Paint it black

It was dark and grey

And then some colour started to grow

And grow

And grow

But it seems to get darker now

Colorful but dark

I need bright colour...

Words

I used to love playing with words

Making sentences that read beautifully yet stab right on the heart

I used to love making sentences after sentences

Telling out what I felt or thought about anything (or anyone)

I used to love telling out many things

Wanting people to read me intransparently and to guess what is going on

....

Not so much now :-)

Maybe someday, I’ll love doing it again..

Terik

Mungkin saya memang tipe yang tidak bisa kena panas matahari

Bukan, bukan karena kulit yang cepat terbakar 

Lebih banyak karena memang tidak tahan dengan teriknya matahari

Efeknya baru terasa sesudahnya....

I need a hat, at least...

Sorrow

Don’t want to live if it only radiates sorrow

#happinessisoverrated

Survive

You can be strong if your only choice is to survive :-)

:-)

I miss this blog...

I grew up and older in this space

Maybe not wiser but I do know more than before

2018

My wish for 2018?

Still Nothing... :-)

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...

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:-)

Lurus

Cuma menjalani setapak yang lurus ini...

Supaya terkikis bawaan hidup yang lalu..

Berharap sampai ke tujuan dengan selamat 

Itu saja... 

Semoga sampai 🙏🏼

2017

What do I want?

Nothing... :-)

Mind tricks

That's what always happen if we cannot stay positif.. 

Let's fly :-)

Cross fingers that those can bear my weight :-)

Tired

:-)

Strong

It's not an option

It's the only way....

Anak itu titipan

Ada saatnya akan tidak bersama kita lagi

I know that

But it kills me :-|

Yang kuat lah mba

Whatever will be.. Will be..

Take consequences of your actions

Wish

What else will you do

When your boy is crying over some thing that is reasonably true but outside your capability to manage or making it happen for him...

Yep

I cried when it happened

And baby boy stopped his cry to tell me that it's alright for him... That I should not cry too...

Then he smiled

And I still cried...

words

Words and sentences..

What felt or not felt..

What should or should not be done..

What could or could not..

All I know is to just let Him have all those

My mind, my thought, my dream...

..

.

Happiness is overrated :-)

baby

I got home and you're already asleep

Perhaps you're too tired of playing

But I know that you're not feeling well either

Peacefully asleep... Like a baby..

I know you're growing bigger and stronger

But you will stay forever to be my baby

A tough baby of mine :-)

I love you son..

Travel

Dinas kantor harusnya memang lebih asyik kalau si kecil bisa ikut

Maaf ya nak, bulan ini ibu banyak perginya... :'(

Don't cry my baby

I'll be home soon...