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bodoh banget gue...
selama ini gue berpikir setting-an di blogger berubah dan gue kehilangan shortcut untuk mewarnai tulisan gue :p ternyata... akhir2 ini gue pake edit HTML. ckk...ckk.. terang aja shortcut-nya pada ilang semua. sok jago sih gue :p ngerti HTML juga ngga :) hehe..

jadi sekarang gue bisa lagi pake warna warni dan pilih font besar atau kecil :p senangnya....

kemarin gue pindahan.. pindah ke student house dekat kampus :) tinggal jalan kaki 5 menit
berakibat buruk pada jadwal bangun pagi gue :p karena dekat kampus jadi tadi pagi gue cuma matiin weker dan baru bangun lagi jam 9 :D hehe...

between thesis and moving out

moving out.. on thursday this week.. moving out completely from my old room in this nice house to my new room in a student house near the school.. but I already moved some of my stuff today, and it was terrible.. I just realize something, I have too many things :( Even the bus driver laugh at us (I was with Chris, my room-mate), because we're the only passenger in his bus that had taken it twice already this early morning, went back and forth with huge bags in our hands :p I think I broke quite a lot of my muscles today... :p

thesis.. need to plan my measuring strategy, a.s.a.p., meaning I should finish it tonight :( gimana cara yaa??!! :-/ kebanyakan acara sih gue... manajemen waktu yang buruk... dan tenaga yang cuma sisa-sisa :p ayo semangat!! ;)

another busy day

back from stockholm last night!
got home at 01h00 on foot, checked email, went to sleep
went to school early morning today, had a meeting with my thesis supervisor, did some arrangement of student place at the intenational office, went to water my aunt's flower at her apartment, felt sleepy all day
got back home again at 18.00, slept until 10.24 (when Pipit called :p *thanks Pit!!*)
had just two sandwiches for dinner... [already too late to cook :p]
now, i need to read instruments manual for tomorrow :(
yep... i'm starting my thesis (should've started today if i wasn't too sleepy :p)
wish me luck!! ;)

weather report

Göteborg: cloudy all day.. no sun.. small rain..
so this is what they called SUMMER!! :p
hope it won't stay like this all summer...

next destination: Stockholm
departure time: 050605, 08h00
occasion: last STINT trip
duration: 4 days
estimation of arrival back in Gtb: 090605, 00h30

*hoping for a clear blue sky*

kenapa dipilih tanggal segitu untuk acara jalan2 bareng STINT? karena tanggal 6 juni itu hari nasional-nya Swedia jadi mungkin di Stockholm nanti ada yg spesial.
Gue sempat mikir... hari nasional?? ooo... hari kemerdekaan kali ya... EH!! tapi Swedia ga pernah dijajah kan... :p berarti bukan donk.. jadi denger2, hari itu adalah hari bendera :) entah kenapa, gue juga ngga tau...

too much on my mind

like this one...

if you sad and think that the world has turned its back on you
wait and see.. maybe you have turned your back to the world. what have you give to the world that you can expect it to give something to you in return?

if you think that you are the most miserable person in the world
wait and see.. do you still have roof over your head, bed to sleep? then you're not! especially if you still have time to check up the internet ;)

if you think that everything never goes as your plan
wait and see.. don't you think it might be best to have it unplanned? it wont be a life without the element of 'the unknown' event and what may come your way, if I may say so :) the fun part is how to deal with that element... will you succeed on dealing with it? or just giving up without a fight? never ever give up without a fight. if you think you deserve it, fight for one!

if you think that no one cares
wait and see.. do you still have your family, friends, relatives, or even stranger in the bus that talks to you? do you still find someone who said "hi" and smile to you? or probably you dont allow people to care for you. ever think of that? just close yourself to everyone who tries to care? think about it before thinking that no one cares

if you think that you are alone
wait and see.. have you tried to look up at the sky, pay more attention to the world around? living forms are everywhere... so you're definitely not alone :)

if you think that happines and love come to you by itself
wait and see.. have you open your heart for them to come? they wont exist if you wont let them and take good care of them. and you ask how to open your heart? try to accept who you are and what you are and everything that comes your way. don't deny your bad day and take pity on yourself. there's always brighter side on those dark and grey situation. remember to SmiLe, not only fake smile on the face but smile from the heart. not that easy, but practise makes perfect ;)

i talk too much?? perhaps i do..
dont agree with me?? be my guest..
have other thoughts?? why not.. i may talk too much, complain too much, blubber too much, but i dont tell people to shut up (well, only for certain people who gets my special attention :p)
but for this kind of posting.. lets continue some other time ;)
jag behöver att sova nu :)

lovely day.. busy day..

wonderful weather... didnt need my jacket today! ;)

woke up, had breakfast, left the house..
had a meeting with my supervisor for the thesis (yipee!! I have a thesis :p)
went to some places to check for possible measurement location (most polluted one, of course)
met some friends for lunch (ada yg traktir!! ;) thanks a lot yaa!!)
visited another friend together (wrecked her place :p)
went to library and kemi building
played pool (i lost... should've played more :p)
went to my swedish course (fika!! last day of the course and we had cakes :p)
went home... tried not to eat anything since i ate A LOT today... but it didnt work :p hehe...
and now... i need some sleep :)

dark side

seems like it's too dark..
my world seems darker through my blog..
well, not quite like that :)
maybe it's time to reveal the bright side of my life
on my next post ;)

how did u survive??

when i said we better of apart
when i said i can't stand it anymore
when i said it won't work out between us
when i said i don't have the strength to get through it again

and i didn't change my mind when u asked me to think it over
i didn't change my mind when u seemed to loose your ground
i didn't change my mind when u dissapeared
how did u survive?
moreover still think of me, now, when u're back on your feet

wise man said, "if u dont want to be hurt, dont hurt others"
i know i've put you in a very uncomfortable feeling back then, so i guess now is time to pay my due

something is missing..
one part is fading..
a spot is empty..

tired of living like a blind man

guessing and gambling all through
stop in the middle of the road
can't move although something is coming
trying to run but where to?
no direction can be defined
.....
inevitable crash!!!
something warm is flowing
it hurts
something else is breaking to pieces
it also hurts
hear voices floating but no movement can be done
just laying in the middle of the road
only feel so tired of living like a blind man

farewell picnic

today was great!!
i had a farewell picnic together with my classmates
play ball, food and fun... altogether in the park :)
i know that i'll still see most of my classmates, but it's kind of saying goodbye to some of them... i dont like "good bye's" :(

only in dream

it's never easy to say that you care, but it's even harder to try to stop it
it's never easy to use logic, but it's even harder to follow your heart
it's never easy to start, but it's even more difficult to say goodbye

if turning back the time is worth it, it would probably be the 1st choice
if prevent you from leaving will change everything, it would have been done already

I will say don't go
I will ask you to stay
I will tell how much I care
but I will only do it in my dream
since everything I'll say or do won't change the way things are
and only in dream I will see that my words are good enough to make the change

turning point

it was raining, but then the clear sky appears
it was dark, but then the sun shines brightly
it was cold, but then the warm breeze blows

was out from the loop, but I'm back...
with some bruises, but I'm still here...
for tomorrow is just another day...
only me, myself and I

...
Not everything is gonna be the way you think it ought to be
It seems like every time I try to make it right, it all comes down on me
Please say honestly you won't give up on me
...
(I shall believe - Sheryl Crow)

i'm breaking down into pieces..
meleleh tak berbentuk..
...

something doesnt feel right...
everything seems to be perfectly okay..
it all went well and i should be completely happy
but happiness in my view needs all element involved to contribute
so perhaps there are some elements that do not participate entirely
but which elements?? so many elements are involved with it... :(
feels like my world has been shaken and turned up side down
in the end, i still dont understand what went wrong... :(

batizado

hari terakhir workshop capoeira n batizado
and it was great!!!

seems like everything i say or do is wrong...
last thing i'd do is to hurt, but i keep on doing it somehow...

macet

9 bulan gue di sini...
belum pernah gue liat ada yg macet..
tapi tadi sore pas gue pulang..
Göteborg MACET!! sampe ke daerah2 gue..
yg notabene jarang mobil lewat..
gile.. gue berasa di Jakarta :p

limited time

this week..
finishing the report...still so much to work on.. :(
training for the batizado this weekend... :(
and that's all..
look easy perhaps..
so, anyone who'll gladly take my position.. let me know.. ;)

D day

sent it...
waiting for tomorrow's feedback...

D-1

small progress is on its way
discussion part is totally blurred
so difficult to find words
feels like I’m writing nonsense...

my day...

yesterday,
it means that i have been spending 2 days infront of the computer, working on my assignment, which i have to submit on monday. so it was D-3 for the deadline...
reading many reports from UN and its organisations...some journal...news....
the progress wasnt that good :( too much information to digest... everything just went into the brain.. and i'm still trying to find a way to get it out of my head.. in proper way, of course...
i was stucked with everything so a break would be just nice...
and the 5th element came on the break ;) old movie that i havent seen
so thanks to someone, finally i watched it :p it was nice of you to invite me, by the way...

today,
4h sleeping seems not enough now..
went out before 10 to play music with a friend
it was nice... it has been a while since i touch a keyboard (he called it synthesizer..-?)
went food shopping afterward and i spent a lot!! shocking... but finally i dont really care ;)
picked some wild flower on my way home (with all those heavy grocery :p)
didn't have the chance to go to the forest yet, but at least i have some wild flower in my room now :)

now,
i'm going to hit the bed for an hour.. then get ready to go to Patricia's B'day occasion
kind of a full and busy day... and i still haven't finish the report :(
D-2 without any progress...

so little time... so much to do...
:(

just feeling extremely tired today...

rain

there's no sun today in Göteborg
just a glimpse of it and then it's gone
cloudy and rainy the whole day
it was tiny shower of rain when i went home today
and i smelled something familiar when walking home
the smell of the soil after the rain :)
i always love that smell...
give you comfort in a way :p

breaking

i broke a wheel of a bike tonight
a bike that actually has been very helpful
drove me home when it's already very late
the worst thing is that.. it's not even my bike :(
i'm really really really sorry...

advice

yesterday a voice told me,
"damage brain has been done, no one can save you"
another voice said,
"remember the ground, never forget it"
then this voice said,
"dont forget your reason for being there"
last voice said,
"you'll get through this with the right decision"

we'll see ...

besok

gue ada exam dari jam 9 - 12
setelah itu groupwork dan feedback sampe sore
and hari pun berlalu dengan cepat...

spring

leaves are coming out of tree branches
not long, there will be green everywhere
at least that's what i hope for
the owner of the house that i lived in tell me that the wild flower are coming out in the forest
the forest is very near, just behind the house
i should go there..
but it doesnt seem that i have the time.. nor the company.. yet..

my wind breeze

my door was always closed
i dont like to let people in
until one day, a knock on the door
who's that? no one there..
just a breeze of wind that go in
i let it in, it's just a wind, so what?
it's harmless, and yet it give a comfort feeling
i like it...
my room starts to get more cozy with the wind
slowly the wind breeze occupy all the room
it's nice to have it around
until one time..
when it starts to circle around me
turn my heart warmer and weaker
doesnt seem to expect me of giving the same
just circle around me, me who's not able to break it
is that why it stays there?? because i dont dare to break it??
dont dare to open the windows and let it loose??
dont have the guts to break the circle??
afraid to loose the coziness it creates??
or am I just someone who know nothing about dealing with wind...

somehow..

confusion state of mind
which one to choose and which one to loose
which one will be the right one and which one will turn out to be just another mistake
i see no black and white, only shadow and mist
i see a total mesh infront of me and i have no idea how to avoid it
sooner or later i will drawn in it
and a simple heart will turn into something more complicated

what!!!

"hello.."
"hi, it's me"
"hi!! it's a good thing u call me. i want to tell u something"
"what is it?"
"About my sickness.. actually it's SLE.."
"WHAT??!!!!"
"I'm sorry I didnt tell you from the first time I knew"
"....."

(be brave and i'll keep praying for you...)

another floating voices

what's wrong with blogger?? kenapa style yg bagus2 jadi ilang semua gini sih!! ga seru..!!
anyway, interesting conversations keep on going around you.. floating on your mind from past, present and probably you have something from the future :p

"hey, i like your smile.. u should have it more often rather than the tongue :p "
"really?? thanks!! :) "

"she has everything. i dont understand why she keeps getting involve with a bastard guy"

"do all french guys have a beard ??" [non-france person]
"why? i think they are quite lazy all, so that s why we used to have a small beard" [france person]

"hey, i dont think i saw u go into the 'circle' tonight" (read: capoeira)
"yep, i'm so dissapoint with that.. i hurt my ankle while playing with my dog so i couldnt train for at least 1 year"
"oh no!!"
"yep.. it's bad.. i love it so much i just wanted to jump inside and play, but then i'll probably hurt my ankle for good and i wouldnt be able to play again forever"
"..."

jadwal padat

sibuk sibuk sibuk...
harusnya... mestinya... gue sibuk..
bikin paper... bikin laporan kelompok... belajar buat exam... (ngomong2 exam gue seminggu lagi nih!)
tapi kok gue masih sempat melihat indahnya dunia ya?? :p
masih sempat merasakan love vibration all around :)
bagus donk.. berarti dunia ngga kejam2 amat...
atau mungkin itu cuma di sekitar gue aja??
kalo iya berarti gue mesti bersyukur banget!! ;)

this is just something in my mind.. today...
have u ever noticed that if someone really care about you, you can feel it? just by standing right beside him (or her).. or exchange glances.. without doing nothing but silence..
sometimes i think it's really nice to know... and most of the times it's so scary because u can even feel how much it is. it's just like electric current running straight to your heart.
how would u feel, if u know someone care deeply for u and u can return it as much as that person does?? totally awful.. been there, done that... nice feeling to know that someone cares, but at the same time, it hurts to know you can't care as much as he (or she) does
(untuk seseorang, thanks for being one of my bestfriend, hope u're so well out there)

last night...

last night,
was one of the nicest moments I had with my friends
last night,
i found out that someone who looks though outside, may be very vulnerable inside
last night,
someone said she saw a beginning of a relationship
last night,
someone said, he hates girls!! but then he still couldn't live without one :p
last night,
my angel walk me home ;)

and today,
time to go back to reality...
deadline of everything!! :(

floating voices

kadang percakapan cuma sekedar obrolan, tapi kalau dilihat lagi, bisa jadi ada makna tersembunyi.. if u just let your heart to listen..

"why are u always criticise me? who are u anyway?"
"ok, i will stop doing that"
"no, you wont... you wont be able to do that"

"gilaaa... quarter ini gw full!!! i'm under pressure now"
"santai.. hidup jangan dibikin susah..."

"gue ngga nyangka loe bisa masak kayak ginian (cheesecake-red)"
"emang loe pikir gue ga bisa masak?"
"yep..."

"u know, i have a crisis, so i couldnt work well"
"everyone has a crisis, so ..."

"why you are at home?!"
"im too lazy to go out"
"ok...clear...but unexpected..."
"what did u expect??"
"that you are not that lazy..."

"why you're not in bed yet??"
"what about u?? u're not in bed either"
"what a bad manner to answer by question..."

cuaca hari ini...

mendung di göteborg
gerimis pula malam ini
deadline draft report hari ini
gue dijatuhkan juga malam ini (it's simple actually, i kicked, he lift, and i was down :p)
beberapa alasan yg bisa bikin bete...
tapi hari ini gue senang.. really really in a happy mood..
ga jelas juga sih alasannya :p
just happy for no reason.. i think it's ok ;) dont u think??

sometimes it feels so hard to grow up
like Peter Pan who never wants to grow up
but he has Neverland, what do I have??

baru

new months [april already?? :p]
new hair cut [i like this one so much... :p]
new sun [now is definitely spring!]
new virus in my throat [why now?!! :(]
new quarter at school [started before other programmes do :(]
new task in the class [it's going to be busy and confusing :p]
new pen drive [at last... :p]
and i'm pretty sure there will be new adventure :)

It was...

a nice weather in Oslo on wednesday!!!
so I was lucky... :)
I did a tour around the city... walking, of course... it's cheaper to walk
good for your wallet, but not so good for your feet :(
took some pictures of the palace, church, statues at Vigeland park, etc ...
this is just one of it: (from Vigeland)























nice pic isnt it?? :p want to see more?? check out my friendster :p hehe..
i'm just too lazy to put too many pics on my blog.. i've posted too many recently..
sorry... :(

norway

more than 12 hours in the bus (Gothenburg-Oslo-Trondheim), and finally I arrived in this city
the sun was shining bright on saturday, but sunday was cloudy and snowy, and today is cloudy and rainy
I was too tired on saturday, so I didnt do anything...
I tried the cross country ski yesterday, but it's not as fun as the other type of ski that i've tried in Dalarna (less adrenalin involve, not so fun for me :p)
but still, here's a pic when i was up at the mountain :p

[at Lian, Trondheim]

Site seeing is not really fun when you have cloud and even worse, rain. Especially because you almost can't see anything due to the fog. So, today's site seeing was just fine before the rain started at noon.
this is the pic of Trondheim's famous old bridge...



not so nice pic due to the weather :(















It's really a quite city here.. (and I thought Gtb was quite enough)
Maybe I will have better luck in Oslo on wednesday...


I miss my capoeira... :(

fight the tears...

Finally... I did my exam..
It was more and less okay..
I passed, with still unknown grade..
That's good considering the condition the night before

And we had a little celebration for that (me and my groupmate)
The four of us had a little dinner together
Special occassions are exam and Konstantin's birthday
It was great and fun...!!!
We talked for hours.. and I missed my last tram, had to walk home
but I was saved by an angel with a bicycle
I didn't have to walk, instead the angel fly me with the bike :p
(it has been a long time since I ride on a bicycle.. freak me out a bit..:p)

-------------------------------------------------------
News from back home.. Ririn is quite okay...
She's though!!! and brave...
Thanks for everyone who gave her support and pray :)

Wise words say:

you have to be able to let go off something that you love, because in the end you have to let everything go.

A part of my body is never occurred to me as something that I love because they all are just always there… but think again, and you’ll see that it is…

8^PM until 11^PM Indonesian time, March 16^th 2005
3 hours of surgery for Ririn went well. A surgery to save her leg but ironically had to set it free from her body… She’s still in the ICU now, but I really hope she’d be alright…
I wasn’t there at the hospital, just an sms from Mia letting me know that the surgery is over. The paramedics had the part of her leg wrapped in a fabric and her mother just held it tight. I couldn’t even imagine how sad it was …
I didn’t loose any part of my body and I wasn’t there when the surgery took place, but still, there’s a small creek running on my cheek…

1 day before exam

Books and papers scatter everywhere in my room
there are more books need to be read
but this one, I haven’t finished... not yet...

It’s cloudy outside... occasionally rain shower...
same weather I have inside my mind
for the reason that is not so reasonable

Just wish that I can concentrate on my reading
....

seberapa pantas kah kau untuk kutunggu
cukup indahkah dirimu untuk s'lalu kunantikan
mampu kah kau hadir dalam setiap mimpi burukku
mampu kah kita bertahan di saat kita jauh
(seberapa pantas - So7)

close to tears

I just got news from back home, my best friend condition is getting worst...
and her leg has to be amputated...!! :(( The worst thing that I could never imagine will happen to her...
they said that she will have the operation on Monday.
I want to be there with her.... but it's just too far away...
and I’m so useless here :((
I couldn't think.. couldn't study... couldn't do anything....
I hate this!!!

It just brings back my old memory of her...
I’ve known her since we were kids and she has always been a happy girl
chatty, cheerful and full of energy (I could never keep up with her when we shop together)
back then, we would never imagine something like this will happen to one of us (there are 8 of us)

it's just like a lightning strike...
it's true that we can never imagine what will happen to us... not now, not ever..!
So many proof around me... so many things that I didn't pay much attention before...
I should be grateful for everything that I have for I may not have it anymore later on...
just how can I do that?? have I been grateful enough for what I have??
have I been grateful that I’m healthy? have I been grateful that my family is alright? have I been grateful that I have my best friends?
Or did I just complaining all the time... complaining because it seems like an endless winter? complaining because I don’t have any boyfriend (yet)? complaining because I have so little time and too many things to do?
I don’t think I did that... at least consciously... and I hope that i would never be ungrateful of anything

So tonight, I will light 3 candles for Ririn...
Hope you will be ok... Hope I can come home this year...

look out your window....

sun is shining...
birds are singing...
a couple of squirrels is playing...
what can I say..??!
It's a Beautiful day!!! ;)

and spring is coming!!!!

happy or sad...

semudah membalik telapak tangan
one minute i was happy, the next minute i was sad....

hari ini gue baru aja balik dari weekend 4 hari yang sangat menyenangkan
dan pas gue sampe rumah, gue dapat berita kalo salah satu sahabat gue sakit parah... kondisinya mengkhawatirkan :( hiksss....
and i'm so far away from her!!! :(

Ririn... cepat sembuh yaaa....!!!!!!!!!!!

have fun...

go mad!! ;)
it's weekend!!!!!!!!!!!
finally...!!!

fuiiihh...

hari yang melelahkan...
menjelang satu minggu yang juga akan melelahkan...
ayo!! tetap semangat...!!! ;)

you know...

time is ticking...
hour is passing...
clock is running...
and you still standing...

moving a step...
trying hard not to fall...
walking slow on a thin rope...
hoping for nothing at all...

never ever close your eyes...
straight ahead you must watch...
never fear to look down...
find some cut that need a patch...

Hari Kasih Sayang

kenapa 14 febuari jadi hari kasih sayang??
kenapa 'cuma' satu hari dalam setahun??
menurut gue kasih sayang itu harus setiap saat..

every second in your life to care for someone else
someone close to you or even a stranger
do small things from the heart...
sometimes you wont realize that what you do makes other people happy
sometimes you just do what you think is an ordinary things...
but maybe the other person will think that it's a great things...

right now I'm happy for a lot of small things...
two of them are:
*A postcard from a friend when she went to Denmark
*A call from a friend to tell me to go to sleep because it's very late and I'm still online ;)

.... small things that I know came from their heart :)

Thanks!!!

Yes, you can...

Take a chance, the future's in your hands
Make it what you can before your time has reached the end
(Thank you - the Calling)

My brain..

is running slow today... tonight especially...
too many data stored in the HD??
or am i running out of memory...??
I thought i've already moved some of the data in my recycle bin
and I'm pretty sure that i have emptied it
hemmm....
maybe some more data need to be deleted :p
I'll just do that tonight then :)

What A Day...!!!

so very glad to be back :)
I don't mind if the temperature is minus
I'm just happy...
don't ask me why :p It's too hard for me to explain.. :)

yep,

feels good to be back out there...!!!
(although it's -5 degree)

poem??

I was browsing the internet earlier
and I ended up at a familiar site
There's a poem on it...
New poem...
And I wonder...
For whom it might be for...
Was it in any chance for me?? :)
Lucky me then, since I think it was really good
But I won't know, will I??
'Cause I know nothing about poem
And I can't read people mind :)

.....??

time??? 01:09 AM
place??? my room
activity??? nothing
reason??? i just couldn't sleep!!!!!

did i take the wrong medicine or something... i dont think so...
just when u need to sleep in the right time and the right place... you couldnt!!!
i could just easily fall asleep in my class... or in the tram... or at some presentation...
WHY NOW??!!!!
i'm not feeling well... i need my rest so i wont skip classes again... but i just couldn't sleep...
i've been trying to get to sleep for more than 4 hour...
and now i have a headache because of that...!!!
this is not good.... :(

.........!

ga enak ya kalo sakit di negeri orang....

mengejar matahari...

judul lagu?? betul..
judul filem?? benar juga...
boleh ngga kalo gue bilang sekarang gue lagi mengejar matahari?? boleh lah!! kan suka2 gue :)

matahari termasuk bintang besar di tata surya, jadi boleh dibilang gue juga sedang berusaha menggapai bintang...
mungkin lebih tepat bintang karena bintang lebih banyak dan bermacam2

kenapa baru sekarang?? 'coz life is so short...

bintang ngga mungkin turun, jadi gue yang harus terbang ke sana.
mungkin ngga ya bintang sebanyak itu bisa gue capai semua?? we'll never know until we try...
tapi ada satu bintang... satu matahari... satu2nya...
yang semoga bisa gue capai... with the one and only torch that I have...

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akhirnya...
gue sempat juga 'ngulik' link comment di sini...
ternyata ngga ribet... atau karena ini info dari orang yang berbeda?? :p hehe..
anjuran yang berbeda pernah gue terima dari seseorang beberapa waktu yang lalu, tapi gue waktu itu ngga berhasil2. kemarin ada lagi yang ngasih saran dan dari yang satu ini kok langsung bisa ya... :p hehehe...
kesalahan teknis sebenarnya ada di gue sih karena gue sempat re-install windows dan bookmark gue ilang semua (dengan bodohnya gue ngga inget alamat site yang gue perluin itu)

sebelumnya gue minta maaf karena berarti comment2 yang dulu ada kini hilang sudah (berhubung gue emang ngga tau cara memunculkan lagi di format baru ini :p hehe... payah deh!!)

anyway, hope u enjoy... it will make it easier... buat mencela gue :) hehe...
varsågod!!!

hidup

life is not always easy....
....but it's always beautiful...
in a way....

when you think you're sad, He send you snow to brighten up your day
when you think you're nervous, He send you a beautiful smile to calm you
when you think you're alone, He send you a friend...

kumpul

kemarin abis baca blognya rani... ternyata teman2 gue abis kumpul2...
hiksss... gue jadi kangen!!! pengin jalan bareng... btw, gue masih megang sie transportasi apa udah 'terpaksa' dilengserkan nih??
padahal gue udah sibuk berat di sini... 24-7 masuk pertama hari rabu dan jumat gue harus presentasi... so little time so much to do....
sampe2 gue ga sempat masak ;) hehe... ga sempet apa males ya sebenarnya :p
tapi tetap aja kangen sama orang rumah, sama teman2 gue, sama sodara2 gue...

ngomong2 tentang kumpul bareng teman2 gue...
kemarin gue dapat sms dari teman gue (ardi CS), isinya kurang lebih ngajakin kumpul bareng angkatan di neighbourhood gue. kok gue?? sekedar pemberitahuan apa sengaja biar gue makin homesick??

oya, konfirmasi tentang ardianto... (rani, gue udah nanya lagi... ga ada becandaan kok!!!)

klarifikasi berita: benar
tanggal pelaksanaan: dalam rencana
penyebaran berita resmi: tunggu undangan

outside

Left broken empty in despair
Want to breathe, can't find air
Thought you were sent from up above
But you and me never had love
....... (left outside alone - Anastacia)

Saatnya ku berkata
Mungkin yang terakhir kalinya
Sudahlah lepaskan semua
Ku yakin inilah waktunya

Mungkin saja kau bukan yang dulu lagi
Mungkin saja rasa itu telah pergi
....... (Mungkin Nanti - Peter Pan)

But everyday I'm learning
All my life I've only been pretending
Without me, his world will go on turning
....... (on my own - Barara Streisand)

A

......
who are we kidding here??
we're not going anywhere..
you know that and i know that...
maybe it's just time to end this...
semua ketidakjelasan yang mungkin disebabkan oleh gue sendiri..
mungkin lebih baik kalo kembali aja seperti dulu,
seperti pada saat belum ada rasa apa2...
mungkin itu lebih baik... daripada berlarut2...
i have had enough of "broken to pieces" condition before,
i dont want to get through that again...
.......

kemarin

kemarin....
di negara yang gue pikir udah aman banget, ternyata masih ada aja orang aneh yang mengganggu

kemarin....
gue baru tau kalo anjing besar kesayangan gue di rumah udah 2 minggu ini menghilang...

kemarin....
datang email dari seorang teman lama... same question... masih jomblo?? :p

kemarin....
pembicaraan yang menurut gue penting tiba2 terhenti begitu saja karena dia log off tanpa pesan... sampai saat ini...

kemarin....
I have the chance to talk to someone that I really care. Someone whose sons I care a lot... Hope our conversation helps her in a way

kemarin....
last party sebelum mulai kuliah lagi... I had a great time there :)

kemarin....
teman gue ada yg baru jadian resmi 5 hari... senangnya melihat mereka kemarin bareng :) so cute...

kemarin....
mungkin bukan sesuatu yang perlu gue ingat2 lagi hari ini... let it pass.. dont look back...

today...

pagi ini gue ngerasa ga enak badan..
ada yg aneh....!!
too much exercise?? iya kali yaaa...
rasanya kayak kalo pas upacara bendera dan berdiri kelamaan...
berkunang-kunang... tapi masih setengahnya, belum parah...
heran, ada apa yaa...

first love...

fell in love for the first time when i was 16 years old
and now,
after almost 9 years.... i finally got in touch..

to enjoy
to be a part of
to feel the rhythm

and I will keep it to last... as long as I could...
as long as I'm here... and I hope when I'm at home...

http://www.capoeira.nu

time goes by

it's time..

time to act...
time to stop...
time to let go...
time to decide...
time to move on...

time to be honest... with your self
time to understand... with your heart

time to paint all black...

aku kan menghilang
dalam pekat malam
lepas ku melayang
biarlah ku bertanya
pada bintang bintang
tentang arti kita
dalam mimpi yang sempurna...
(peter pan-red)

masih

tiba2 pengin dengerin lagunya ADA band.. "masih"
gue bukan penggemar berat band itu sih, tapi berhubung lagu itu pernah jadi soundtrack iklan, jadi gampang diingat.. dan gue terus terang, gue lama2 jadi suka lagu itu ;)

lagu itu ga ada di bank mp3 gue, dan gue ampe begging teman gue untuk kirimin dari indonesia. menyedihkan banget sih gue... jaman teknologi gini tapi males nyari di internet :)
gue juga ga tau kenapa tiba2 gue inget lagu itu padahal terakhir gue denger waktu bulan juli atau agustus tahun lalu.. something wrong with me??? kalo istilahnya teman2 sma gue itu namanya KSO2. semacam rumus kimia dari Kelingan Sing Ora Ora :) singkatan yg cukup bermanfaat :p

gue mulai nulis2 yg ga jelas nih kayaknya... sudahlah....

untuk anonymous...

menyambung komentar yg diberikan oleh seseorang 'anonymous' di posting gue sebelumnya...

"Jgn terlalu egois dan juga jgn terlalu analitis. elo memang seseorang yang elo mau. tapi perubahan dari diri lo adalah hasil dari kritik orang lain. Kadangkala perlu berubah untuk orang lain untuk mendapatkan yang lebih baik. karna manusia selalu berusaha untuk mendapatkan yang lebih baik :) "
(Posted by Anonymous to Smurfs at 1/7/2005 03:58:59 PM)

hai!! :) thanks!!!
untuk egois, bisa jadi gue memang seperti itu. tapi untuk analitis kayaknya gue bukan termasuk orang seperti itu deh... or maybe I am?? hemmm.... *thinking*
btw, itu ditujukan untuk gue kan?? :p sorry kalo salah tangkep... ;)

menurut gue kritik memang baik untuk perubahan. tapi gue tetap berpikir bahwa alangkah baiknya kalo loe berubah karena diri loe memang menginginkan perubahan itu sendiri untuk ke arah yg lebih baik. bukan karena 'orang lain' yang menginginkan elo berubah. sesuatu yg datang dari hati pasti hasilnya lebih baik kan?? ;) itu maksud gue dengan berubah untuk diri loe sendiri (previous posting.red). well, itu sih pendapat gue... hehe..

contoh gampang... orang sulit untuk berhenti merokok padahal berhenti merokok adalah jelas-jelas merupakan sesuatu yg baik, untuk diri sendiri, orang lain dan lingkungan. sedikit orang yang bisa berhenti merokok karena 'orang lain'. tapi cukup banyak yang bisa berhenti karena 'dirinya sendiri' alias dari hatinya sudah menetapkan.

tapi mungkin itu memang cuma berlaku untuk gue dan segelintir orang, yang menganggap perubahan yang berasal dari hati itu penting... :)

anyway, thanks a lot.. but please next time pake nama ya.. gue bakal lebih menghargai itu...
(eh atau ga pake nama gara2 posting comment di blog gue terlalu ribet?? :p maap deh kalo gitu... belum sempat2 ngebenerin...)

seputar teman...

ada apa ya di 2005?? di luar berita tsunami..
hanya berita2 kecil seputar teman :)

2 januari 05, (dikutip dari sms seorang teman.. mungkin isinya ga persis sama, tapi essensinya tetap sama)
"si chr**** mau merid awal februari ini. gile gue dilangkahin mulu!!"

4 januari 05, (dikutip dari YM, essensi tetap sama)
= R adalah gue, T adalah teman =

R: udah siap merid nih??
T: baca milis donk!!!
R: jadi udah nyebar undangan nih?? gw ga bisa buka attachment di milis
T: loh kok ga bisa???
R: anyway, selamat yaaa!!
T: belum.. ntar tgl 26
R: iya deh, selamatnya dipending sampe tgl 26. semoga anak loe ga kayak elo ya.. :p
T: hah??!! emang kenapa kalo kayak gue?!!

4 januari 05, (dikutip dari YM percakapan lain, essensi tetap sama)
= R adalah gue, A adalah teman =

A: wooiii, si chr**** merid awal februari
R: udah tau kok
A: ooo.. ya udah...
R: loe kapan??
A: kalo ngga bulan mei ya bulan juni
R: hah?? seriusan loe?? emang ce loe udah pulang dari berlin
A: februari ini balik
R: waaaa... gue ketinggalan banyak acara!! :((

5 januari 05, (dikutip dari sms seorang teman, sekali lagi essensi tetap sama)
"gue baru tau kalo dia bakalan keluar dari kantor.. kenapa sih DIA selalu menjauhkan gue dari cowo yg gue udah ngerasa deket??!!"

FYI:

chr*** adalah teman gue smp.. eh dari sd malahan :) well done!! tipe cowo yg sangat sulit deket sama cewe and akhirnya merid juga. gue rasa itu bagus banget kan :) i'm so happy for him..

T adalah teman kuliah gue... orang paling jahil, yg gue harap anaknya nanti lebih meniru ibunya daripada bapaknya. hehe... selamat yaaa!!! setelah sekian lama... :p

A adalah tetangga gue.. belakang rumah... diprediksi oleh teman2 gue sebagai orang yg paling terakhir untuk berpikir ke arah sana (baca: nikah), tapi ternyata... dia sudah berubah... good for him!!! buat yg lain... relax.. jangan ngerasa dilangkahin yaa :) ga separah itu kok meskipun Ar****** merid duluan :p

sms terakhir dari teman gue cuma bisa gue jawab.. "loe ga bakalan semudah itu untuk tau apa rencana-Nya untuk loe dibalik yg sesuatu yg loe anggep sebagai ketidakberuntungan"

kesimpulan...

everybody changes... hopefully for the better..
dan gue turut senang utk teman2 gue... tapi gue sebel karena bakalan ketinggalan banyak acara!! :( hikss...

buat yg lain... yg merasa belum beruntung... don't be!!
elo adalah seseorang yang elo mau (dikutip dr kamar sebelah.red), jangan berubah untuk orang lain, berubahlah untuk diri loe sendiri. dan jangan merasa ngga beruntung... hal2 baik selalu ada, kalo loe memperhatikan dengan baik..
dan terakhir...

Sesuatu yg tepat untuk diri loe bakalan datang pada saat yang tepat dan momen yang sempurna....

CHEER UP!!! ;)
**untuk beberapa orang teman**

tahun baru

Selamat Tahun Baru!!!
Gott Nytt År!!!
Feliz Año Nuevo!!!
Happy New Year!!!

2005

tsunami

akhir tahun yang kelabu...
baru aja lewat natal yg menyenangkan, sehari setelahnya ada berita tentang gempa di deket sumatera yang mengakibatkan tsunami...
sedih dengernya... korbannya banyak banget dan ga cuman di Aceh :(
jumlahnya masih terus bertambah sampai sekarang karena evakuasi korban sangat sulit.
let's just give a moment of silent for them...
...
....
.....
......
........
.........
...........

membuat gue jadi berpikir (lagi).... kenapa orang masih suka bikin 'bencana' lain padahal bencana alam 'aja' udah berat banget kayak gini... kenapa masih aja pada 'sempet2nya' membuat perbedaan jadi sumber pertikaian.
Differences is beautiful..
(think about it!!!)

libur...libur...libur...

udah mulai libur neh... hari senin ini... sebenarnya sejak jumat kemarin gue udah free karena hari kamis minggu kemarin itu presentasi terakhir di program gue utk semester kemarin. fuiihh... terlewati juga...
sekarang mau ngapain ya liburan?? :p berhubung dukungan finansial ga memungkinkan buat kemana2 (due to the smart decision of buying this device that will support my addiction to be online), ya gue terpaksa tinggal di kota gue ini.
tapi, tadi gue udah memulai liburan dengan cukup menyenangkan :) kemarin turun salju lagi setelah sekian lama.. :) dan semalam gue sempat jalan2 di tengah hujan salju, nemenin Nimbus jalan2 ke hutan belakang rumah (Nimbus itu nama anjing milik ibu kost gue-red)
semoga bertahan lama tuh salju, soalnya gue ga suka kalo mereka mencair dan jadi es :( licin!! trus tadi gue ke kampus main pool sama teman2 gue.. cukup menyenangkan :) hehe...
besok gue mau mengunjungi semacam 'dufan'nya di sini. gue sebenarnya ga tertarik dengan permainan yg ada kayak di dufan itu, tapi gue denger kalo winter agak beda isinya. dan gue dapat kartu free-pass :p won't miss the opportunity, of course... :p

kemarin ada yg sms gue.. cuma ngasih tau kalo 'peter pan' lagi live di trans tv. thanks a lot!! senang aja masih ada yg inget gue :p dan inget kalo gue suka peter pan... gue lagi dengerin peter pan nih ngomong2 :p
bukan berarti yg ga sms ga inget gue loh yaa... tapi emang!! :) hehe.. tapi ga papa, karena gue ga punya banyak pulsa utk balesin sms banyak orang :p yg sms pun belum tentu gue bales... maap yaa... :(

trus hari minggu siang (malam waktu jakarta) gue tiba2 dapat telp... anynomous...!! biasanya sih dari Indonesia tuh kalo gitu.... dan gue jarang banget dapat telp dari home country (rumah sendiri ga masuk itungan loh ya), cuma ada sekali sebelum yg kemarin ini (sekali dan udah lama buangett.. I really miss the voice though). back to the latest phone call.... ternyata Tika!!! it's really nice to hear from you. gue senang banget :) sorry ya tik gue belum telp2 elo selama ini... :(

worst case liburan kali ini... stuck di rumah dengan komputer gue :) not too bad, I guess :p

i dont know

01.23, jam di komputer gue saat ini
I was on my bed, trying to sleep... but i couldnt sleep...
so i just work a bit on the group project.
Now I’ve finished my work... and I still feel that I couldn't sleep although I’m very tired right now.
Too many things going on in my mind lately... (That’s not like me at all...)
usually... i dont think much... just follow the stream...
bad habbit, dont u think?? :p but when I start to think, then things will get really messy...
so I prefer not to think :) but there are too many things that unavoidable to take them away from my peaceful mind right now...
goosshh... I hope this will end soon... I only know one thing that I can do with that... one perfect thing..!! ;)

If I give my heart to u, I must be sure from the very start That u would love me more...
If I love u too, dont hurt my pride... Coz I couldn't stand the pain...

charmed

Baru aja selese nonton Charmed di tv
one sentence strike my thought
"Every moment counts...."

we may never thought about it, but it's true...
'cause every moment counts to do good things, to care for other, to be the best person that u can be for your life and to let people around u know that u love them. we may not live until tomorrow to mend the wounds that we caused for others

citing from an sms from my beloved future sister in law....
"..A box of candies that I gave
Has lots of tastes that often hurt you.."

Maybe I have gave u those boxes of candies...
Maybe I've hurt you in some ways that I didnt realize
It's never too late to say I'm sorry, But I want to say it now 'cause I dont know what tomorrow might be...
"I'm sorry... for everything..."


Just trying to make the best of my life to everyone that enter my path..

sick and tired

judul lagunya Anastacia...
lagi jadi soundtrack gue nih kayaknya.. selain gue emang suka beat lagunya dan suara penyanyinya tentunya...
cuma liriknya... hemm.... jangan sampai gue ngalamin yg kayak gitu :((

2 hari ini gue lagi 'aneh'. biasanya gue emang selalu aneh sih :)
but in the past two days, i always dreamed about my home.
ga cuma orang rumah, tapi teman2 gue juga...
gue mimpi berantem... marah banget sama teman gue krn dia ngejelek2in teman gue yg lain. seumur2 bisa diitung dengan satu tangan saat2 dimana gue marah banget...
ternyata gue malah sampai ngimpiin marah. so weird...
bisa beberapa cerita tu dalam mimpi gue... macem2 banget... tapi pada intinya sih ya tentang teman2 gue... dan orang2 rumah... why??

homesick?? might be... I'm not really sure...
mungkin ada sebab lain?? probably.....
yg gue tau, gue baru ngerasa homesick kalo lagi ga enak badan.. itu pasti!!!
dan emang cuaca di sini lagi kacao balao... winter and snow came too early...
and I have a lot of things on my mind right now... so chaos...


I'm sick and tired of always being sick and tired....

if

.......
If I fell in love with U
would U promise to be true
and help me understand

cause I've been in love before
and I found that love was more...
than just holding hands
.......

by the Beatles

skating

kemarin gue ice skating..
setelah lebaran-an ama orang2 indonesia di sini :)
jadi akhirnya gue tetap makan opor juga deh kemarin :p hehe..

skatingnya seru...!! tempatnya luas banget.. ada 2 field, yg satu khusus buat main hockey dan yg satunya buat skate muter2 aja...
ternyata gue emang udah lama banget ga olahraga.. kaki gue pegel semua sekarang :p
but we had a great time then... meskipun gue hampir jatoh beberapa kali gara2 sepatu skate yg gue pake ada geriginya di depan :p

pernah wondering ngga kenapa anak kecil lebih gampang diajarin sesuatu yg baru?
(hemm...kemarin teman gue bilang kalo waktu dia umur 13 tahun dia bisa ngapain aja, tapi sekarang untuk nyoba skating dengan kecepatan agak lebih tinggi aja dia ga berani)
mungkin sebabnya krn anak kecil belum tau bahaya... yg mereka tau kan have fun dan mencoba sesuatu yg baru... dan anak2 kecil di sini bener2 dibiarkan utk mencoba sesuatu yg baru dan kadang2 menurut gue malahan ortunya ga terlalu ngejagain mereka.

well, next time gue pergi skating lagi, gue mau nge-set pikiran gue biar kayak anak kecil aaahhh :p biar gue berani loncat2 dan ngebut pake sepatu skate :p

foto menyusul yaaaa!! :)

kangen banget.....

lebaran nih!!!! maaf lahir batin ya teman2....
gue tau gue suka iseng, jahil, asal, bikin bingung dan galak kadang2..
maap yaaa..... ;)

sepi juga rasanya lebaran di negeri orang... ga berasa lebaran gue :p
biasanya gue udah mudik ke solo.. ketemu sodara2 gue yg ini nih....
















hikssss..... sediiihhh.... jadi kangen... padahal tadi udah telp ke solo...
tapi yg ada malahan gue tambah kangen dan tambah sedih...
sekarang udah hampir jam 7 nih di indonesia.. biasanya jam segini rumah eyang gue lagi rusuh... orang2 pada rebutan kamar mandi karena jam 8-9an bakalan ada sungkem-an.
huaaa... gue ga ikutan.... :( sediiiiiiiiihhh....
ga bisa sungkem langsung ama eyang gue... bokap nyokap gue....

udah ah!! ntar gue nangis darah sendiri di sini.. lebih ga lucu lagi :((
hikkksss....

meloww

.............
when u're close to tears
remember...

someday, it'll all be over...

one day.... ..............

kenapa neh gue... lagi melow gini...!!! :(
ga lucu ah!!!
konsen woyy...

ngomong2 soal kata 'woy', gue sebetulnya ga terlalu suka pake kata itu. tapi kenapa bisa muncul di blog gue?? :p simple.. karena beberapa teman gue ada yg suka banget make kata itu. disadari atau tidak (taela.. bahasanya donk...), orang2 yg sering jalan bareng bakalan punya gaya bicara, tata bahasa dan model celaan yg sama...
ga percaya?? coba perhatiin deh pas kalian pada ngomong ;)

memory

pulang dari kampus...
buka yahoo... nyalain radio.......
and there it is.... my memory song... hiksss.... :(
udah lama banget ga denger krn tersimpan di salah satu kaset2 rekaman gue yg udah cukup lama gue hilangkan dari peredaran
jadi keingetan jaman dulu.... the good times and the bad times.....

ini sebagian dari liriknya yang gue apal banget...

.......
The memory’s faded
Who gets what they say
It’s likely they’re just jealous and jaded
Well maybe I don’t want to take advice from fools
I’ll just figure everything is cool
Until I hear it from you
........

Ada yg mengenali lagu itu???
anyway, gue mau cari mp3-nya ahhh... :p

roommate

hehe....
ini foto gue sama roommate gue....

waktu itu kita lagi jalan2 ke Gotland,
udah lama banget sih, tapi fotonya baru aja ditranster (please deh....)

buat yg belum kenal gue... coba tebak, gue yg mana??? hayoooo......!!
kalo anda cerdas dan selalu mengikuti blog gue :p pasti bisa dech ;)
goodluck!!!!

party

apa enaknya party??
bisa ketemu teman2....
bisa hang out sampai larut malam...
bisa kenal orang2 baru... (if u're lucky)
bisa dance all night... ( if u're really in the mood to dance)
bisa merhatiin kelakuan orang2 dari yg aneh sampai yg aneh banget... (as long as u stay sobber :p)

ga enaknya apa ya??
capek.... apalagi kalo dance terus semaleman
ngantuk... besok-an-nya kalo diniatin party ampe pagi
ga bisa bangun... begitu udah nyentuh bantal, langsung 'tewas' trus bangun lagi baru beberapa jam kemudian dan setelah bangun loe nyadar bahwa separoh waktu yg ada pada hari itu udah ilang :p

yg gue tau pasti, pergi ke party emang harus pake mood, kalo ngga malah bakal jadi bete.
tapi kemarin gue tetap aja pergi ke party meskipun berasa males.. kenapa ya?? :p kalo yg ini jelas jawabnya, karena gue udah terlanjur janji mau datang... ga enak lah kalo saat2 terakhir batal datang... lagian yg punya acara baik banget sama gue... (serius baik banget!!)
hasil akhir?? gue ga terlalu enjoy tuh... :( ga suka musiknya.... ga ngobrol sama banyak orang krn mood gue udah ga terlalu bagus... dan yg pasti gue ga terlalu ngerti kalo orang2 pada ngobrol karena kebanyakan yg datang orang perancis dan gue ga bisa bhs perancis :p tapi gue tidak terlihat bete kok ;) jadi tenang aja.. gue tetap menjunjung tinggi nama baik almameter gue dimanapun :p hehehe....

danau lagi?? heemmmm :p

hari minggu kemarin gue diajak jalan2 sama ibu kost gue ke danau yg jaraknya cuma setengah jam jalan kaki dari rumah ;) it's a huge lake...!! ada peninsula-nya pula... bagus deh pokoknya :p
tapi gue ga mau nunjukin gambar danau ahh.. gue mau nunjukin gambar musim gugur aja ;) dan gue lagi berpikir... kenapa pohon2 dan tanaman itu bisa survive during winter ya?? mereka dapat makan darimana kalo daun2nya pada gugur?? well, it's the wonder of the universe that God has create, isn't it....??!!!

trapped

how does it feel to be trapped in a situation between ur feeling.. and not want to hurt other feeling??
it's bad... it's terrible... it's so annoying that u couldn't concentrate in any of your task!!
what should I do.... :(
gue ngga suka situasi kayak gini!!!! hikss...
I have to fix it, or at least I'll try, but if I can't fix it.. well... maybe its just something that I have to face in reality... :( the possibility to loose good friends 'coz the problem spreads in every direction that I couldn't imagine

online

Finally.... gue bisa online juga di rumah :)
senangnyaaaaa.....!!!!
tapi kenapa orang2 jarang online yah??? hiksss... percuma donks :(
masa gue chat sama teman2 gue di satu kota. garink donk lama2 :p
anyway, tolong disebarluaskan ya beritanya... gue bakal selalu OL kalo di rumah... offline kalo gue lagi kuliah atau nge-lab ;)

sampai bertemu di dunia maya.....!!!!

sampling day...

TIRED!!!
this is weekend.. I mean its friday...
and not a minute of relax today :(

I have a full day.. 8am until 6pm..
Getting samples from the river... which is not a very nice samples because it smells (we have to take sediment sample from the bottom of the river, and u should know that sediment can come from everything)
and if u think that taking sample is easy... then u are dead wrong!! :p
it's so hard... and to make it even worse... it's RAINING... :(
after taking the sample, we have to do preparation in the lab.
getting the sample ready for tuesday :(
it's FRIDAY... please.... :p we should have a much more relax schedule today..
or not...
because we have exam on monday... (dont remind me, please...)
anyway, I wont have a very relax weekend, I guess... :)
cause I have exam and I havent study much...
so, today is not that bad :) 'coz we also had a great time and some fun during sampling :)

Have a GOOD WEEKEND guys...!!!

deadline

huaa..... deadline statement of intent!!!
panik... agak stress... !!!
krn buaaanyak banget yg harus diberesin
dan kami hanya punya waktu2,5 jam lagi. hiksss...
tapi kok ya sempat2nya nulis di blog ini sih...!!!
katanya sibuk dan stress??? :p
hehe...
prinsip gue... dimanapun.. kapanpun... se-stress apapun...
just ENJOY!!! :)

danau

danaunya bagus ya?? :)
bening dan bersih... itu dilihat dari persepsi kedua sepatu gue yg notabene baru berumur sebulan :p
kebetulan kuliah gue mengharuskan gue untuk jalan2... ambil sampel... dan bertualang ke remote area. salah satunya ya danau ini :p naik turun bukit cuma buat ambil sampel yang harus ditest di laboratorium... dan akhirnya harus dibuat report and presentasi :( kalo diliat konsekuensi dari jalan2 gue itu, kayaknya ribet banget yaa... tapi gue suka jalan2nya!!!! hehe... ini namanya bersenang2 dahulu, bersakit2 kemudian :p

lembur

huaaaa...
gue 'terpaksa' lembur' neh beresin report.. :(
harusnya sih kerja kelompok, tapi mana ada yg mau ngerjain jumat malam begini. yg ada sih pada party semua :( hikss.. sebel...
untung hari ini ga ada yg ngajak gue jalan :p jadi gue agak 'rela' ngerjain tugas...
tapi kayaknya ga bakal kelar malam ini nih :( bisa2 gue bakalan ke kampus lagi sabtu/minggu. sedihnya!!!! :(
maklum ga punya laptop :p kira2 ada yg mau ngasih gue laptop ga ya?? hehehe...
kalo ada langsung aja hubungin gue :p

weekend??

ngapain ya weekend gini??
belanja?? --> ga boleh boros!! harus hemat biar bisa liburan kemana2..
trus ngapain donk...
jalan sama teman?? --> asyik juga sih... tapi cost money... :(
beresin kamar?? --> males amat!! lagian kamar gue masih rapi, ga ada waktu buat berantakin..

heran deh gue... kalo mau having fun ya jalan aja kenapa :p jangan kebanyakan mikir
tul ga?? :)
so, maybe this weekend I'm going to have much more fun then I did in the last weekend :)

Have a nice weekend to all!!! :)

gotlands

Gotland??? itu nama salah satu pulau kecil di Swedia..
nice little island.. ternyata di situ tempat Pippi Longstocking berasal
tau kan?? dia itu karakter cerita di buku yg gue baca pas gue SD ;p
tob abis!!! tempatnya asyik.. tapi pantainya masih keren-an pantai2 di indonesia..
yg jelas gue dapat teman2 yg asyik (thank God!!) dan kelakuannya ga jauh beda sama teman2 gue di jakarta, solo dan tempat2 lain.. sama2 suka saling mencela. bedanya mereka pake bahasa spanyol dan gue ngga ngerti, jadi gue selalu minta ditranslate-in tiap kali mereka ngomong. but it's cool!!!

l o v e

are you nervous of what you'd have to say?
are you worry if there's no news?
does everything look wonderful around you?
do you wake up in the middle of the night just to look up your cellphone and see if there's any msg from him?
do you wonder, will it work out fine or will it just a story that would end and be forgotten?
will you ever understand what love is...??
Is it just a feeling or an arrangement of a system?

It is something that everyone long for..
something not to be understood, but to be felt...
something that makes you understand why flower blooms and the sky is blue...
something that I myself wont understand....

new adventure

Well, here I am...
thousands miles away from home. Di tengah orang2 yg bicara dalam bahasa yang gue ngga ngerti...
I'm in Sweden guys :p baru sampe 2 hari yang lalu... ceritanya sih mau sekolah lagi.. menuntut ilmu untuk kemajuan bangsa dan negara. taelaaa.. sok puitis :)
di sini serba teratur... jam angkutan umum serba tepat... dan di sini cuma orang2 tajir banget yg bawa mobil... hehe.. and yg pasti, summer di sini tetap dingin.. berasa di puncak tapi pas lagi dingin banget...
anyway, ga tau nih gue siap apa ngga... yg gue denger sih bakalan kerja keras banget pas kuliah..
so, wish me luck guys... and I hope that I can still find the time to update this blog...

gerimis

klo jalan kaki, gerimis kecil2 tu menyenangkan.. ga basah kalo pake payung... ga perlu takut kakinya jadi basah karena ujannya kecil2... ga susah nahan payung karena ujannya ga gitu menyiksa buat si payung... dan yang pasti udaranya segar karena debu2nya pada jatoh ke tanah semua gara2 si gerimis kecil itu
Tapi...............
kalo naik motor tu gerimis kecil jadi bikin rese'. Mau pake mantel, tanggung amat... ngga pake mantel pasti bakalan kotor juga karena gerimis kecil2 itu membawa banyak kotoran *mendingan ujan gede sekalian*.
walhasil, tadi pagi gue masuk dengan celana panjang yg penuh bintik2 coklat cipratan gerimis... setengah jam berusaha bersihin ternyata ngga ngaruh juga... akhirnya gue menyerah dan gue anggap hari ini gue saltum (salah kostum-red) karena gue pake celana krem :(

bening

definisi bening???
air sungai di deket rumah eyang gue di jogja
mobil keren yang abis masuk car wash
happy faces :)
kaca helm yang belum baret
innocent eyes of any baby creature (mankind or animals)
senior gue yg kemarin mampir ke kantor untuk interview :p

buntung

I have a dog...
Namanya Buntung karena buntutnya memang buntung
Buntung itu seperti bajak laut bermata satu, badannya besar dan tegap tapi matanya cuma satu yang berfungsi, karena waktu dia masih puppy pernah ketabrak knalpot mobil n harus menjalani operasi untuk mengembalikan bola matanya ke posisi semula.
Ga heran kalo dia tu ngga seimbang pas lari dan lebih sering ngga bisa nge'rem.
Emang nyeremin sih kalo pertama kali liat dan blum kenal.. apalagi kalo dia lagi lari, kesannya ga bakalan berenti n bakal nabrak apa2 yg ada di depannya..
Tapi buntung is a very good companion. Apalagi kalo rumah lagi sepi, terpaksa home alone... (terutama kalo malem), ngga berasa alone kalo ada Buntung... mungkin sedikit seram pas dia lagi melolong :p (siapa tau ada mahluk2 tak terlihat lagi jalan2 di sekitar rumah gue, yang udah pasti banget gue ga mau tau dan ga mau liat mereka :p)
Anyway, di balik tampang seramnya itu dia tetap Buntung yg baik hati meskipun kadang2 keluar juga jahilnya :p (terbukti dari beberapa keset dan sepasang sepatu yg sekarang udah ngga berbentuk lagi)