too fast...

is it too fast?? too soon??
too much?? too overwhelmed??

slowing down....
for I will not have this fall to the ground...

to let go

a wise person said that if you really love someone, you will learn to let him go
let him be what ever he wants... where ever he wants...
if he comes back to you in the end... then you'll know that he's yours...


is it true??
so where am I now...?

letting go several times is not easy...
but even now, it does not seem like the end...
it feels like I still need to let go...

will I be as strong as before...?
or will I fail myself this time...
either way...
I will let go...

one question...

yes he did... last night...
and yet,
there are still so much to be resolved...
so much to be on each understanding...
so much to work on...
so much to commit to...
but so much to be happy for...

I'm not cold feet here...
I'm just thinking...


"pourquoi tu veux m'épouser?"
"parce que, je ne peux pas vivre sans toi..."


*Still don't believe it happened...*

plus de 3 mois

et tu m'aime de plus en plus... :-*

je souhaite que ce seras d'être toujours comme ça

Happy Birthday honey!

Hope you'll love me more and more :p
Wish all the best for you and your life ahead...
And may I'll be a part of it as I have been before...

2 mois

et tu es encore là...
tu ne disparais pas come d'habitude...
et ça, tu m'as raconté déjà si tu ne partiras jamais...
alors, on va voir...
mais en ce moment, je sais que tu m'aimes et que tu essaies d'être là pour moi...
et puisque je vis pour ce moment, ça suffit...

should be tired of wishing...

but I wish that you can see my heart
with all the pain you caused...
and the happiness in mix...
and not too busy with your own..

"hey, I'm here... let me know if I'm on your way, okay? I'll just move aside and let you pass.."

meriang..

sudah hampir lupa rasanya sakit...
ternyata masih ngga enak...
apalagi bakalan sakitnya ngga di rumah...
meskipun cuma sebentar... :'(

mau ditungguin dan dipegangin tangannya..
sampai tertidur...
dan terbangun lagi saat sudah sehat...


*Je sais pas pourquoi, mais tu me manque beaucoup.. encore de plus en plus.. mais je peux pas d'être malade en même temps de ça*

wish upon a star

Just be careful what you wish for...
'Cause you just might get it all...
And then some you don't want...

-home by Daughtry-


*you really really need to be careful about your wishes*

first argument?

notre première dispute ce matin,
mais tu me manque beaucoup déjà...

you're staying...

and we'll see how it goes... :)

does my heart ready to be broken again???

.....
...
.

we'll see...

aduh...

ga boleh tu colongan....
kamu panik sendiri kan jadinya?
tapi pas ditanya kenapa, kok jawabnya cuma "karena ngerasa nyaman" aja??
hmmm....
ga ngerti deh maksudmu...
tapi ya sudah lah...
just stay...

my dear,

It was a fun saturday night.... ;)

So what's next? Bali for 2?? *wink2*

by my side

God knows when I need someone to be by my side...
to get me through obstruction... or just to be there...

And as always... He knew...

Just stay close for now... :)

Keraton Solo

It's the holidays...Lebaran!! (Maaf lahir batin yaa...)

I started to read Romo Mangun's "Burung-burung Manyar" a few days ago when I had Cuplis' regular service-check. An old book, first published in 1981.. I was only 2 years old that year :p
I've read until chapter 6 only, but I like it already. A mix of romance, fight, javanese culture, the royal family of Keraton in particular, the Dutch and Japanese occupation here - historical view, etc.
I should finish this book soon :) I have a dozen more to go :p

I'm currently spending my holidays in Solo, another center of Keraton beside Yogyakarta. I'm still accounted as one of the royal family which is called "Kasunanan" in Solo, but I've never had any interest in knowing more than just "you're in it". But reading the book gave me another glimpse of what it is (still my interest doesn't grow that much though :p).

Anyway, I just want to say that I'm enjoying my holidays with the whole big family and Cuplis :)

Happy holidays and enjoy Lebaran with your family!!


PS. Ran, enjoy your "far away" Lebaran, although it's without Opor Ayam!! :)

no more

of this..
or that..

...

mati satu tumbuh seribu

kill one and many attack...

bisa begitu ya??! :p *a bit amused*

good morning!!!

it's nice to come early to the office
the traffic is not so jammed... the sun is waking up... the fog's still there

When all seems so cool and fresh.... :)

and while I'm already here in the office, the traffic is beginning to soar outside... :p
(I'm at 17th floor and I can still hear the loud traffic :p )

Cuplis got hit

Yup.. Scene in the morning..

Although not exactly hit - crash - bang...
We were stopping at a traffic light (and I always keep my distance with other cars)... But this car infront of me just forgot to hit the break and boom!! It roll backward and I can feel that Cuplis is taking the weight of that car and it didn't budge although I hit the horn.
So I just got to get out and check.. And I can only think that I'm crashing my car within only a few months..there goes my "good driver" reputation..
The back of that car is actually stayed on my front!! Forgot to take a photo though.. Well what do u expect when u're shocked! :p

I practically had to knock the window and tell the driver that her car is bumping mine.
Yeeeeep, a lady driver! Sh**t, I always hate it when they say that girls are not good in driving because I'm a good driver.. But there's my proof.. *sigh*
And u know what, she didn't even realize that her car is moving!

I don't like prolonging this kind of thing, so after that car moved its butt of my car, I just checked the damage and was going inside Cuplis when the guy, her friend on the passenger seat, came to apologize.. See how polite she is?! Pheeww... (regardless is a fasting month where apologies seem to be everywhere...)

Luckily.. That car was bumping just exactly on my car plate and I put some kind of frame for the plate... And it held the weight of that car.. Thank God! So I don't need to get all the trouble of coming to the repair-shop.

Anyway now, I just arrived at my office and took photo of the plate.. See how it's curving in the middle? It should've been flat... :p