7 days

and the countdown continues...

don't try to fix me, I'm not broken...
(Hello - Evanescence)

abstract... abstract... abstract...

not finish yet...

to let go, does not mean you're loosing
to accept, does not mean you're giving up
to wait in patient, does not mean you stop trying

16 days

and the count down begin...

...didn't make sense not to live for fun
your brain gets smart but your head gets dumb...
(All Star - Smash Mouth)

working hard and having fun should be in an equal relation ;)
and not just the fake fun!! but the real fun...!!!
where you can smile and laugh with your heart...
so one question if you're working hard right now: Are you having fun??
I don't think so... ;) so take a break for awhile... go outside and do something fun!!!
be back in an hour and you'd be smarter than before ;)

there's just...

too much.. that time can not erase
too little.. that mind can ignore

I look but I don't see
I touch but I don't feel
I hear but I don't listen
pointless...

what do you want??

you... to see through my eyes and find what's behind my trouble mind
you... to make me laugh when I don't want to and hold me when I'm angry
you... to like me for my choices and tell me straight when I do something wrong
you... to judge me not for what I do and trust me with all your heart

you...

far behind

when you really work... you know that you're way far behind the schedule...
and when you know you're behind...
you tend to rush everything... tend to be careless...
forgetting small stuff which, most of the time, is important...
so which is better... to know... or not to know... ???
someone said, happy are those who do not know... :)
what d'you think?? ;)

minggu ini?? let's see...

hari ini...

gue masih sakit... menyebalkan... I thought that I will be okay yesterday since I was sick on monday :( Turned out that I had a fever yesterday, which is far from better...

teman gue ada yang sedih karena ditinggal soulmate-nya pulang ke Indonesia (but we are here to take care of you dear.... don't worry..)

senangnya ada yang bilang kangen sama gue... although it's just an E-mail, which came yesterday and got caught in my bulk mail until I rescued it. Miss you too!!

gue sebeeellll.... because I just wasted the whole week by doing absolutely NOTHING for my thesis and I have to come out with a progress report next week...

Tika

today... this time of day in Indonesia... one of my best friends get married...
hope she will remember that this is the end of her adventures ;)
and may you two live happily ever after...
Tika and Ando...
CONGRATULATIONS!!!

p.s. Details please... I'm not there doesn't mean that I shouldn't know about the party ;)

6 years ago

Was it love then?
It sure was a lot like it...

crap(b) day

today..
should've been working..
but instead, we went to the center..
bought some things (luckily, I passed this temptation to buy something :p)..
ate ice cream although it was rather cold, but the ice cream was so good..
and finally.. CRAB time!!
we bought this 3 BIG crabs (actually, she bought it and didn’t let me pay for it :p thanks!!) , cooked it and ate them..
just simple dish, but with the most important thing, CHILLI!! :D hehe...
great dish followed by good exercise... (we went swimming afterwards..)
another wonderful day for me ;)

I could never do what I intended to do before.. working hard without having fun..
It's so totally not possible for me :D

hectic.. panik.. pusing..
abis ketemu supervisor gue.. kok kayaknya gue jalan di tempat ya...
hueee... jadi "sedikit" khawatir... tapi kan ga boleh khawatir... if I'm worried then I don't trust that everything is under His control, so I shouldn't be worried... but I just can't help it.........
well okay, I'm trying not to be worried now.. by reading a journal (hehe...) strange way to ease the worrier :D

... angel ...

Spend all your time waiting
For that second chance
For a break that would make it okay
There's always one reason
To feel not good enough
And it's hard at the end of the day
...
(Angel - Sarah Mclachlan)

"She didn't believe in angels until she fell in love with one"
City of Angel - 1998, Pamulang 21 cinema
A remembrance of good times in the old days...

another "today's forecast"

they say that,

"Love can be a surprise, but if you're willing to do the work, it can be a lovely one. If you're attached, now's the time to look at the deeper issues.
If you're single, it's time to examine your attitudes toward love."

Do I have attitudes?? :-o Well, I don't think I have the attitudes (read: bad attitudes) or maybe some of you think I do have :p hemm... yep, probably I do.. sometimes.. How can I say, no one ever touch my heart that deep to deserve the big "L" word to occur ;) But I do believe that when the time is right, then...

Anyway, I just watched this really nice movie on TV. I really like this kind of movie, you know, the one with the main characters struggle to achieved their dreams, and succeed in the end :p some of you might say, "come on... it's just some typical Hollywood movie.."
BUT this one that I saw was (I think) a production from England, and the main character is an Indian girl (read: a girl with India as her native country) that live in England. And... The movie was about soccer game ;) Nice one!! I will just write the title here just to remind me again about this movie someday... It's 'Bend it like Beckham'.
I was just thinking.. What I really want before was just to go abroad and study the subject that I really like. So, you can say that's my dream. And I have it now!!! :D So, I should be very happy... Well, I am happy!! :D
And not only that, I have learnt more about life itself here, different kind of life :)
Now, can I have another dream?? I should say "who can forbide me to have a dream?!" well of course No one but the Creator of the universe. So, I guess I will have another dream... or maybe I've already had one... Just waiting for me to realize its existence and for me to fight for it ;)

...
forgive me God for I had lost my temper this morning
...

BMW gue

tau kan gue belum bisa beli mobil?? :p
nah, tapi gue udah punya setiran mobil BMW dari adik gue.. kecill dan lucuuu dan imuuttt.... oleh2 pas dia kerja di Balikpapan..
tapi sekarang setiran gue ilanggg :(( hiikkksss... baru nyadar malam ini... sebel deh!!!! so careless of me :(

old friend

Wise man say, only fools rush in
But I can't help falling in love with you
Shall I stay, would it be a sin
If I can't help falling in love with you
...
(Can't help falling in love - Elvis Presley)

Got your e-mail tonight
Glad to hear you got a job
Never thought I'd say (or feel) this
But I guess I miss you...
Good luck for you there!!!