21 years ago...

Makasih untuk semuanya, yang udah dari kemarin kirim sms atau telp atau kirim email ;) Muchas Gracias!!!
I have my favourite weather on the sky today... ;)

This is the heart that was unconsciously given up
It was already too late to care for it now
Realising how it will be torn to pieces with one single sentence
Nothing else to do but to pick up what is left of those pieces
And start over...

rainy day

Today is cloudy in Göteborg, and when I went back home from my Capoeira workshop, it started to rain
Only mild rain, not that hard. The kind of rain that I like, but also the kind of rain that can make you sick when it hits you :) ~got a bit of headache from it~
Anyway, I really like it... My mother tongue will say "gerimis" for this kind of rain ;) Whatever it called, I just love it :) Not just the rain, but the situation it created.
Best thing to do is, for me at least, to take one book and a cup of tea, open the window (or door if you have a balcony), sit somewhere comfortable to read and put the tea on some place within your range and then... ENJOY!!!

ps: you can change the tea with hot chocolate also ;)

kurang kerjaan

and the result is:

You are dependable, popular, and observant. Deep and thoughtful, you are prone to moodiness. In fact, your emotions tend to influence everything you do. You are unique, creative, and expressive. You don't mind waving your freak flag every once and a while. And lucky for you, most people find your weird ways charming!

The World's Shortest Personality Test

hehehe... jangan dipercaya ya!! Just don't believe everything you read ;)
Ini gara2 gue baca blog-nya Rani, terus jadi iseng deh...
Karena hari ini gue meliburkan diri... enak juga sekali2 di rumah dan ngga ngapa2in ;)

Even Angels Fall

...
Its a secret no one tells
One day its heaven, One day its hell

It's no fairytale, Take it from me
That's the way its supposed to be

You will fly and You will crawl
God knows even angels fall
No such thing as you Must stay on
God knows even angels fall

(Even Angels Fall - Jessica Riddle)

...
I don't think you trust
In my self righteous suicide
I cry, when angels deserve to die

(Chop Suey -System of a Down)

Inginku,

bukan hanya jadi temanmu atau sekedar sahabatmu yang rajin dengar ceritamu

tak perlu hanya kau lihat ketulusan yang sebenarnya tak kusangka kadang ku hilang kesabaran

*mungkinkah akan segera mengerti seiring jalannya hari sungguh ku tergila padamu…

yang ada bila tak juga kau sadari akan kutempuh banyak cara agar engkau yakin semua, mauku…

patiennement je t’attendais.. mais tu ne comprends rien… je t’aime dedans… de temps en temps

biarkan aku untuk jadi kekasihmu karna tak percaya ungkapan cinta tak harus memiliki

terlambat bila aku harus berubah kala mengingini semua yang ada di dalam dirimu...

dan berulang kumencoba… tuk merebut hati dan cintamu sadarkah dirimu sering kau kesalkan aku… bila masih saja kau menyebut namanya

(Inginku - Yovie)

Makasih ya Jeng buat kiriman lagunya ;)

bright light

...
Baby, baby, baby when all your love is gone
Who will save me from all I’m up against out in this world
Yeah well, maybe, maybe, maybe
You’ll find something that’s enough to keep you
But if the bright lights don’t receive you
Well, turn yourself around and come on home
...

(Bright Light - Matchbox Twenty)

Half-Blood Prince

Hehe.. udah beli Harry Potter!!
katanya di Jakarta sampe antri ya?? Untung di sini ngga antri.. Stoknya buaanyaaakkk banget!
Anyway, sekarang gue tinggal mencari waktu buat baca :p karena kalau gue udah mulai bakal susah berenti :(

surprise

I had my surprise B'day present from my Mestre yesterday...
Didn't expect anything like that..
I had to play with everyone inside the circle at the end of the training
It was hard because the training was hard and I was already tired..
And the result is that today I have pain on my legs :(
But it was really nice... ;) They even sang a B'day song (in swedish, of course) with capoeira music while I played :p so nice... :)

And today, I received a package from home
Inside, I found an engagement ring :p hehehe... not really an engagement ring, but it sure looks like one :) At least that's what my friends told me.
My brother chose that ring for me in his attempt to fulfill my mother request
I wonder if they bought 2 rings and gave the other one to my "fiancé" :p hehehe....
Yeah, only in my dream (or theirs) they'll be able to do that :p



Strange thing is that it fits on my ring finger... FYI, I have tiny fingers, so it's not that easy to find a ring that fits ;)














[pic: Ayumi, my fingers and the Ring :p]
bukan iklan bank mega loh.. :p

ikan bakar...

hari ini gue makan MIE AYAM!!!!
senangnya...!!!!
biarpun gue masih pengin siomay, pempek (Alex, I hold you responsible for this!!), gudeg, pecel lele, masakan padang depan kompleks gue (hiksss... pathetic banget...), de el el, tapi gue dapat perfect ending untuk hari ini.... IKan BAkar pake kecap pedes :D nyam nyam...
gue ngomongin makanan mulu yaaaa... :p maap...
but today was one of the best days for food theme ;)
makasih ya kak Ida!!!

you again!!!

it doesn't seem like I know you now
something changed...
I've tried to understand what it is
but I got lost...
what is appeared may not be what is inside
then tell me what's inside...
because all I see is nothing
and nothing is something that I don't want to be holding on to...

I still see it... your fainted smile... the shattered blood...
The frailness when you stand...
You have been worse... yet it's not the same...
Only flickering light in your eyes... when before they're always filled with it...
But somehow I know you'd be fine in the end...
With the same strength that kept you rigid right now...
Slowly but sure... you will emerge...

Talk to me softly
There's something in your eyes
Don't hang your head in sorrow
And please don't cry
I know how you feel inside
I've been there before
Something is changing inside you
And don't you know

Give me a whisper
And give me a sign
Give me a kiss before you tell me goodbye
Don't you take it so hard now
And please don't take it so bad
I'll still be thinking of you
And the times we had

~Don't Cry - Guns n Roses~

I see cloud in your eyes
Aching heart upon your shadow
Weakness that you've tried to hide
Trying to be strong all the time
While inside you know you're so vulnerable
Proved by many cracks and wounds, visible only to my eyes
So why did you do it?? Falling again??
When you know you'll be breaking to pieces once again
Why aren't you careful...
You said that you won't feel alive until you feel your blood shatters
How many times should it be shattered for you to feel alive?
...
Hope next time when I see you smile, it will be without the taste of your blood

17 hari lagi

fuiihh... hari ketiga ambil data, berarti cuma tinggal 17 hari lagi nih!! (read: optimistic :p) exclude weekend loh!!
sejauh ini masih aman, belum diganggu preman di jalan :p hehehe.. di sini mana ada preman, yg ada gue dikira preman kali... :p ga deng!!! soalnya lokasi studi gue di pusat kota, jadi jarang ada preman... biarpun di sini negaranya relatif aman, tapi kalau agak ke pinggir2 dikit dari pusat kota tetap aja harus hati2.

hari ini ada sms dari nyokap gue, katanya gue dapat panggilan kerja!! hueee... mana gue inget pernah ngirim lamaran ke situ, udah jaman kapan tau... :p kenapa ga dulu2 pas gue lagi nganggur and di rumah ya dapat panggilan itu ;)

But life doesn't turn out the way you want it to be... it turns out to be BETTER!!!

*lagi puter iTunes, ternyata lagunya Peter Pan "mungkin nanti" yg berbunyi.. hemmm.. jadi inget... ;) *

hari pertama...

ngambil data buat thesis gue
ngga 24-7 sihh... tapi 3 kali sehari, each time for 2 hours, pagi-siang-sore
bengong di pinggir jalan :p mau balik kampus waktunya nanggung, akhirnya gue stuck di stasiun pemantau data polusi punyanya local EPA di sini. Di dalam ruang itu ada alat yg bunyinya berisik banget... di ruangan yg ukurannya cuma 3x3 itu... bikin telinga gue 'nging'... wah, jangan2 gue ntar berkurang pendengaran nih! :p jangan sampe deh..
mirip2 jaman gue kerja dulu pas survey di konsultan transportasi, bedanya sekarang gue ngga ngitungin mobil dan gue ga dibayar :D hehe..
mana hari ini cuaca mendung dan berangin banget.. FYI, di sini anginnya dingin bo!! tapi biarpun mendung ternyata mataharinya ganas juga, tangan gue jadi belang gini... gawat bener yaa..
terus habis itu pulang sampe rumah malem karena jadwal wajib setor muka dulu, dan sekarang gue cape banget...

YA AMPUN... complain mulu sih gue!!! tolong deh.. mau cepat kelar ngga kuliahnya?? :p ayo semangat!! ;)

you!!

I had a dream about you again
two days in a row... konstigt!!
where are you??!!
I guess it's fading away...

midsummer day

just came back from celebrating midsummer day
typical swedish celebration, they raise the midsummer pole and dance around it in a circle ;)
we also had dinner at Jenny's place with typical swedish food :) yummy...
and then took a walk to Hörsicka (one of the lakes that we had to observe during first quarter of my programme in school), dipped my legs in the cold water (really nice!!) and observed the ducks :p
today was really nice... and with a really good weather... never imagine that I can get so much sun here in Sweden :p

some pics from today's activities:













[see the crowd on the right??]
pic: Jenny, me and Alex

















[midsummer pole]
















[enjoying the sun]















[dipping feet in the lake]















[ducks]

sedang malas sekali mengisi blog...
hari ini mau renang tapi ngga jadi gara2 miskom :((

tolong yaa

bodoh banget gue...
selama ini gue berpikir setting-an di blogger berubah dan gue kehilangan shortcut untuk mewarnai tulisan gue :p ternyata... akhir2 ini gue pake edit HTML. ckk...ckk.. terang aja shortcut-nya pada ilang semua. sok jago sih gue :p ngerti HTML juga ngga :) hehe..

jadi sekarang gue bisa lagi pake warna warni dan pilih font besar atau kecil :p senangnya....

kemarin gue pindahan.. pindah ke student house dekat kampus :) tinggal jalan kaki 5 menit
berakibat buruk pada jadwal bangun pagi gue :p karena dekat kampus jadi tadi pagi gue cuma matiin weker dan baru bangun lagi jam 9 :D hehe...