appetite for destruction

health destruction... and eventually... pocket destruction... ;)

a bit confusing?
well, for start... I've been eating a lot... and I mean A LOT... since around 2 weeks ago...

2 weeks ago I went to visit my grandmothers and that's when I started to eat double of my regular Indonesia portion (since my portion in Sweden is double than what I have at home... :p so it's Indonesian portion and Swedish portion for me)
Anyway, at first I thought it was because my cousin had promised me that he will take me out on a culinary journey everyday while I was there...
I was there for a week... and after that... the appetite continues...!!

So then, the destruction starts slowly...

More food... less exercise... (I get home a bit late nowadays so I didn't feel like jogging or doing other exercise... sleeping is still the top option on the list.. :p)
Meaning... getting bigger.. (read: fatter - although you might not notice it ;) )
I don't mind about the "bigger", but I do mind that if it continues then I have to start renewing my closet (meaning: new clothes!!!) 'coz they won't fit me anymore...
New clothes... more expenses...
And guess where it will lead you...

Pocket destruction...!! ;)

standardisasi

"Yaa.. karena kami memang bukan wanita standar, gak cocok sama cowok standar.. yang lebih mengutamakan cantik & penampilan yg oke saja "
--quoted from Justin--

I totally agree with her...!!! ;)

If we can't be honest about who we really are to the person who is going to be (or already is) by your side (in a promise to spend the rest of our lives together),
Whom are you going to be honest with??!!

2007-1979

Equal to 28. Right??!

So if you're 28, and you think that you should get married, while the one that is by your side is a person whom you can consider to be a "psycho" (in a term of "banging your head on something if you don't get what you want" kind of psycho...). What will you do.....??
On the other hand, your family and friends are by your side to support you if you're brave enough to leave that person by your own decision. Whom to choose....??

Sound like Oprah Show, right?? :p

Well, Oprah just happened in my life...


..... and the main character has chosen to be with him...
......
....
..
so may God be with her...

gorengan dan batuk

kenapa orang kalau lagi batuk ga boleh makan gorengan n cabe?
katanya sih... karena gorengan itu berminyak banyak... (terus blum tentu minyaknya jernih pula)
kalau cabe sih punya alibi yang meyakinkan... krn kalau makan cabe terus batuk2, sakitnya minta ampuuunnn...
tapi... emangnya kalau makan gorengan ma cabe jadi ga sembuh2 batuknya??!!
hmm... kayaknya gue mesti tanya ke dokter gue nih :p
yg jelas gue udah batuk hampir 2 minggu... belum beres2 juga meskipun gue udah "mengurangi" makan gorengan, cabe n minum es...
berhubung hasil dari pengurangan makanan ga mensukseskan hilangnya batuk gue...
yasud, gue mulai makan gorengan dan cabe lagi :D hehehe...
enak!!! meskipun gue jadi batuk2 ga berenti :p

blue sky

saw the blue sky earlier today...
remind me of Sweden...
ne sais pas pourquoi... :-S
although here, it's always blue... but rarely I enjoy it here...
there, there's always time when I can lay my head upon the grass and just enjoy the blue... :)
miss summertime in Sweden...!!!
:'(

dormir...

Je suis dans mon bureau mais j'ai très sommeil..
Je veux dormir....!! huhuhu...
Mais comment?! Qu'est que je dois faire??

Just the Way you Are

Don't go changing, trying to please me
You never let me down before
I don't imagine you're too familiar
And I don't see you anymore
I would not leave you in times of trouble
We never could have come this far
I took the good times, I'll take the bad times
I'll take you just the way you are

Don't go trying some new fashion
Don't change the color of your hair
You always have my unspoken passion
Although I might not seem to care

I don't want clever conversation
I don't want to work that hard
I just want some someone to talk to
I want you just the way you are.

I need to know that you will always be
The same old someone that I knew
What will it take till you believe in me
The way that I believe in you.

I said I love you and that's forever
And this I promise from my heart
I could not love you any better
I love you just the way you are.

(sang by. Barry White)

Hmmm... menyenangkan ya kalau emang kayak gitu...
ga ribet... :)
tapi susahnya,
people always want something that they don't have
so eventually, they'll try to change something that they already have

sol lagi

again...

Pagi ini, gue turun dari mobil tebengan bareng Mia n Ira...
(FYI, karena sandal gue ilang solnya, terpaksa gue pakai sandal lain yg notabene punya higher heels). Kami langsung jalan ke arah kantornya Mia (biasanya gue sarapan di deket situ..)
Baru beberapa langkah...
aduh!! nyangkut lagi nih sandal.. emang tu ya, trotoar di daerah Benhil situ emang ga beres... conblock-nya gujrag gujrug ga jelas...
anyway, gue mulai berhati2 melangkah karena males kesandung n kehilangan sol lagi..

setelah say goodbye ma Ira (dia ga sarapan bareng kita tapi langsung ke kantornya di Mampang), gue terusin jalan bareng Mia..
beberapa langkah jalan (sambil ngomel2 ke Mia gara2 trotoarnya ga beres), tiba2 gue pengin berenti n ngeliat sandal gue....
"Mi, Mi... ntar dulu deh.. sandal gue kok kayaknya aneh..."

TERNYATAAAA....
sol sandal kanan gue udah raib!!!
He?? kemana ilangnya nih!! perasaan masih ada tadi... :p
akhirnya gue ajak Mia menelusuri ulang jalan yang kami lalui tadi (sambil ketawa2 ngga jelas gitu deh... :p)
3/4 going backward, gue nemu sol sandal... (FYI, sol sandal gue itu punya semacam kait, jadi ga di-lem... mekanismenya mirip kancing..)
"Wah Mi, ketemu juga!!! ntar2, gue pasang dulu deh daripada sandal gue rusak..."
gue coba pasang.. hemm.. kok bentuknya aneh ya... dan rasanya ga pas.. :-S
lalu gue coba cek sandal kiri gue... LHO??!! kok bentuknya beda?? masa dalam 3 menit bisa berubah bentuk... :p
"Bukan punya gue nih Mi... cari lagi deh...!!"
full backward trip....
Akhirnya.. ketemu juga sol sandal gue yg asli (dan gue buang tu sol yg salah pungut :p)
Setelah itu, gue berjalan "hati2" alias sebentar2 nengok sandal gue.. takut tiba2 lenyap lagi solnya :p

Good lesson for today:
Brarti bukan cuma gue aja yg kehilangan sol sandal!!! :p
buktinya ada sol yang tidak berpemilik tergeletak di trotoar....
artinya.. memang trotoar di Jakarta makan banyak "korban"
hehehe... :p


Bon Jeudi!!!

sol

habis sarapan pagi (aktivitas reguler) seperti biasa gue menyebrangi jln Sudirman (lewat JPO tentunya) untuk naik bis ke Gatsu.
FYI, jembatan penyeberangan di Benhil itu kondisinya ga beres.. semenan-nya udah lubang di sana-sini.. paku pengikat lantai di rampnya udah copot2...
But as always, itu ga masalah buat gue...
lagi asik menuruni ramp, tiba2 sandal gue seperti kesangkut sedikit. hal normal mengingat lantainya emang udah megap2 gara2 pakunya pada copot.. dengan cueknya gue tetap melangkah... TAPI.... kok tiba2 ada benda kecil hitam yang menggelinding ke bawah ya setelah gue lepas dari sangkutan itu... hmm.. could it be......?? *thinking*
gue terus melangkah turun sampai dapat bus... (masa juga gue berenti untuk ngeliatin benda itu..)
setelah duduk di bus, gue tengok sedikit sandal yg gue pake...
ternyata benar sodara2...!!
benda kecil hitam yg menggelinding itu adalah Sol Sandal gue!!! huhuhu...
*tapi kok tadi gue malah nyengir2 ya.. :p *

jadi hari gue pagi ini diawali dengan hilangnya sol sandal gue....
*mungkin emang harus ganti sandal kali ya.. :p *

Bon Mardi!!

Aceh lagi??

gue diminta ke Aceh lagi untuk ikutan presentasi proyek kemarin...
tadinya ga mau datang karena FYI gue udah gawe di tempat lain...
ternyata...
bos gue yg baru malah ngijinin.. :p hehehe...
emang nasib... mesti balik ke sana... :p
cuma bisa 2 hari... pasti ga bakal ketemu siapa2...
huhuhu...
padahal pengin juga ketemu siapa2... :)

Ringtone Request

(in a phone conversation...)

A : Request donk!!!
me : Apaan??
A : Ringtone buat gue diganti... :P
me : He? Diganti lagu apa??
A : If I ain't got you, Alicia Keys...
me : Hmm.. sepertinya gue ga punya deh...
A : Ya ampuuuuunn...!!! *mencela :p* Bikin yg pas di refrain-nya yaa ;)
me : Yg mana tuh??
A : yg ini...... *singing*
me : Ya ya... tapi ntar2 yaa... :)


....
Some people want it all
But I don't want nothing at all
If it ain't you baby
If I ain't got you baby
Some people want diamond rings
Some just want everything
But everything means nothing
If I ain't got you, you, you
....

(If I ain't got you - Alicia Keys)

2nd day not @work

yep.. I'm home...!!!

Woke up quite early this morning, in the spirit of coming early to work because the train wasn't on time yesterday...

so there I was... all set and ready to go at 5h00 in the morning...
Since my friend (Mia), whom I usually go with to Central of Jakarta for work, is sick today... and since it's raining (not too hard), I changed my plan to go by train... I sms my friend who lives close to my house, and yepp.. he's bringing his car :) So the three of us (add one more of my friend, so it's Aji and Ira and me), we went directly to the highway...
But not so fast... we got delayed for couple of minutes because his friends are also coming with us.. So, there were 5 person in the car now... Off we go...

Entering the highway (but I don't think tol road is a highway since you must pay :p and you don't pay at highways)... driving for a couple of meters... and we stopped... why?? Because... no car can move at that time... It was total jam!! And so we waited there since traffic jam is not unlikely to happen in Jakarta, especially when it's raining... Everyone started to call or send messages to their boss to explain about the situation. I did too... and she said it's okay :)

After an hour, I'm getting hungry and so do the others... but the car's still not moving!!!!
And to add more, there are cars that went on the other direction on our road (they should be on the other road next to ours)... A person walked by (you see, no person can walk by like that if it's a normal situation), he said that sedan can't pass the road because it's flooded.
Other cars behind us started to turn direction... and so did we although we didn't use sedan...

While turning, my boss send an message. She said that it's okay if I can't come to the office today. She just wanted me to send my work by E-mail :)
So, here I am... working... (read: blogging for now.. :D hehe...)
I have sent my work to my boss 2 hours ago but she hasn't replied back (she's the kind of person that is soooooooooo busy).
I was still working before I went on-line to see if my boss has send me E-mail, but then... there's always temptation to blog :D hehe... (I'll work again after this :p)

My brother is home too.. He tried twice to go to his office... but the flood on that road is still high... while other roads are also flooded and full of traffic jams... so only my father is at his office since it's very near my home :p


~~~~~~~~~~~~
It's still raining...
I love it... I love the rain... and I'm happy if it's raining...
Is it okay if I'm happy now because it's raining although people are flooded everywhere in Jakarta?? :-s tricky...

first day @work

sekarang udah lewat jam makan siang...
dan gue mulai mengantuk...
Eia, FYI, kantor gue ini cuma punya 5 orang SDM loh!! *bangga gitu gue... norak deh!!*
kalau dipikir2, jumlah orang di tempat kerja gue makin menyurut ya... (baca: di PCL, di Aceh, skrg di Jkt... :p berkurang mulu, makin sedikit aja teamnya :p)

one lost....

Just lost my dog... one of them... yesterday...
didn't know that I care so much for him until he died :'(
so it was true when people say that you don't know what you've got until it's gone...
biggest and hardest cry that I've ever done in my history of losing pets...

for Bogel...

a loyal guard to the family... my capoeira partner at home...
guess you have fulfil your duty in this world.. a well done job!!!

"sorry for everything that I have or have not done..."
"thank you for the loyalti and the play and little stuff that I do not notice..."
"...rest in peace..."

muterin Jakarta

not exactly like that though...

kami (gue dan sepupu gue) ga muterin Jakarta... tapi kita emang pergi dari rumah pagi2 banget (belum ada matahari)... naik kereta pagi ke sudirman... sarapan di belakang BRI bareng teman gue yang notabene emang pegawai situ :p
terus jalan ke monas (naik busway krn sepupu gue yg udah hampir 4 taon tinggal di serpong tu belum pernah nyobain KRL n Busway :p), muterin monas... took some pictures... istirahat beberapa kali dengan alasan ngambil gambar (padahal capeeee :p)
setelah monas, langsung menuju museum Gajah... rame juga.. banyak yg datang.. barang2 yg dipamerkan lumayan oke, cuma menurut gue penyajiaannya kurang menarik :( jadi inget waktu gue tour di Swedia di museum2 yang isinya "biasa" aja, tapi disajikan dengan cara yang bikin orang jadi bisa berdecak kagum... padahal... kita punya jauuuuuuuuuuhhh lebih banyak dari itu :(

Anyway, udah hampir jam stengah 12, dan kami lapaaaarrrr :D ke Plangi deh... makan junk food (pliissss deehh...). Rencana awal, kami bakal ngubek2 Kwitang, nyari2 buku... tapi gue ngantuk!!! dan gue paling ga bisa diganggu gugat kalau udah ngantuk :D hehe..
so pilihannya adalah pulang.. atau tidur di Kwitang (lho??!!! :p). hehe... akhirnya ngejar transBSD di Ratu Plaza.. begitu duduk di bus.. sepupu gue langsung "menghilang"... tidur dieee... ckk..ckk.. gue?? masih semangat hunting foto2 ga penting (dan emang hasilnya juga ga penting ternyata... cukup singgah sejenak aja di kompi gue sebelum gue delete :p) ga lama gue pun tertidur.. dengan tangan memegang hp, berniat membalas sms seseorang (kayaknya sms ke elo deh rin :p).
pas buka mata lagi udah di BSD deh... :D senangnya... sampai rumah tepat banget waktunya.. krn cuaca udah mendung banget... langit udah mulai gelap :)
so that was our trip to Jakarta :p

and here are some pics...
















(kelihatan ga monasnya?? :p)










(gue ga inget lohh.. ini namanya bunderan apaan yaaa?? :p)











(kalau pagi2 hari kerja, di Monas banyak tentara :p pada olahraga gitu deehh..)



















(jejeran patung di museum Gajah)

weekend kedua di rumah...

capeeee.... kondangan mulu.... :'(
huhuhu....

10 hari di rumah

hmmm...
tanggal 3, di rumah... bangun siang... melepas kangen dengan anak2 gue.. (baca: anjing2 kesayangan)
tanggal 4, cabut dari rumah jam stengah 10, meluncur menuju Pancoran (where hopefully will be my next office... :p amien!!). secara rumah gue jauh dari mana2, begitu udah sampe tengah kota, pastinya ngga mau rugi donk... keluar dari parkiran langsung telp temannya teman gue, yg notabene katanya lagi butuh orang di tempat kerjanya... so, next interview at 5pm. padahal itu masih jam stengah 12... 5 jam lagi untuk dibunuh :p
luckily, sebelumnya gue udah kontak teman gue di salemba, rencana mau ketemuan buat ngasih oleh2 (sebenarnya sih dia nitip... kopi atjech!!) hehe.. jadi lunch time with my old friend from high school deecchh.. (and of course, dia nraktir gue lah... secara dia cowo and hidupnya udah mapan --baca: working permanently at one of the largest bank in Indonesia, one wife and one child :p)
jam 1 siang gue mulai kebingungan mau bunuh waktu dengan cara apa. telp teman2 sejawat (baca: best friends gue yg tinggal deket rumah) untuk ngajakin pulang bareng biar gue ga kena 3in1... dan ditolak bo!! hehe.. ya iya lah.. soalnya itu hari kamis, besoknya hari kerja, dan gue minta mereka nunggu gue interview jam 5... tolong dehh!!
dari salemba (setelah mampir CCF and minta info buat next course), gue jalan ke sudirman. kemana?? kantor lama gue tentunya!! dimana gue bisa ngobrol2 dengan santai.. tanpa rasa sungkan dan malu krn siang2 bukannya kerja malah jalan2 :p hehehe.. jadilah gue berkongkow2 di kantor lama gue sampai jam stengah 4. after that, langsung menuju Jl. Villa (where I had my interview) karena ternyata janji ketemunya bisa dimajuin setengah jam. selesai sebelum jam 6, gue langsung jalan ke Plaza Semanggi... Plan awal adalah, gue menunggu bubaran 3in1 di Plangi bareng ex teman2 kantor lama gue... guess what?? tau kan kalau 3in1 bubaran jam 7 malem?? and you know what... teman2 gue baru datang jam 7 kurang 10 menit!!!!! ckkk..ckk.. tau gitu kan gue ga perlu repot ngajak mereka yg cape2 pulang kantor buat ketemu :p gue bisa mondar mandir di Centro (meskipun itu bakal nguras kantong gue :p) untuk nunggu bubaran 3 in1 :) Tapi nasi sudah jadi bubur... dan gue ga nyesel... :D huehehe.. yaaa... akhirnya dinner bareng deh dan ngobrol2... :p sampe rumah jam 10 malem krn gue baru tau kalau di arteri PI ada pekerjaan jalan yang bikin muaaaceeeeeettttttt :'(
tanggal 5, jalan2 ma nyokap :) hehe... malamnya hang out sama bestfriends gue.. meng-update berita dan gossip2 terkini :)
tanggal 6, di rumah ampe sore... tertidur dengan nyenyaknya dan baru terbangun jam 5 sore.. udah ada 2 sms dari 2 orang yg berbeda di hp... yg satu ngajak nonton... yg satu nanya mau kemana malam itu dan bilang lagi otw rumah gue... terang aja cuma sms pertama gue tanggapin serius, secara yg kedua juga ngga ada di Jakarta (ataupun sekitarnya) dan doyan banget ngerjain gue!! :p so malam itu... akhirnya.... gue tetep ngga jadi nonton!!!! huhuhu... :'( jakarta macet!! sampe PIM, tiketnya udah sold out :'( udah gituuuuu.... dimana2 mesti antri... gile gue mau makan sushi aja ngantreeeee!!! ga jadi deh.. :( gue harus cukup puas dengan foodcourt (makasiiiyy yaa udah mau ngantriin buat gue... )
tanggal 7, acara rutin hari minggu di Gandaria, bertemu teman2 gue.. :p siangnya acara keluarga di Pondok Gede... malamnya... tewas :D
tanggal 8, maunya sih nomat... sayangnya yg pengin nomat sama gue lagi pada nun jauh di mana2 (herrraaaaaann... jadi sebenarnya niat ngga ya ngajakin nomat :p hehe..)
tanggal 9, beres2 kamar... bongkar lemari dan rak2 gue... menyisihkan buku2 yang ngga bakal gue baca lagi :p menyimpan boneka2 gue dalam satu keranjang :p malamnya mencoba buat artikel yang harusnya udah gue bikin dari tahun lalu :'( tetap belum selesai juga... hiksss...
tanggal 10, pinjem motor ade gue buat urusan kecil ke tempat sodara di deket rumah... pheww... untung bisa "home in one piece", secara motornya lebih gede dari gue :p huehehehe... (fyi, I'm quite small and his bike is a Tigi :p). setelah itu jalan ma sodara2 gue... nonton (akhirnyaaaa...!!!!) di PIM, dilanjutin jalan2 ke beberapa toko buku dan Metro (huaaaaaa... kenapa baju itu ngga ada size gue-nya yaaaaa... :'( ), terus makan...
tanggal 11, nganterin ade gue balik ke kantornya setelah jam makan siang... ke Citos untuk membunuh waktu... balik ke kantor ade gue lagi krn dia minta dianterin ke Gambir sore itu :) --makasi yaaaa udah telp2 selama gue menunggu ade gue ngeberesin kerjaannya ;) --
setelah Gambir, off to Setiabudi building :D ada yg mau traktir!! huehehe... and... it's SUSHI time!!! gile gue senang bangetttt!!! Makasi ya Ver....!!! :D ....so last night was girl talk with sushi dishes :D
hari ini, nanti gue mesti anter nyokap ke acara siraman... besok dan lusa... banyak banget kondangan yg harus gue datangin!! :'( huhuhu...
common questions would be "kapan nih undangannya mau diedarin??" or "loe kapan merid??" (which is lebih vulgar dari pertanyaan sebelumnya :p). dan secara gue masih "single fighter", pertanyaan2 itu bisa menohok ulu hati gue.... :'( tapiiiiiiiii... secara ini gue... dan gue banget... tohokannya ngga kena...!!! :D hehehe.. maap yaaaa... bukan gue ga mau diingetin kalau "it's already my time"... tapi semua akan indah pada waktunya..tanpa perlu diburu2..atau dipaksakan ;) ya ngga?? ya ngga?? hehehe...

home sweet home

sudah pulang...
mungkin kembali lagi...
bukan di "wadah" yang sama...
tapi tidak menolak untuk datang lagi ;)

bakal kangen sama Aceh...!!!
kangen sama teman2 baru di sana...
kangen sama adik2 gue yang menemani gue selama di sana (in good or bad, sad or happy, iseng atau jahil... :) definitely going to miss you -all 4 of you- a lot!!!)
kangen sama.... semua hal.. that'll only happen there ;)

Au revoir Aceh... Bienvenue Jakarta ;)

too much

gue pengin mengeluh...
tapi buat apa... emang udah begini jalannya...
gue pengin cerita...
toh ngga ada yg bisa dilakukan...
gue pengin ngomel...
udah cape banget selama ini jadi orang yg selalu ngomel...

bottom line is..... gue pengin pulang.... :'(

"...and I'll be more silence than before..."

deadline....

HUAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA...................