Maybe

It was just too much of a dream come true...

Decision

Can I just say that I'm beat and tired?
Am I allow to say I want to have a break?
Or perhaps since it is my own decision then I should just swallow everything?
Well, maybe...
I don't think I can say "I quit"

Temperatur minimum

Lagi audit power plant di ketinggian + 1,800 meter. Dingin!! Mau tidur jadi keingetan kamar di skillnadsgåtan ;-) dengan heater pas2an :p memorable indeed...
Maybe someday I can visit that house again with Christin :-)

New year

It's 2013...
May it be better than 2012
Hope I'd be stronger than ever
Wish that smiles and laughters are all around us...
And may God bless us always... Amen

Empty

I guess I should prepare for the worst

Everyone has the right to be happy
So please God, put a smile on his face, for whatever cost I'm willing to take...
Make me stronger and constantly remind me that You are always there for me ...

Just want to fly

And forget those annoying feeling
Forget that I still can feel a pain
Forget that happily ever after is only in movie....

Happy is for you to work on

Another december

And I got numb, a wrecked again.
The whole year was not easy and it is still not better for me.
I was a positive person... But maybe it has changed and I want my old self back with me...

Just a simple life... A simple happiness... A simple me!

Can I have that luxury again?

2nd year

No one noticed, but it's our 2nd anniversary... A lot has happened, even the worst...
Hope that none worse than that shall happen in our years ahead...

I'm alive

And (hopefully) have moved on ;-)

Imperfect world

When you are spending much time in your comfort zone....
When all around you seems to be naturally perfect....
You tend to forget that life ain't so..
Until one day when reality struck you, pull you down to your lowest dream and sink you into an endless tunnel of worriness and fear..

I knew that because I was there (well hopefully I was and not I am ;p )
Anyhow, no matter how hard you fight everything with your own strength, it will all come back to how close you are with God and how much you believe in Him that all mess is nothing but for the good of you...
At least it will give you peace of mind... And that is all that I want in life...
Peace in mind and in heart...

So help me God....
;-)

2012

New year
New hope
New life
New job

May God bless us always...
Happy new year dear friends!!

Sahabat sejati...

Tidak akan pernah bisa melukai sahabatnya sendiri...
Tidak akan meninggalkan sahabatnya, dalam susah ataupun senang...
Tidak egois...
Selalu menghormati sahabatnya...

Married couple should a true bestfriend for each other...


*for me and my best friend, be strong girl! *

Desember 2011

Sepertinya jadi saat terberat buat gue...
Semua ujian muncul dari awal bulan ini
Kejadian yang di luar dugaan pun ada
Terpukul? Sangat...
But maybe I do deserve this...
I'm staying because God stays with me 'til the end..

D-3

Ha! I've never felt this nervous for an interview before ;p well maybe not nervous, but I just really want to know the result, that's all...
No no, it's not cheating... But it seems that getting this job may lead to a better and organize life, our life ;)
God knows better of what I need so I should actually enjoy the process of waiting :D don't u think so?

Which one?

What u want is not always what u need..
What u'll get is your need
So hopefully what I want is what I (we) need...
Pengeeeeeeen.... :p
I miss working...

Apple

Kalau dulu pernah posting blogging dari blackberry (jaman blackberry belum ngetrend ;p), sekarang coba pake OS 5 ah.... Ipod n wifi :D
Makin mudah aja ni akses... Tp waktu utk blogging jg semakin berkurang *nguap* Arka sudah tidur, saatnya tidur juga.... Mudah2an bisa bangun pagi utk berenang ;p (doubt it! Haha...)

journey with Arka

hohoho...
it's been a very long time that I've not written anything here...
in short, the baby was born on his 37th week through a caesarian sectional procedure. A healthy baby boy!
We had some  problem during our first months because we found out a bit late that he has tounge-tied problem.
Anyway, those stressful days had passed :) we made it through!
He's 6.5 months now. Healthy, cute (if I'm allowed to say it because all babies are cute!), and gaining weight more each day.. I love him! We love him :)
I've spent all those months with him and I was lucky that I didn't have to work (blessing in disguise that the company I worked for was having an internal restructuring and I was released for that reason...)
Now, I'm ready to get busy with the business again ;) we'll see where I'll work next...

week 36 to 37

This is my 36th going to 37th weeks of pregnancy.
It's getting closer and closer... and in my case it's very close because I'm having this so called Placenta Previa, in which the placenta is blocking the birth path. So, the way to deliver the baby is to have a surgery, a caesarian section procedure. The procedure is quite common nowadays and it's not as scary as it used to be as the doctor will only make a small cut to get the baby out

Thing that really needs to be taking care of is that I shouldn't experience severe contraction prior to the operation because it will harm the placenta. This is what's difficult. Why? Of course! Because I won't know when the contraction will happen and how. With the baby getting bigger now and with the age of pregnancy getting older, it's natural that I get some contractions as a result of the baby is reaching toward the birth path and the womb's getting ready to get him out :) but I can't have too much of it... :(

So now, I'm monitoring the move of the baby (he can't move too much as this may also harm the placenta, but he shouldn't move too little as well - so confusing! :D), the contraction that happen, and anything else that I experience. Luckily, I'm already starting my maternity leave so it'll be easier for me to do that because if I'm still working, I tend to forget that I need to monitor the baby - doesn't mean that I don't love you when I'm working baby... ;)

Anyway, I'm enjoying it... and we'll see what happen...
Wish me well!! ;)

mencari nama --- finding ne(a)mo(e)

finding a name for a child is not easy... I knew it already...
but knowing it and actually going through it, is actually give you different sense
all parents wants to give their children good names, of course...
so the search begun...
some start by determining the language... some by origin...
some people look around themselves to see a figure with good personality, heart, etc, and use the name - basically in a hope that the child will follow the footsteps of that good person
some use the internet...
some use the announcement of the "UMPTN" -- this is quite a story itself :)
some ask for their parents advices - or even ask their parents to name their future grandchild

me and my husband? what do we do? what happen to our process?? :p

I didn't really think of a name before last month, but time surely passed by so fast!! so we need to find a name soon...
my husband had already suggested some names, but I still had not given any at that time...
what I don't want is to give the same name as the name of my friend's children - if I obviously know their name, then I prefer other names. It's just that many varieties are better than just one variety, don't you think so? :D
also, I try to avoid that the name can be used as a joke - although, joke can come in many ways, so this is just a prevention that may not succeed... :p
what else, I want to give him a last name -- got it! :p

and I've suggested a middle name now!!! :D he likes the name, so I think we'll keep it
the homework is for the first name... any suggestion?? ;)

with no intention of joking about this process, we do laugh a lot when looking for a name... not because the names that came up are ugly or anything, but if we look at it, it's a fun process despite of its difficulties!

So... let's hope we'll get a good, proper name... that reflects our hopes and wishes for our child :)

For anyone reading this who's also looking for names... Good Luck!!

ngeblog berbobot?

sudah lama saya tidak menulis sesuatu yg "agak" berbobot di sini :p
lack of time.. lack of energy... you named it.. all the reason is available for it :)

kali ini.. sambil menunggu download yang tak kunjung  selesai - belum lagi install dan mengerjakan pekerjaan dari hasil download-an itu, rasanya perlu juga nge-blog :p

so let's get to the next title now.....
"mencari nama"