thought it was because my cousin had promised me that he will take me out on a culinary journey everyday while I was there...
I was there for a week... and after that... the appetite continues...!!

So then, the destruction starts slowly...

More food... less exercise... (I get home a bit late nowadays so I didn't feel like jogging or doing other exercise... sleeping is still the top option on the list.. :p)
Meaning... getting bigger.. (read: fatter - although you might not notice it ;) )
I don't mind about the "bigger", but I do mind that if it continues then I have to start renewing my closet (meaning: new clothes!!!) 'coz they won't fit me anymore...
New clothes... more expenses...
And guess where it will lead you...

Pocket destruction...!! ;)

standardisasi

"Yaa.. karena kami memang bukan wanita standar, gak cocok sama cowok standar.. yang lebih mengutamakan cantik & penampilan yg oke saja "
--quoted from Justin--

I totally agree with her...!!! ;)

If we can't be honest about who we really are to the person who is going to be (or already is) by your side (in a promise to spend the rest of our lives together),
Whom are you going to be honest with??!!

2007-1979

Equal to 28. Right??!

So if you're 28, and you think that you should get married, while the one that is by your side is a person whom you can consider to be a "psycho" (in a term of "banging your head on something if you don't get what you want" kind of psycho...). What will you do.....??
On the other hand, your family and friends are by your side to support you if you're brave enough to leave that person by your own decision. Whom to choose....??

Sound like Oprah Show, right?? :p

Well, Oprah just happened in my life...


..... and the main character has chosen to be with him...
......
....
..
so may God be with her...

gorengan dan batuk

kenapa orang kalau lagi batuk ga boleh makan gorengan n cabe?
katanya sih... karena gorengan itu berminyak banyak... (terus blum tentu minyaknya jernih pula)
kalau cabe sih punya alibi yang meyakinkan... krn kalau makan cabe terus batuk2, sakitnya minta ampuuunnn...
tapi... emangnya kalau makan gorengan ma cabe jadi ga sembuh2 batuknya??!!
hmm... kayaknya gue mesti tanya ke dokter gue nih :p
yg jelas gue udah batuk hampir 2 minggu... belum beres2 juga meskipun gue udah "mengurangi" makan gorengan, cabe n minum es...
berhubung hasil dari pengurangan makanan ga mensukseskan hilangnya batuk gue...
yasud, gue mulai makan gorengan dan cabe lagi :D hehehe...
enak!!! meskipun gue jadi batuk2 ga berenti :p

blue sky

saw the blue sky earlier today...
remind me of Sweden...
ne sais pas pourquoi... :-S
although here, it's always blue... but rarely I enjoy it here...
there, there's always time when I can lay my head upon the grass and just enjoy the blue... :)
miss summertime in Sweden...!!!
:'(

dormir...

Je suis dans mon bureau mais j'ai très sommeil..
Je veux dormir....!! huhuhu...
Mais comment?! Qu'est que je dois faire??

Just the Way you Are

Don't go changing, trying to please me
You never let me down before
I don't imagine you're too familiar
And I don't see you anymore
I would not leave you in times of trouble
We never could have come this far
I took the good times, I'll take the bad times
I'll take you just the way you are

Don't go trying some new fashion
Don't change the color of your hair
You always have my unspoken passion
Although I might not seem to care

I don't want clever conversation
I don't want to work that hard
I just want some someone to talk to
I want you just the way you are.

I need to know that you will always be
The same old someone that I knew
What will it take till you believe in me
The way that I believe in you.

I said I love you and that's forever
And this I promise from my heart
I could not love you any better
I love you just the way you are.

(sang by. Barry White)

Hmmm... menyenangkan ya kalau emang kayak gitu...
ga ribet... :)
tapi susahnya,
people always want something that they don't have
so eventually, they'll try to change something that they already have

sol lagi

again...

Pagi ini, gue turun dari mobil tebengan bareng Mia n Ira...
(FYI, karena sandal gue ilang solnya, terpaksa gue pakai sandal lain yg notabene punya higher heels). Kami langsung jalan ke arah kantornya Mia (biasanya gue sarapan di deket situ..)
Baru beberapa langkah...
aduh!! nyangkut lagi nih sandal.. emang tu ya, trotoar di daerah Benhil situ emang ga beres... conblock-nya gujrag gujrug ga jelas...
anyway, gue mulai berhati2 melangkah karena males kesandung n kehilangan sol lagi..

setelah say goodbye ma Ira (dia ga sarapan bareng kita tapi langsung ke kantornya di Mampang), gue terusin jalan bareng Mia..
beberapa langkah jalan (sambil ngomel2 ke Mia gara2 trotoarnya ga beres), tiba2 gue pengin berenti n ngeliat sandal gue....
"Mi, Mi... ntar dulu deh.. sandal gue kok kayaknya aneh..."

TERNYATAAAA....
sol sandal kanan gue udah raib!!!
He?? kemana ilangnya nih!! perasaan masih ada tadi... :p
akhirnya gue ajak Mia menelusuri ulang jalan yang kami lalui tadi (sambil ketawa2 ngga jelas gitu deh... :p)
3/4 going backward, gue nemu sol sandal... (FYI, sol sandal gue itu punya semacam kait, jadi ga di-lem... mekanismenya mirip kancing..)
"Wah Mi, ketemu juga!!! ntar2, gue pasang dulu deh daripada sandal gue rusak..."
gue coba pasang.. hemm.. kok bentuknya aneh ya... dan rasanya ga pas.. :-S
lalu gue coba cek sandal kiri gue... LHO??!! kok bentuknya beda?? masa dalam 3 menit bisa berubah bentuk... :p
"Bukan punya gue nih Mi... cari lagi deh...!!"
full backward trip....
Akhirnya.. ketemu juga sol sandal gue yg asli (dan gue buang tu sol yg salah pungut :p)
Setelah itu, gue berjalan "hati2" alias sebentar2 nengok sandal gue.. takut tiba2 lenyap lagi solnya :p

Good lesson for today:
Brarti bukan cuma gue aja yg kehilangan sol sandal!!! :p
buktinya ada sol yang tidak berpemilik tergeletak di trotoar....
artinya.. memang trotoar di Jakarta makan banyak "korban"
hehehe... :p


Bon Jeudi!!!

sol

habis sarapan pagi (aktivitas reguler) seperti biasa gue menyebrangi jln Sudirman (lewat JPO tentunya) untuk naik bis ke Gatsu.
FYI, jembatan penyeberangan di Benhil itu kondisinya ga beres.. semenan-nya udah lubang di sana-sini.. paku pengikat lantai di rampnya udah copot2...
But as always, itu ga masalah buat gue...
lagi asik menuruni ramp, tiba2 sandal gue seperti kesangkut sedikit. hal normal mengingat lantainya emang udah megap2 gara2 pakunya pada copot.. dengan cueknya gue tetap melangkah... TAPI.... kok tiba2 ada benda kecil hitam yang menggelinding ke bawah ya setelah gue lepas dari sangkutan itu... hmm.. could it be......?? *thinking*
gue terus melangkah turun sampai dapat bus... (masa juga gue berenti untuk ngeliatin benda itu..)
setelah duduk di bus, gue tengok sedikit sandal yg gue pake...
ternyata benar sodara2...!!
benda kecil hitam yg menggelinding itu adalah Sol Sandal gue!!! huhuhu...
*tapi kok tadi gue malah nyengir2 ya.. :p *

jadi hari gue pagi ini diawali dengan hilangnya sol sandal gue....
*mungkin emang harus ganti sandal kali ya.. :p *

Bon Mardi!!

Aceh lagi??

gue diminta ke Aceh lagi untuk ikutan presentasi proyek kemarin...
tadinya ga mau datang karena FYI gue udah gawe di tempat lain...
ternyata...
bos gue yg baru malah ngijinin.. :p hehehe...
emang nasib... mesti balik ke sana... :p
cuma bisa 2 hari... pasti ga bakal ketemu siapa2...
huhuhu...
padahal pengin juga ketemu siapa2... :)

Ringtone Request

(in a phone conversation...)

A : Request donk!!!
me : Apaan??
A : Ringtone buat gue diganti... :P
me : He? Diganti lagu apa??
A : If I ain't got you, Alicia Keys...
me : Hmm.. sepertinya gue ga punya deh...
A : Ya ampuuuuunn...!!! *mencela :p* Bikin yg pas di refrain-nya yaa ;)
me : Yg mana tuh??
A : yg ini...... *singing*
me : Ya ya... tapi ntar2 yaa... :)


....
Some people want it all
But I don't want nothing at all
If it ain't you baby
If I ain't got you baby
Some people want diamond rings
Some just want everything
But everything means nothing
If I ain't got you, you, you
....

(If I ain't got you - Alicia Keys)

2nd day not @work

yep.. I'm home...!!!

Woke up quite early this morning, in the spirit of coming early to work because the train wasn't on time yesterday...

so there I was... all set and ready to go at 5h00 in the morning...
Since my friend (Mia), whom I usually go with to Central of Jakarta for work, is sick today... and since it's raining (not too hard), I changed my plan to go by train... I sms my friend who lives close to my house, and yepp.. he's bringing his car :) So the three of us (add one more of my friend, so it's Aji and Ira and me), we went directly to the highway...
But not so fast... we got delayed for couple of minutes because his friends are also coming with us.. So, there were 5 person in the car now... Off we go...

Entering the highway (but I don't think tol road is a highway since you must pay :p and you don't pay at highways)... driving for a couple of meters... and we stopped... why?? Because... no car can move at that time... It was total jam!! And so we waited there since traffic jam is not unlikely to happen in Jakarta, especially when it's raining... Everyone started to call or send messages to their boss to explain about the situation. I did too... and she said it's okay :)

After an hour, I'm getting hungry and so do the others... but the car's still not moving!!!!
And to add more, there are cars that went on the other direction on our road (they should be on the other road next to ours)... A person walked by (you see, no person can walk by like that if it's a normal situation), he said that sedan can't pass the road because it's flooded.
Other cars behind us started to turn direction... and so did we although we didn't use sedan...

While turning, my boss send an message. She said that it's okay if I can't come to the office today. She just wanted me to send my work by E-mail :)
So, here I am... working... (read: blogging for now.. :D hehe...)
I have sent my work to my boss 2 hours ago but she hasn't replied back (she's the kind of person that is soooooooooo busy).
I was still working before I went on-line to see if my boss has send me E-mail, but then... there's always temptation to blog :D hehe... (I'll work again after this :p)

My brother is home too.. He tried twice to go to his office... but the flood on that road is still high... while other roads are also flooded and full of traffic jams... so only my father is at his office since it's very near my home :p


~~~~~~~~~~~~
It's still raining...
I love it... I love the rain... and I'm happy if it's raining...
Is it okay if I'm happy now because it's raining although people are flooded everywhere in Jakarta?? :-s tricky...

first day @work

sekarang udah lewat jam makan siang...
dan gue mulai mengantuk...
Eia, FYI, kantor gue ini cuma punya 5 orang SDM loh!! *bangga gitu gue... norak deh!!*
kalau dipikir2, jumlah orang di tempat kerja gue makin menyurut ya... (baca: di PCL, di Aceh, skrg di Jkt... :p berkurang mulu, makin sedikit aja teamnya :p)

one lost....

Just lost my dog... one of them... yesterday...
didn't know that I care so much for him until he died :'(
so it was true when people say that you don't know what you've got until it's gone...
biggest and hardest cry that I've ever done in my history of losing pets...

for Bogel...

a loyal guard to the family... my capoeira partner at home...
guess you have fulfil your duty in this world.. a well done job!!!

"sorry for everything that I have or have not done..."
"thank you for the loyalti and the play and little stuff that I do not notice..."
"...rest in peace..."

muterin Jakarta

not exactly like that though...

kami (gue dan sepupu gue) ga muterin Jakarta... tapi kita emang pergi dari rumah pagi2 banget (belum ada matahari)... naik kereta pagi ke sudirman... sarapan di belakang BRI bareng teman gue yang notabene emang pegawai situ :p
terus jalan ke monas (naik busway krn sepupu gue yg udah hampir 4 taon tinggal di serpong tu belum pernah nyobain KRL n Busway :p), muterin monas... took some pictures... istirahat beberapa kali dengan alasan ngambil gambar (padahal capeeee :p)
setelah monas, langsung menuju museum Gajah... rame juga.. banyak yg datang.. barang2 yg dipamerkan lumayan oke, cuma menurut gue penyajiaannya kurang menarik :( jadi inget waktu gue tour di Swedia di museum2 yang isinya "biasa" aja, tapi disajikan dengan cara yang bikin orang jadi bisa berdecak kagum... padahal... kita punya jauuuuuuuuuuhhh lebih banyak dari itu :(

Anyway, udah hampir jam stengah 12, dan kami lapaaaarrrr :D ke Plangi deh... makan junk food (pliissss deehh...). Rencana awal, kami bakal ngubek2 Kwitang, nyari2 buku... tapi gue ngantuk!!! dan gue paling ga bisa diganggu gugat kalau udah ngantuk :D hehe..
so pilihannya adalah pulang.. atau tidur di Kwitang (lho??!!! :p). hehe... akhirnya ngejar transBSD di Ratu Plaza.. begitu duduk di bus.. sepupu gue langsung "menghilang"... tidur dieee... ckk..ckk.. gue?? masih semangat hunting foto2 ga penting (dan emang hasilnya juga ga penting ternyata... cukup singgah sejenak aja di kompi gue sebelum gue delete :p) ga lama gue pun tertidur.. dengan tangan memegang hp, berniat membalas sms seseorang (kayaknya sms ke elo deh rin :p).
pas buka mata lagi udah di BSD deh... :D senangnya... sampai rumah tepat banget waktunya.. krn cuaca udah mendung banget... langit udah mulai gelap :)
so that was our trip to Jakarta :p

and here are some pics...
















(kelihatan ga monasnya?? :p)










(gue ga inget lohh.. ini namanya bunderan apaan yaaa?? :p)











(kalau pagi2 hari kerja, di Monas banyak tentara :p pada olahraga gitu deehh..)



















(jejeran patung di museum Gajah)

weekend kedua di rumah...

capeeee.... kondangan mulu.... :'(
huhuhu....

10 hari di rumah

hmmm...
tanggal 3, di rumah... bangun siang... melepas kangen dengan anak2 gue.. (baca: anjing2 kesayangan)
tanggal 4, cabut dari rumah jam stengah 10, meluncur menuju Pancoran (where hopefully will be my next office... :p amien!!). secara rumah gue jauh dari mana2, begitu udah sampe tengah kota, pastinya ngga mau rugi donk... keluar dari parkiran langsung telp temannya teman gue, yg notabene katanya lagi butuh orang di tempat kerjanya... so, next interview at 5pm. padahal itu masih jam stengah 12... 5 jam lagi untuk dibunuh :p
luckily, sebelumnya gue udah kontak teman gue di salemba, rencana mau ketemuan buat ngasih oleh2 (sebenarnya sih dia nitip... kopi atjech!!) hehe.. jadi lunch time with my old friend from high school deecchh.. (and of course, dia nraktir gue lah... secara dia cowo and hidupnya udah mapan --baca: working permanently at one of the largest bank in Indonesia, one wife and one child :p)
jam 1 siang gue mulai kebingungan mau bunuh waktu dengan cara apa. telp teman2 sejawat (baca: best friends gue yg tinggal deket rumah) untuk ngajakin pulang bareng biar gue ga kena 3in1... dan ditolak bo!! hehe.. ya iya lah.. soalnya itu hari kamis, besoknya hari kerja, dan gue minta mereka nunggu gue interview jam 5... tolong dehh!!
dari salemba (setelah mampir CCF and minta info buat next course), gue jalan ke sudirman. kemana?? kantor lama gue tentunya!! dimana gue bisa ngobrol2 dengan santai.. tanpa rasa sungkan dan malu krn siang2 bukannya kerja malah jalan2 :p hehehe.. jadilah gue berkongkow2 di kantor lama gue sampai jam stengah 4. after that, langsung menuju Jl. Villa (where I had my interview) karena ternyata janji ketemunya bisa dimajuin setengah jam. selesai sebelum jam 6, gue langsung jalan ke Plaza Semanggi... Plan awal adalah, gue menunggu bubaran 3in1 di Plangi bareng ex teman2 kantor lama gue... guess what?? tau kan kalau 3in1 bubaran jam 7 malem?? and you know what... teman2 gue baru datang jam 7 kurang 10 menit!!!!! ckkk..ckk.. tau gitu kan gue ga perlu repot ngajak mereka yg cape2 pulang kantor buat ketemu :p gue bisa mondar mandir di Centro (meskipun itu bakal nguras kantong gue :p) untuk nunggu bubaran 3 in1 :) Tapi nasi sudah jadi bubur... dan gue ga nyesel... :D huehehe.. yaaa... akhirnya dinner bareng deh dan ngobrol2... :p sampe rumah jam 10 malem krn gue baru tau kalau di arteri PI ada pekerjaan jalan yang bikin muaaaceeeeeettttttt :'(
tanggal 5, jalan2 ma nyokap :) hehe... malamnya hang out sama bestfriends gue.. meng-update berita dan gossip2 terkini :)
tanggal 6, di rumah ampe sore... tertidur dengan nyenyaknya dan baru terbangun jam 5 sore.. udah ada 2 sms dari 2 orang yg berbeda di hp... yg satu ngajak nonton... yg satu nanya mau kemana malam itu dan bilang lagi otw rumah gue... terang aja cuma sms pertama gue tanggapin serius, secara yg kedua juga ngga ada di Jakarta (ataupun sekitarnya) dan doyan banget ngerjain gue!! :p so malam itu... akhirnya.... gue tetep ngga jadi nonton!!!! huhuhu... :'( jakarta macet!! sampe PIM, tiketnya udah sold out :'( udah gituuuuu.... dimana2 mesti antri... gile gue mau makan sushi aja ngantreeeee!!! ga jadi deh.. :( gue harus cukup puas dengan foodcourt (makasiiiyy yaa udah mau ngantriin buat gue... )
tanggal 7, acara rutin hari minggu di Gandaria, bertemu teman2 gue.. :p siangnya acara keluarga di Pondok Gede... malamnya... tewas :D
tanggal 8, maunya sih nomat... sayangnya yg pengin nomat sama gue lagi pada nun jauh di mana2 (herrraaaaaann... jadi sebenarnya niat ngga ya ngajakin nomat :p hehe..)
tanggal 9, beres2 kamar... bongkar lemari dan rak2 gue... menyisihkan buku2 yang ngga bakal gue baca lagi :p menyimpan boneka2 gue dalam satu keranjang :p malamnya mencoba buat artikel yang harusnya udah gue bikin dari tahun lalu :'( tetap belum selesai juga... hiksss...
tanggal 10, pinjem motor ade gue buat urusan kecil ke tempat sodara di deket rumah... pheww... untung bisa "home in one piece", secara motornya lebih gede dari gue :p huehehehe... (fyi, I'm quite small and his bike is a Tigi :p). setelah itu jalan ma sodara2 gue... nonton (akhirnyaaaa...!!!!) di PIM, dilanjutin jalan2 ke beberapa toko buku dan Metro (huaaaaaa... kenapa baju itu ngga ada size gue-nya yaaaaa... :'( ), terus makan...
tanggal 11, nganterin ade gue balik ke kantornya setelah jam makan siang... ke Citos untuk membunuh waktu... balik ke kantor ade gue lagi krn dia minta dianterin ke Gambir sore itu :) --makasi yaaaa udah telp2 selama gue menunggu ade gue ngeberesin kerjaannya ;) --
setelah Gambir, off to Setiabudi building :D ada yg mau traktir!! huehehe... and... it's SUSHI time!!! gile gue senang bangetttt!!! Makasi ya Ver....!!! :D ....so last night was girl talk with sushi dishes :D
hari ini, nanti gue mesti anter nyokap ke acara siraman... besok dan lusa... banyak banget kondangan yg harus gue datangin!! :'( huhuhu...
common questions would be "kapan nih undangannya mau diedarin??" or "loe kapan merid??" (which is lebih vulgar dari pertanyaan sebelumnya :p). dan secara gue masih "single fighter", pertanyaan2 itu bisa menohok ulu hati gue.... :'( tapiiiiiiiii... secara ini gue... dan gue banget... tohokannya ngga kena...!!! :D hehehe.. maap yaaaa... bukan gue ga mau diingetin kalau "it's already my time"... tapi semua akan indah pada waktunya..tanpa perlu diburu2..atau dipaksakan ;) ya ngga?? ya ngga?? hehehe...

home sweet home

sudah pulang...
mungkin kembali lagi...
bukan di "wadah" yang sama...
tapi tidak menolak untuk datang lagi ;)

bakal kangen sama Aceh...!!!
kangen sama teman2 baru di sana...
kangen sama adik2 gue yang menemani gue selama di sana (in good or bad, sad or happy, iseng atau jahil... :) definitely going to miss you -all 4 of you- a lot!!!)
kangen sama.... semua hal.. that'll only happen there ;)

Au revoir Aceh... Bienvenue Jakarta ;)

too much

gue pengin mengeluh...
tapi buat apa... emang udah begini jalannya...
gue pengin cerita...
toh ngga ada yg bisa dilakukan...
gue pengin ngomel...
udah cape banget selama ini jadi orang yg selalu ngomel...

bottom line is..... gue pengin pulang.... :'(

"...and I'll be more silence than before..."

deadline....

HUAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA...................

free internet...

@ Perkim... :D
wireless and fast connection... yippiiee!!!
unfortunately, there's only one person that I can chat with :'(
where are you guys......??? :'(

5 hour

to my departed time...
Aceh, here I come again.. ;)

suddenly feel tired...

"thanks... for something that's not there anymore...
know this.... I'm always happy if you are..."
(today @14h**)

at last

I'm home for 10 days...

"Never frown... 'cos you will never know who is falling in love with your smile...."

@ Lampuuk Beach

hehehe... c'est moi....

kangeeeeeeennnn

kangen OL....
kangen nomat, nobu, nosa with you....
kangen bebassss....
kangen bisa libur pas weekend and ga mikirin kerjaan...
kangen jalan2 and hang out with all of you guys!!!
kangen olahrasa...
kangen baca buku dengan tenang...
kangen kamar gue....
kangen MELANN!!!! huhuhuhu.....
kangen dinginnya serpong tanpa perlu pake AC :'(
kangen kangen kangen kangen....
kangen semuanyaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa
tunggu gue pulang... dan doa'kan di sini lancar yaaaaa... huhuhu....