besok puasa...

mohon maaf lahir dan batin yaa...
selamat berpuasa teman2ku...

menjelang detik-detik perayaan kemerdekaan

"Bahwa sesungguhnya kemerdekaan itu ialah hak segala bangsa, dan oleh sebab itu maka penjajahan di atas dunia harus dihapuskan..."

Susahnya menghapus penjajahan... :(
Walaupun judulnya sudah merdeka, tapi rasanya penjajahan dalam berbagai bentuk tetap ada...

Walaupun begitu...
"Sekali MERDEKA tetap MERDEKA!!!"
Semoga aku bisa berguna untuk bangsaku... :)

Selamat Ulang Tahun Kemerdekaan Indonesia-ku tercinta!!!

score of 7 or 8

I met one of my bestfriends today...!
We're like bound to each other when I was in college and I haven't seen her for a very long time as she has been living in France..
So it was a very pleasant and fun meeting..
I picked her up at her house and met her mother who's still the usual her, like the old days ;)
She remembers me for sure, I was the one who kept the phone busy back then (either her daughter called me or I called her), stayed over for group study before exam (which usually was full with gossip and "curhat"), and lots of other things.. :p

So for the meeting, we went to PIM together with Maïssa, her daughter... Yup, she's married since around 4 years ago when I was still in Sweden..

As we talked about lots of things back in the old times, we did the same today.. ;) I even lost track of time and practically had to race home to arrive in time before "the carriage turns into pumpkin" again :p but we usually lost track of time anyway (and made my mother jumped everytime the phone bills came :p)

We talked about many things, update on our friends latest news and then about marriage as well (not a new topic of this month, huh?)
As I mentioned to her about some of my friends with their "not so bad" situation and telling me to enjoy my "dating time" while it lasts because it won't be like that when you're married, she said something refreshing...
"Well it will be different and I'm not saying that I don't argue with my husband, I did have a fight with him which got me cried and deeply sad, but on the scale of 1 to 10, I think we have 7 or 8"

I like the sound of it, they are working for their marriage to succeed..and she admitted that it takes both sides to do it..

I would like that please...
With a goodwill to start and efforts to make it last for as long as God granted you the numbers...

things I'd really want..

-- Come to Stéph's wedding in October.
She's a dear friend and we had so much fun in Sweden. Jenny will be there, another dear friend from Sweden. Well, return ticket to Paris, her hometown, is around US$875 to US$ 1050... That's the cheapest... There will be few more € to be spent, assuming staying at least a week is proper and visiting some other friends there is a must... And for gifts and souvenir and fun...

-- Canon EOS 50D
A friend told me that it will be cheaper when the 60D is launched.. I think it won't be in the near time, right? Price of body + standard lens 18-55mm is around Rp 12mill. With 18-200mm lens (that is one of the dream) will be approx. Rp 15mill

-- another event
If this shall occur in this year, it may be 10 times the round ticket...


Pheeew... The wishes are kind of big this year... I had two wishes granted last year... I may be lucky enough to have another two this year :p or I may be blessed by not getting anything.. :p we'll see... I still believe that everything is happened for a reason.. A reason that's best for me, as long as I stay close with The decision maker... ;)

today's topic: marriage

Why?
Because people that said hi to me on YM were bringing that subject along in the conversation..

#1 (out of nowhere)
Friend 1: loe mau merid bulan November ga? Gue mau over dp ni.. Gedungnya ok loh.. Di P****j*** :)
Me : ha? Kejauhan tu buat gue.. :p
(And the conversation continued to catering choice, date, etc.. Hers, of course :p not mine.. Basically because she is the one having a wedding soon and not me :p Hehe)

#2
Friend 2: kapan kawin loe?
(ga pake basabasi-red)
Me : nanti.. :D
how's marriage life for you?
Friend 2: yah, not bad lah..
Me : huh?
(And the conversation continued to differences between dating and marriage, responsibilities, etc.)

*hehe... It's an entertaining day for me.. The subject was brought up with laughter and joy ;) thanks girls!!

I don't think I can take over the down payment for the venue :p but I will consider your suggestion of different places...for later.. ;)

Only "not bad" huh? Well, I think I 'll still keep it as one of my plan though :p

*girls, you're fighters..!! I know you can handle and get through it well ;)

first day after 2 weeks..

Today's the first day I came to work after resting for 2 weeks...
Didn't have too many task to do since I took care of almost everything just before I got sick :p
Still weak, but manageable..
I even drove myself!! (Sorry doc, had to disobey you.. I might gotten sicker if I didn't.. :p)
Anyway, tomorrow..more things to do..
Hope I'm getting stronger by the day, which I have a feeling that I will as I found myself feeling hungry quite a lot now :p A good sign of recovery ;)

today is today

A bit of tradition to write something on my B'day...
I did just this morning, but seems like it's not complete yet..

A good opening of the day with a very pleasent closing...
Love the moments..not all though, a bit less when I was almost fainted after they took my blood sample :p low bad pressure and lack of sleep are held responsible.. :)

Favourite of the day is his present, by mean of really was there...

Je crois que je l'aime de plus en plus... Je sais pas pourquoi mais c'est ça... Incroyable! Je suis amoureux de lui...
Dieu nous bénisse..
Notre chemin est encore plus plus loin...

30

Hey, I guess I'm trully blessed...
Never thought I'd reach that number... ;)
Thank you...

change

...

It’s only change
only everything I know
even the things that seem still are still changing

...


-Still (reprise) by Ben Folds

spending 29

if I'm blessed to reach the day, then I'll be ending my 20's being sick.. :D
got thypoid just last week..
got doctor's order to rest... bed rest.. (how do you think that sounds for me and my whole activities.. totally not good!)
when I felt that I was better, the doctor gave another look.. and yes, I still need that rest for another week! :(

wait.. I'm not complaining here.. (well, maybe just a little bit? :p)
I'm happy that I can have some rest... and it's actually in a good moment where I have completed most of my tasks at the office
but staying in bed and doing nothing is just out of the question...
luckily, nowadays I have lots of means to do something... not like 14 years ago when I got this sickness.. and blogging while you're sick is not forbidden, right?? :p

so... the number is growing in just a few days... I should feel old... but I don't... (LOL)
Or maybe I should start to feel that?? in a way it can make you wiser... well, only for some people though :))

and what have I done in my almost 30 years lifetime??
I think I was a good person....sometime... :))
I think I've made lots of people laugh... (it should be a good thing, right?)

but I've been bad and a jerk as well...
I've broken so many hearts (I really am sorry for that...)... although I was also broken lots of times, but it does not compensate...
I've disappointed some people.. (I think my mom is on top of the list, but I know she's proud of me at the same time. I can't understand how it works, actually.. but maybe I will someday..)
I've made people angry, created chaos, got into a real deep trouble that only God can help (and He did), confused people with my decision... and the list can continue forever...!!

Hmm.. not so good after all... :))
Well, I just hope that I've been a good influence for some, a good memory for some others, a smile for the rest...
And if I've touched any in a bad way that they dislike, please accept my sincere apologies.. never meant to cause anyone harms, but I may have did that...

Let's see if I can do better...
if God is sparing me more times to be a better person...
we'll see... :)

what is going on here...??!?!

What you get when you can't sleep...
Strange conversation with "old" friend from Grad school...

TAK!!! says:
so where r u living now?
RP says:
still in Jakarta
RP says:
you're in mexico city, right?
TAK!!! says:
yeah
RP says:
and you're married now, right?
RP says:
i think i heard that from Hector
TAK!!! says:
well.... yeah
TAK!!! says:
but about to divorce
RP says:
what??
RP says:
i'm not even married yet
TAK!!! says:
lol i wish i wasnt


they've only been married for 11 months... 11 MONTHS!!!
goossh...

Presidential election day 2009

Nope.. I won't be talking about the election process or result here... :p
Everyone has their own opinion and much of those are already in the news
I myself have my own opinion, which fortunately would not be shared here... :)

This election day is a kind of tradition for me and my childhood friends...
Many of our parents still live in the same housing complex and many of us are still administratively registered there, so when it comes to election day, everyone from everywhere will go home to vote (or to have a vacation :p ) and basically will meet everyone else that's there to vote..
A kind of reunion.. where we usually gather at our old elementary school area (as the election usually takes place there...), have some "old" meals that we used to take during daily school break and chat of the old days... then go to some other place together to "continue" the laughs :p
Although with the growing years, we have less and less people that can gather in the "reunion", but it's still a fun thing to do...

Yesterday's reunion was only with 6 people. We went to see a movie (Ice Age 3) and wound up waiting for 4 hours at SMS because the previous schedule for the movie is fully booked... still fun though...
and the laughs continued during the whole movie as well... :D

hope we'll still able to gather and have this reunion again.. 5 years from now...

validation please...

Akhirnyaaa....!!
kekirim juga final revisi untuk technical review...
eh tapi belum final deng, masih nunggu comment lanjutan..
and then to the next stage of technical review...
and then... let's submit the project for validation!! ;)
cross my fingers that the process will be quick and no major comments from the DOE
after that.. hoping the EB to accept everything (unlikely though.. at least not without comments) and get it registered..!!

pheeeww... that would be a long way to go...
some of you might not know what it is about...
well, it's my work... the one I put my biggest effort into for now...
it's the world of CDM.. a never-ending story of the world and environment... ;)

Nice Beat

I wanna ask you -
Do you ever sit and wonder,
It's so strange
That we could be together for
So long, and never know, never care
What goes on in the other one's head?

Things I've felt but I've never said
You said things that I never said
So I'll say something that I should have said long ago:

(You don't know me)
You don't know me at all
(You don't know me)
You don't know me at all (at all)

You could have just propped me up on the table like a mannequin
Or a cardboard stand-up and paint me (paint me)
Any face that you wanted me
To be seen.
We're
Damned by the existential moment where
We saw the couple in the coma and
It was we were the cliché,
But we carried on anyway.

So, sure, I could just close my eyes.
Yeah, sure, trace and memorize,
But can you go back once you know

(You don't know me)
You don't know me at all
(You don't know me)

You don't know me at all (at all)
(You don't know me)
You don't know me at all
(You don't know me)
You don't know me

If I'm the person that you think I am (Ah ah ahh)
Clueless chump you seem to think I am (Ah ah ahhh)
So easily led astray,
An errant dog who occasionally escapes and needs a shorter leash, then
Why the f**k would you want me back?

Maybe it's because

(You don't know me at all)
(You don't know me, you don't know me.)

So, what I'm trying to say is
What (What?)
I'm trying to tell you
It's not gonna come out like I wanna say it cause I know you'll only change it.
(Say it.)

(You don't know me)
You don't know me at all
(You don't know me)
You don't know me at all (at all)

(You don't know me)
You don't know me at all
(You don't know me)
You don't know me at all (at all)

What?



--You don't know me--
by Ben Folds, feat. Regina Spektor

home alone 1

Kevin : Why don't you call your son if you miss him?
Old man : We had a big fight and I'm afraid that he doesn't want to speak to me again
Kevin : Well I think you should call him
Old man : And what if he doesn't want to talk to me?
Kevin : Then at least you know that and you won't be afraid anymore...

Basically...
It's how brave you are to face others...no matter how hard and difficult the situation... If you truly believe, then you have nothing to be afraid of...
And if what happens is exactly the thing that you are afraid of, then at least you know... And you can stop being afraid (since it happens already)... And find a way to cope with it... Better than being afraid of your own thought, right?!!

Why is this posting?
Because I admit that I'm afraid to do something for I may loose... But I was reminded today that the important thing is that you try...that you give your best effort...and that all the result is up to Him who owns this world...
So, I'll try... Though I may need a little more time to gather the courage, but I'm sure it'll all be okay in the end...

"Don't be afraid of giving, and love might just begin"
(from a song, my childhood song, forget the title though..)

menunggu air mendidih

My life is not perfect.. I know...
My love life is far from perfect.. I also know...
I'm not even close to perfect.. I know that perfectly...
But I would never trade my life with someone else's
I would refuse to experience other's love life
And I wouldn't want to be anyone else but me

Walaupun sekarang sering sakit-sakitan ga jelas, tapi harus semangat!!! ;) ya ga??

Everyone has their own things to deal with, their experience to help them, their friends and family to be happy with, their memories to hold on, their wishes to be granted, their mistakes to be forgiven... And I think everyone also has their faith to God that keeps them sane...

Mulai melantur...
dan airnya sudah mendidih sekarang..

apprendre le français

je dois apprendre le français plus fort, surtout d'ecouter.... :(
quelqu'un veut de m'aider??

seriously (not) joking

Midnite conversation:

+ : Would you like to grow old with me? :)
- : Emang kamu bisa tua? Perasaan dr dl cm segitu2 aja. :-p
+ : Bisa... Bisa tua, makin pelupa, makin nyebelin juga, makin jelek, n bisa jd sakit2an.. :p jadi gmn?
- : Ya gmn lg? Udah mentok.. :-*
+ : Mentok apanya?? :p
- : Mentok cintenye ame eneng ocha.. :-p
+ : Duuuh... Jadi malu aye baca smsnya... :p


That's how it is when you can't sleep... :p
it's a serious conversation after all...
And I bet he's asleep now.. :p

Message 76

Just a few minutes after you left the house...

Kamu tau ga kalo aku sayang bgt sama kamu?!
From: 0813xxxxxx23
9:19 pm 24/5/09

and I asked.. "why do you ask?"
you said.. "because I just want to say it"
then I said.. "it's not because of X-Box or Kawasaki, is it?!?!"
and you laughed... :))
so I said, "nope, you still can't have them for now honey" with a big grin on my face..

I know... it's not because of those...
and the answer is "yes"
because you showed it to me when we said goodbye near the carport..
you had that look in your eyes...
a kind of look that I've been able to avoid all these times for I was not able to return it with all my heart..

but there you were with that look in your eyes...
a look that I now can return gladly...

so the answer is "yes"

-----

and it's true

have you heard that "curiosity kills"???

I have...

I know that it hurts sometimes when you know something that's not as expected
I know that it will make your brows raised for something that you never know it exists
but...
I didn't know that it really can kill...

So curiosity just killed a part of my heart.. for something I may not suppose to know..
but it's something that is actually good to know...
to keep you in balance...
to keep you on track and not being carried away...
to keep you sane when you think you're already sane...

I know now...
and now I pray...
please make my curiosity a good way of finding my way...
to walk on this earth... to stay close to You...
and to come home to You someday...

I have made my promise to him... so please let me keep it...
please show me what should be done... anything but to break the promise...
let me stay with him... until You say I should not be...