...

Memang benar, semua yang di luar kuasa kita harus diserahkan pada Nya...

Be strong... Be safe...

Always...

03.18

Kebangun jam segini...

Yang diinget cuma blog sebelah aja

Nungguin update...

Come un fou :'(

Another galaxy

Perhaps it's where I should go now...

Alone if it's required..

I had written more on my other page, simply because I needed to let it out.. :-)

Anjing

Saya percaya bahwa makian tidak menyelesaikan masalah..

Dan saya percaya bahwa orang yg mudah memaki itu jiwanya masih lemah 

:-)

May God help you...

PS. I personally love dogs..

Learning

I am still learning..

To expect less from people to be away from disappointment

To work harder and let go of the result

To give with all your heart and never check what has returned

To say nothing when I have all the words to tell...

Yes, I'm still in the early chapter.. :-)

Siomay

Salah satu jenis makanan yang bisa menggugah selera...

Apalagi kalau yg dibawain siomay yg terkenal enak :-)

Siomay ini dibelinya di rest area km 98 tol dari arah Bandung.. Satu tempat dengan yang jual roti bakar... Roti bakarnya enak juga lho...

Anyway, ini enak bangeett! Sampai pengin nambah kalau ngga inget angka timbangan :p

Thanks Dim!

Things

When something is not working as it used to, maybe it's a sign

Maybe you need to slow down

Maybe you need to remember your promise

It might be a premonition of bad things...

And it can be any technical issues that we can think of...

No one knows for sure...

All I know is I need to not fight it

It's the universe saying "no" for now...

"No" or "Wait"

Good morning good people :-)

Enjoy your weekend...

Blogger error

Kenapa gagal melulu kalau posting..

Cuma satu blog yg bermasalah atau semuanya kah?

Atau aplikasinya ini yang error?

Hmmm..

Kalau ini berhasil keposting berarti ga semua blog yang kena...

Heaven...

Sampai rumah jam segini, liat baby boy masih tidur siang...

Bisa ikutan tidur siang di sampingnya...

:-)

Simply heaven...

Nothing to loose

I think I have let it all go...

So whatever will be, will be...

Conceal, don't feel... 

:-)

Symptomps

It seems that my feet can no longer support the burden...

And the whole body shakes..

And weak...

But those are not to be seen by people

I know that I've been given the strength, but it seems to slowly evaporate each time I got hammered down...

I hope not

My strength is within...

And this physical symptomps mean nothing...

So help me God..

New job?

I just submitted another application and this one seems to fit my qualifications, meaning that I have quite some experience in the area. It's Jakarta based but from what I read, it'll cover the whole country.. Quite interesting post (for me)

Tomorrow I'll have this interview for one post that is based in KL. I like the idea of having a job there but if I think about my little sonshine, I know that it won't be easy to arrange...

Well, I'm sure that He will give me what I need based on what I am capable of handling at the moment...

He won't give me anything that I cannot manage :-)

It's very close to new year now..

So perhaps it'll also mean new start..

We'll see.... ;-)

The old me

I am still my old me..

Cukup

Seberapa kuat kah kita musti berjuang...

Kalau kita bukan orang yang mudah menyerah, apa indikasinya bahwa kita belum menyerah?

How long you will stay strong?

Sampai Tuhan bilang "cukup"

When God says that all our efforts are considered enough, He will twist the situation...

Kuncinya sabar dan rela...

Sabar menghabiskan porsi dalam piring di hadapan kita..

Sabar untuk tidak meraih makanan lain yang belum matang karena akibatnya bisa keracunan atau sakit

Sabar bahwa semua hal itu ada waktu yang terbaik untuk muncul dan dipetik

Rela menghadapi apapun yang menurut kita tidak adil karena yang tahu itu adil atau bukan hanya Tuhan saja

Rela memaafkan apa-apa yang tidak sesuai dengan mau kita.. Kemauan kita kan belum tentu kehendak Tuhan

Intinya, percaya selalu kalau Tuhan ada bersama kita... And that He will carry us when we are tired...

Just believe...

Don't die

Not just yet...

Bebek madura

Terkantuk sangat saat menyetir pulang..

Sempat berhenti pasang lampu hazard untuk ambil permen karet..

Lagu pengiring "terpaksa" didengarkan via hp, yang beat dan pilihannya bisa diulang... Tentunya supaya tidak tambah ngantuk..

Belum berhasil..

Zig zag dimulai.. Mencolek jiwa pembalap supaya mata tidak terpejam..

Cukup berhasil... Sambil nyanyi keras2 lagunya The Fray...

Sampai dekat rumah mendadak pengin bebek madura ini.. padahal tadi inginnya langsung tidur pas sampai rumah..

Makan dulu lah, toh emang ngga bisa langsung tidur karena tugas utama sudah menanti :-)

Have a good evening!

Pendant

I looovee this new pendant (and necklace)

Its shape is like a military dog tags that I do really like

It's a constant reminder that I am a fighter, not a quitter... But also know when it is time to retrieve...

So... This is still my fight until God says that it's time for me to retrieve...

:-)

Ecorun

Lusa saya mau lari lagi...

Kali ini judulnya EcoRun yang menurut info kita akan mendapatkan medali dan pohon.. *grin*

Padahal pohon hadiah dari AceHardware tahun lalu masih belum ditanam dimana-mana...

Siapa tahu dapat pohon jambu air ya ;-)

Yang buahnya manis dan tidak jadi sarang semut...

Lari saya yang terakhir adalah minggu lalu di runway pesawat di pulau kecil itu.. 

Minggu ini belum sempat latihan lari lagi, tapi semoga kaki masih cukup kuat untuk mengejar yang sudah duluan lari di depan :-)

Happy weekend! 

Energi

Ya Tuhan saya ternyata capai sekali hari ini, padahal tadi seharian jalan ke sana ke mari dan gendong si kecil ngga terasa berat...

Semoga  cape-nya bisa berkurang abis diguyur air hangat...

Rainy days and you

That song sticked on my mind few years back, when I got to know someone who loves jazz and also a drummer :-)

As time goes by, I still remember the song and not particularly the person, who was only stopped by for a moment in my journey.. 

A song that just makes me want to dance in the rain...enjoy the smell of rain...and be grateful..

Lari

Tadi pagi saya diajak ikut lari sore keliling runway oleh pak bos yang in charge di gas field ini.. lupakan bahwa saya ngga bawa sepatu lari, kata Pak M ini ngga apa yg penting pake sepatu *sigh*

Beliau-nya ini ternyata juga ikutan shell race run 2 minggu lalu, tapi yang di Surabaya, jadi nampaknya semangat sekali ngajak lari...

Pheewww... Harga diri ni.. Musti lebih banyak lari daripada jalan kaki :p 

Tapi saya masih bisa beralasan karena lutut kanan memang masih terasa sakit ;-)

Nah tadi siang sepulang dari cek kondisi lapangan dan masih menunggu konfirmasi dokumen spesifikasi..

Saya: "gimana pak?" (Maksudnya bicara ke pak W yang lagi mencari dokumen)

Pak M: "hayo, lari sekarang?"

Saya: "loh bukannya nanti sore?" *ini panas terik dan berdebu pak*

Pak M: "oh iya, nanti sore. Sekarang lari dari kenyataan aja maksudnya.. Kenyataan lagi diaudit" 

Haduuuh bapak ini... Semangat bener...

*siapin decker lutut dan hp utk foto2 di runway*

PS. Hari jumat sore memang salah satu jadwal lari mereka

Connection

When you have limited connection to your significant ones... You're willing to try anything..

That includes leaving the phone ON and  hoping that the wifi connection can somehow reach this room.. Blown by the wind, perhaps... :-)

Misunderstood

I do sometimes do stupid things which I don't realize that it can hurt someone else...

This insensitivity had got me into fights...so many times that I loose count..

This time is different...

Thank you for the laugh and understanding :-)

Good night universe...

Selamat ulang tahun eyang jogja..

Today's supposed to be your birthday..

And you'd be exactly 99 yo

...

....

.....

Happy birthday eyang

May you rest in peace...

Fun run

It turned out to be quite fun..

Kenalan dengan teman dari teman yang entah kenapa langsung bisa klik..

He had injured his ankle but he said it's fine now and the angkle wrap was just fashion...because it looks cool :p that sounds familiar for me...

I did not run the whole route

I ran half distance and then walked the rest of the route

The pain in my knees were getting worse and I was afraid that I might had leg cramps if I pushed too hard on them.. (And I had no one to watch me..)

So I walked to the finish line, got the finisher medal and lantern..

I had it lit with my best friend and we sent them off to the sky..

I forgot to put my wishes on the lantern though, it should be this:

Anyway, we had them flown away by the wind and then met up with my friend and her friend (the new guy)

This morning I woke up to a beautiful tiny face, with my sore legs... It's when I woke up the second time today ;-)

The first was just like a dream...

Happy Sunday!

Hujan

Sore ini hujan, ngga terlalu deras.. Tinggal gerimis yg tersisa..

Sepertinya mulai hujan sejak saya tertidur siang tadi dengan perut yg dijadikan bantal tidur oleh si kecil..

Mimpi saya bikin cape.. Penuh pencarjan kesana kemari yg tidak jelas obyek tujuannya..

Terakhir sebelum bangun saya ditawari liburan bersama keluarga yg dari tadi menemani pencarian (entah siapa mereka) ke karawang (duh ada apaan pula di sana) dan sepertinya saya tolak..

Random...

Mimpi yg masih akan berlanjut tanpa kejelasan kalau saja tidak ada yang bilang "ibu, ini sudah jam 3"

Saatnya bersiap...

Malam nanti saya mau lari 5 km lagi, fun run kali ini.. I hope it's going to be close to the fun that I had last week :-) the fun that I carry in heart...

Too much

I learn from my whole life that having anything too much is not good..

No good to your body nor soul...

Yes, perhaps it was too much

For awhile it seemed to be just enough

But someone has once said that it's like drinking salt water, it will thirst you more..

And it's not good to your body and mind..

Too much salt water will eventually sicken  yourself...

But it's your choice and your call :-)

In 20 years from now

Where will I be?

Will I still be alive?

And what would I be like?

Whom would I be with? Surrounded by love ones or stranded alone?

I'll never know until this date in 2034..

I will see the answer then... 9th of November 2034

May God blesses us all..

Race

Hari ini mau ikutan race, event lari 10 km

Sadar diri sih, jadi cuma ikutan yang 5 km aja...

Udah latihan lari lhooooo..

Tapi kok ya deg-degan masih aja...

Race-nya malam ini jam 7, tapi dari bangun pagi tadi udah berasa

Pengennya cepet2 nanti sore :p

Tapi kalau dipikir2.. Deg2annya dari kemarin malam sih :-)

Free fall

Don't let me fall and hit the ground

I've been there once and it hurts much...

Less painful though from the other fall that I've been into, but still it hurts...

So I've stopped believing in "ever after", Until it proved otherwise...

Alert button

When some things just annoy you too much, I think it's better to leave them

I like what I do now because basically I like doing something useful to others..

I think this is quite useful to the environment and also to our country..

But it becomes annoying when the system they have does not support this good faith and when this so called system only cares about profit in the form of money..

Either I just try to be patient until this system's retired, or I can find another system that can get along with my way of thinking

Perhaps I should just do social works...

*sigh*

*rasanyagatambahpinterdisini*

3.51 km

Running and mostly walking...

I forgot that today is Tuesday, a working day where people do their activities very early...not like Sunday :-)

So I reroute after too many cars and motorcycles went by...

Not bad though, considering I was too lazy at the start :p

Galau pagi

Lari...engga...lari...engga...lari...engga...

Kemana ni semangatnya untuk latian lari?

Jalan kaki aja deh ngga papa...

Hmmm...

Tapi kaki masih sakit semua. :p

Nah kan bikin alasan...

Hufff... 

Password...

Duh... Apa gunanya inget password kalau loginnya lupa :p haha...

Suka lupa kalau rambut mulai putih :D dan memori jadi seadanya...

Buzzing mind

Too busy with my mind that I didn't notice the same uniform in the same café that I sit...

Ah... I thought I have given up being jealous and suspicious

I thought nothing can hurt me anymore when it comes to him

I thought that having been at the lowest will put me on my strongest state

But this small status did distract me...

Ah... I miss my old me...

Ulat matahari

Ini rasanya seperti kena bulu ulat matahari..

Iya, masih di tempat tattoo tadi..

Perih, panas dan gatal bercampur aduk...

Ga berhenti2 rasanya...

Hukum sebab akibat :-)

Maaf ya bu udah ngga nurut....

Apa kata ibu..

Ibu saya dulu pernah bilang:

"Mba, ngapain sih tindik telinga banyak2, ga usah aneh2, jadi orang itu yang sederhana aja ngga perlu ditambah ini itu"

Di lain waktu percakapannya seperti ini:

"Bu, aku bikin tattoo yaaaa" *sambil senyum jahil karena tahu pasti ngga boleh

"Husss.. Kok neko2 tho mba.. Ga usah lah.." (Artinya sama aja ga boleh aneh2)

Saya pernah nekat bikin tindikan tambahan di telinga, ngga berapa lama bekas tindikannya sakit jadi giwang tembaknya saya lepas dan tindikannya nutup lagi...

Tu kan... Ngga nurut sih sama ibu.. :p

Beberapa minggu yang lalu, saya pasang tattoo temporer karena saya pikir toh saya sudah dewasa, bukan niatnya juga untuk aneh2 bergaya2...

Tattoonya sekarang mulai memudar... Menyisakan ruam merah yang sakit dan sangat gatal di sekitarnya

Ga lagi2 deh sepertinya coba2 pasang tatto temporer... Untung bukan permanen, sakitnya kayak apa nanti :D

Lagi2.. Ga nurut sama ibu sih... :-)

My first run

After forever that I can remember :-)

In another galaxy

"We belong to each other", said the Sun to the Moon

"But here we have our purposes, for the good of this world", Moon replied

"Not here, in another galaxy. Where one sun and one moon may embrace each other..", explained Sun

"This galaxy seems to be unreal. But, I will meet you there, somehow..", Moon smiled

Sonshine

When u have kids, they are your world... Your everything...

Or at least for me, my baby boy is my everything..

Not so much of a baby now but he will remain my baby forever :-)

He had fever last night.. Refuse to take in food or water since yesterday.. Luckily, he still obeyed when I said he needed to finish his milk..

2 glasses of milk today and no food, he was so weak.. And so depressed when I told him that we need to see the doctor, just to make sure nothing's serious..

So we went... With him in my arms..

The doctor said that he is fine so most likely the cause is his rotten teeth which cannot be treated yet because of his fever...

I made him listen clearly to the doctor that he needs to eat to get better, and so he did...

He refused to eat perhaps because of the tootache, so it's noodle soup for him tonight..

He ate not so much, just 10 teaspoons of noodle... Took his medicine and he said he wanted to watch dinosaurs in youtube in my bedroom...

So he did...

After 5 minutes, I can hear him roar like a dinosaur... This roar that said he felt  better. My happiest time of the day :-)

Few spoons and he gained his strength back...? Yes.. He is that kind of kid that when he looks weak, it means all of his strength has gone... 

If he has just the tiniest strength, it'll show...

By the way, he just sang and danced on the bed.. ;-)

Thank you Lord..

Unfair

If you think life is unfair to you,

Please look back and see what you have done to life...

I believe in theory that you should not pinch if you don't want to be pinched

So this is not about how I feel...

But how to do things right... How to do life right to make sure that life treats you kind :-)

Surely we'll never know what tomorrow may brings, but hope of better and happier tomorrow is based on what you do today... 

This is me, my poker face and the great wall I built within my heart..

Happiness is within... Just remember that...

Good morning world, let me have my sleep now...

Butterly effect?

I've written about this almost 10 years ago..

Chaos may happen with one flap of the wings...

Just read something that got me thinking

Is it for real that one can give such effect to other one?

And what if the effect is vise versa, in some different levels, of course...

It's like reading fairy tales or novels :-)

I guess perhaps fairy tales and novels are taken from real life too...

Well, to conclude:

Anastasia Steel, I feel you... 

In a mild level, it's almost like having Mr. Grey around :p

Forever

By Chris Brown

Of course I'm still listening to Boyce Avenue's acoustic version...

I'm releasing my heart and it's feeling amazing...

I need my slow dance.... forever....

Waiting

Is not my favourite activity...

*how to save a life - acoustic version by Boyce Avenue*

This is one of my favourite songs by The Fray which Boyce Avenue did a great acoustic version of...

I read that this is actually a sad song of losing someone to death, but I still love it.. Because losing someone not to death is more painfull.. At least for me :-)

Ah, I wish I have a piano...

These fingers are getting stiff...

Bye... For now?

I do agree that saying goodbye is harsh..

I used to say "a tout l'heure", means see you in awhile.. Or "vi ses", means we'll see each other...

But I say "daagh" which literally means goodbye. However in my language, you don't say that to a person whom you are not expecting too see soon.. So basically, you say it to someone close... :-)

Baju

Udah lama ga ribet mikirin "pake baju apa ya?" :-)

Am I ...

Becoming one mistake

For making it so misserable to deal

Am I ...

Too ignorant to see what it may cause

I said what I said, not because it's an escape...

Just that...

That's me... And what my simple heart says...

Platonic

New word.. For me, at least...

One very nice person introduced this term during discussion..

And it said that it is non-physical...

Does the term correctly apply or is there any derivation? 

Our discussion did not actually reach to a conclusion :p

Blog walking

I've been kind of going around my old posts lately.. Someone very nice had done something that somehow trigger me to do it.

Reading all of them reminded me that I have been high and I have been low..

I had my ups and my downs.. Big time..

But somehow I cannot deny that all of those people whom I met, who had become the subject of my writing, who had kept my hand stucks on the keyboard... All of you people... are great persons...

Thank you :-) :-*

And for someone who are still watching me and my blog (although I have not been writing a lot), Thank you... May your life is full of happiness as I have always wanted it would be..

Dry lips

It's a mixture of peace yet worrying

Warm yet troubleing

Just happy somehow...

Thank you :-)

I think

That I miss you...

Storm

When the storm hit you once, you can still try to fight it again

When the storm hit you twice, you still can try to fight it again while knowing the risk of not survive in doing so

But when the storm hit you for the third times, it is only natural to retreat and reroute....

Almost 2014

Tomorrow is 2014 already. 

Time flies..

Seems that I haven't done much this year, but His blessings are always there..

Let's do my resolution later..

Insomnia

Couldn't sleep although it is all I need to get rid of this headache :'(

Well, got me to write here though... 

Long time without any good writing or small piece of my mind.. 

Somehow I feel that I will write more from now on.. We'll see...

Anyhow, let's try to close this eyes for awhile because tomorrow is going to be a loooong journey back home..

(Sengkang-Wajo, South Sulawesi)

Maybe

It was just too much of a dream come true...

Decision

Can I just say that I'm beat and tired?
Am I allow to say I want to have a break?
Or perhaps since it is my own decision then I should just swallow everything?
Well, maybe...
I don't think I can say "I quit"

Temperatur minimum

Lagi audit power plant di ketinggian + 1,800 meter. Dingin!! Mau tidur jadi keingetan kamar di skillnadsgåtan ;-) dengan heater pas2an :p memorable indeed...
Maybe someday I can visit that house again with Christin :-)

New year

It's 2013...
May it be better than 2012
Hope I'd be stronger than ever
Wish that smiles and laughters are all around us...
And may God bless us always... Amen

Empty

I guess I should prepare for the worst

Everyone has the right to be happy
So please God, put a smile on his face, for whatever cost I'm willing to take...
Make me stronger and constantly remind me that You are always there for me ...

Just want to fly

And forget those annoying feeling
Forget that I still can feel a pain
Forget that happily ever after is only in movie....

Happy is for you to work on

Another december

And I got numb, a wrecked again.
The whole year was not easy and it is still not better for me.
I was a positive person... But maybe it has changed and I want my old self back with me...

Just a simple life... A simple happiness... A simple me!

Can I have that luxury again?

2nd year

No one noticed, but it's our 2nd anniversary... A lot has happened, even the worst...
Hope that none worse than that shall happen in our years ahead...

I'm alive

And (hopefully) have moved on ;-)

Imperfect world

When you are spending much time in your comfort zone....
When all around you seems to be naturally perfect....
You tend to forget that life ain't so..
Until one day when reality struck you, pull you down to your lowest dream and sink you into an endless tunnel of worriness and fear..

I knew that because I was there (well hopefully I was and not I am ;p )
Anyhow, no matter how hard you fight everything with your own strength, it will all come back to how close you are with God and how much you believe in Him that all mess is nothing but for the good of you...
At least it will give you peace of mind... And that is all that I want in life...
Peace in mind and in heart...

So help me God....
;-)

2012

New year
New hope
New life
New job

May God bless us always...
Happy new year dear friends!!

Sahabat sejati...

Tidak akan pernah bisa melukai sahabatnya sendiri...
Tidak akan meninggalkan sahabatnya, dalam susah ataupun senang...
Tidak egois...
Selalu menghormati sahabatnya...

Married couple should a true bestfriend for each other...


*for me and my best friend, be strong girl! *

Desember 2011

Sepertinya jadi saat terberat buat gue...
Semua ujian muncul dari awal bulan ini
Kejadian yang di luar dugaan pun ada
Terpukul? Sangat...
But maybe I do deserve this...
I'm staying because God stays with me 'til the end..

D-3

Ha! I've never felt this nervous for an interview before ;p well maybe not nervous, but I just really want to know the result, that's all...
No no, it's not cheating... But it seems that getting this job may lead to a better and organize life, our life ;)
God knows better of what I need so I should actually enjoy the process of waiting :D don't u think so?

Which one?

What u want is not always what u need..
What u'll get is your need
So hopefully what I want is what I (we) need...
Pengeeeeeeen.... :p
I miss working...

Apple

Kalau dulu pernah posting blogging dari blackberry (jaman blackberry belum ngetrend ;p), sekarang coba pake OS 5 ah.... Ipod n wifi :D
Makin mudah aja ni akses... Tp waktu utk blogging jg semakin berkurang *nguap* Arka sudah tidur, saatnya tidur juga.... Mudah2an bisa bangun pagi utk berenang ;p (doubt it! Haha...)

journey with Arka

hohoho...
it's been a very long time that I've not written anything here...
in short, the baby was born on his 37th week through a caesarian sectional procedure. A healthy baby boy!
We had some  problem during our first months because we found out a bit late that he has tounge-tied problem.
Anyway, those stressful days had passed :) we made it through!
He's 6.5 months now. Healthy, cute (if I'm allowed to say it because all babies are cute!), and gaining weight more each day.. I love him! We love him :)
I've spent all those months with him and I was lucky that I didn't have to work (blessing in disguise that the company I worked for was having an internal restructuring and I was released for that reason...)
Now, I'm ready to get busy with the business again ;) we'll see where I'll work next...

week 36 to 37

This is my 36th going to 37th weeks of pregnancy.
It's getting closer and closer... and in my case it's very close because I'm having this so called Placenta Previa, in which the placenta is blocking the birth path. So, the way to deliver the baby is to have a surgery, a caesarian section procedure. The procedure is quite common nowadays and it's not as scary as it used to be as the doctor will only make a small cut to get the baby out

Thing that really needs to be taking care of is that I shouldn't experience severe contraction prior to the operation because it will harm the placenta. This is what's difficult. Why? Of course! Because I won't know when the contraction will happen and how. With the baby getting bigger now and with the age of pregnancy getting older, it's natural that I get some contractions as a result of the baby is reaching toward the birth path and the womb's getting ready to get him out :) but I can't have too much of it... :(

So now, I'm monitoring the move of the baby (he can't move too much as this may also harm the placenta, but he shouldn't move too little as well - so confusing! :D), the contraction that happen, and anything else that I experience. Luckily, I'm already starting my maternity leave so it'll be easier for me to do that because if I'm still working, I tend to forget that I need to monitor the baby - doesn't mean that I don't love you when I'm working baby... ;)

Anyway, I'm enjoying it... and we'll see what happen...
Wish me well!! ;)

mencari nama --- finding ne(a)mo(e)

finding a name for a child is not easy... I knew it already...
but knowing it and actually going through it, is actually give you different sense
all parents wants to give their children good names, of course...
so the search begun...
some start by determining the language... some by origin...
some people look around themselves to see a figure with good personality, heart, etc, and use the name - basically in a hope that the child will follow the footsteps of that good person
some use the internet...
some use the announcement of the "UMPTN" -- this is quite a story itself :)
some ask for their parents advices - or even ask their parents to name their future grandchild

me and my husband? what do we do? what happen to our process?? :p

I didn't really think of a name before last month, but time surely passed by so fast!! so we need to find a name soon...
my husband had already suggested some names, but I still had not given any at that time...
what I don't want is to give the same name as the name of my friend's children - if I obviously know their name, then I prefer other names. It's just that many varieties are better than just one variety, don't you think so? :D
also, I try to avoid that the name can be used as a joke - although, joke can come in many ways, so this is just a prevention that may not succeed... :p
what else, I want to give him a last name -- got it! :p

and I've suggested a middle name now!!! :D he likes the name, so I think we'll keep it
the homework is for the first name... any suggestion?? ;)

with no intention of joking about this process, we do laugh a lot when looking for a name... not because the names that came up are ugly or anything, but if we look at it, it's a fun process despite of its difficulties!

So... let's hope we'll get a good, proper name... that reflects our hopes and wishes for our child :)

For anyone reading this who's also looking for names... Good Luck!!

ngeblog berbobot?

sudah lama saya tidak menulis sesuatu yg "agak" berbobot di sini :p
lack of time.. lack of energy... you named it.. all the reason is available for it :)

kali ini.. sambil menunggu download yang tak kunjung  selesai - belum lagi install dan mengerjakan pekerjaan dari hasil download-an itu, rasanya perlu juga nge-blog :p

so let's get to the next title now.....
"mencari nama"

just found out

that blogrolling is no longger available?!!
well... I guess that will be alright :)

hey it works!

I tried to blog some days ago and did not manage to post anything..
Either there was something wrong with  blogger or my laptop is getting old :p (it is!)
Anyway... it's my 28th week this week... :) time flies... ;)

pitbull

Watched a film about 2 dogs and a cat this morning...
One of the dog is a pitbull and looked like Melan...
I miss her... :)

Goodbye Melan

Just two days ago I lost my dear dog.... Melan...
She was trying to jump over the fences, as she always did... but the leash was too short so it took her to her final resting place...

She's my only dog that I took care of from a puppy...
She almost died when she was 2 months old...
her siblings died, running out of blood because those Necator worms sucked up their blood... She was dying too...
I had her everyday on hand for medicine and food, and promised myself that I will take good care of her if she survive... and she did...

She became a healthy dog of no fear (except of me :p), full of energy and no trace of feeling any pain what so ever... This last one of course because she's a pitbull which is known as dog who understand no pain.
She had a several bloody fight with her big sister, but she didn't feel a thing... And it was just left me screaming seeing all those blood from both dogs...

She's not easy to handle sometimes, but she understood me or any other member of my family when we were sad or not in the good mood...
She seems to try to cheer everyone up every time she has the chance... even my little niece who's not yet 2 years old... Anyone would see it as frightening scene to see a small child with a big dog like her... but she won't ever harm her... it's a proven fact...
I won't cover the fact that she's quite stubborn as well.. especially when it comes to cat... -wonder if this cat vs dog will keep on going forever-
She's also quite naughty and is able to destroy many many things at home... :p
BUT... she's also afraid of the thunder... :)

She'd be 5 years old next year... A grown up at the human age...

I was supposed to take her from my parents home to my own house after the marriage, but there were several reason why we're not able to do it... One of them is that I was not in a good shape to handle an energetic pitbull during my first trimester...
I believe that everything happens for a reason.... even this incident...
I believe that there was reason why she survived the Necators and was there by my side for almost 5 years...
I believe that her presence in my family has given each one of us a memory to remember... a good one... and that we also learn a lot from it...
I believe that it's her time to leave us now...

Farewell Melan... Be in peace....
You know I'll love you always...
And I shouldn't shed a tears again now because I did that on the day you died... endlessly...
I know that you can understand why I'm not supposed to be sad anymore
I'll tell him the story about you when he's born later... I'm pretty sure he'll love you as much as I do...

week by week

Wow!! It's October already... I have left September empty... just like that.. :p

Baby news...
Everything seems to be fine... still copping with the vomiting, although it's getting much better now
Although there are still some days when I just have to vomit so hard that it feels like I'm emptying my stomach, and then collapse the next day - not literally :p, but just feel very weak. The good side is.. it's manageable now... I don't feel weak all day like before because I can always eat better in the afternoon after those bad days..

The doctor said that the baby is moving actively inside.. well, no wonder I feel quite sick.. someone is jumping around inside my stomach and you don't expect yourself to get sick?! please... :D *kiss baby kiss*
I've always been a sleeper... sleeping anywhere and anytime...
but with the baby, it's just getting worse... more and more!! haha... so fun!! :))

Work update...
I can work from home and come to the office twice a week, or more if needed :D this is nice, considering my condition last month ;) I have to admit that I'm a bit slow with work now... but I'm trying hard here...
Not so easy to work and to vomit at the same time :p but I get a lot of support from my husband... (love you!)
He drives me to work and pick me up again if I need to be at the office, and if you may not know, but his office and my office is very far apart... an hour drive if you're lucky... - since my office've just moved to another building which is located in the center of traffic jam!

Gossip update...
hmm... I'm a bit isolated from this one :p
we'll see if I can write anything this October and if anything is interesting enough to be written :p

strong baby

Wow... this is new to me!!
I'm getting myself weak for a baby!
Never thought that I'll be this weak when I have one, but this surely drains up all my energy... So I guess the baby is a strong one... ;)
Please stay healthy dear baby and help me keep up with your needs... :-*

B'day

hey! I missed my B'day on my blog. That rarely happens... :p
I'm 31 years and 5 days old now ;) haha...
With all the things happen lately, I forgive myself for not writing anything on my blog :p
Lack of time, lack of sleep, lack of many things... but on top of those things, I'm very happy :D

If you remember my post about resolution here, it all comes in stages... eventually...
A house, a dog (coming soon), and next one... :p
Let's hope everything is going to work well for me, that I'll always be healthy and strong to take this next one ;)
May God bless us always.. amen...

ps. Chris, I may not able to visit you on April if this one comes through, but wish all the best for me please :)

one by one

this resolution is truly realised..
step by step...
with all the hard works and all the efforts ...

We are now officially married... :) 26 June was our day.....
We now live in a small house, near a water channel (not in front of it though like what I've drawn before :p), and I'll bring Melan soon to our little house... And who knows what will be next... ;)

Let's hope our day and our way will always be blessed by the Owner of the Universe...

mendadak melow

kenapa yaaaaaa....???
it's less than 2 weeks already!!!
time goes by so fast :)
hope everything will be okay...

counting down starts now...
at 10...

menghitung hari

ternyata udah kurang dari sebulan ya...
cepet juga :p
sejauh ini masih lancar...
pusing? pastinya...
berantem besar? kejadian juga... hiksss...
senang dan gembira? itu sih udah ga perlu ditanya lagi ya... :)

above all, I'm happy...
happy that God blesses us always, in all the things that we did...
happy that we have a great family and friends...
happy to know that it won't be another easy journey, but it will be a journey for the best of us together... for both of us to bring what's best inside...


happy to count the days... when it won't be you or me... but it'll be us...

blogging

time goes by so fast...
and I've been blogging for almost 6 years!!! :p
9 days from today, it'll be exactly 6 years.... :)

lots of tears of sad and happiness
lots of smiles and joys
lots of unpredictable things that I didn't know will happen
and those are just tiny trace of my life, as I will embrace a new chapter.... soon.... ;)

what's going on?

haven't blogged for quite a long time...
no time to do it when I'm connected to the internet with my laptop, but my blackberry doesn't seem to cooperate when I feel like blogging... I wonder if it's because of the internet browser version in the device *sigh*

Anyway...
what's going on?

...
....
.....
......

I'm engaged now ;)
as per today, that is...

(never thought that I'll finally get to that stage, huh? :p me too!!)

it's been a while and life's not getting easier... ;)

tu me manque...

beaucoup...
de plus en plus...
mais tu es tres occupe... je sais...

so I'm grateful for tonight...
that you've spent it with me...
and for tomorrow...
that you'll spend it with me again...
and for every time God says it's okay for us to spend time together :-*

and February went by without a trace...
but I know that I'm truly blessed...

reality bites

Have you ever been laid off?

It has never occured to me that I would experience that...
But here I am...
With a news coming from our own COO that our office is going to be closed, thus all employees working there will have their contract terminated.

Hey, I'm a permanent employee here! But if there's no office then permanent or contractual term will only differ in the package. Still... Jobless is the title for both...

It's not the work...nor the money... It turns out that I care more about the friendship that grew in the office.
I'm the kind of person who believe that God will never abandon me (us), so I'm not worry about what I'll do next...there will always be something to do to pay the bills :) I just need to work harder to get it ;)

I spent a couple of days in a very moody atmosphere... Cloudy...and a bit dark...
What I'd miss the most are the colleagues that have become my friends, good friends...
Everyone will split out, find each own way to continue living...
Damn, I'd miss you guys a lot!!!

I'm sure I'll come across you guys in the future, but I'm really going to miss all the laughs, fun, gossips, and the presence...

All starts well should ends well...
So let's give our best for these last days...
And good luck for all of you!!

berhitung

Tambah... kurang...
Kali... bagi...
Banyak sekali angkanya...

Shock!!
Kok bisa banyak?!
Ngomel sejenak...
Gimana caranya bisa berkurang?!

Menyerah...
Berhenti meneliti...
Nanti saja dipikir dan dilihat lagi...

Tapi... Kok pipinya basah?!!
Karena hasil berhitung atau karena alasan menghitungnya?

Jangan sedih sayang, semua akan baik-baik saja...

*for the one*
-thank you-

comment deletion

Remember I said that I'm using a new tool for the comments? Yes it's in here
But after awhile (5 years to be exact), they decide to remove their free services.
I've looked around the net to see if I can import those comments into the new blogger comments, but I found nothing.
So, since I'm deleting the script to that tools, all comments posted will be gone from the blog and you can't check them (I'd still have those though, and I'll import them back someday when blogger give its suggestion :p )

A friend told me that it will be like letting go off the past (she's just deleted her blog).. Maybe she's right :)
One resolution to be done...

Have a great day everyone!

hello 2010

It's more than 2 hours after the changing of the year... And I'm still not able to sleep yet..
Why do I grow the habbit of having insomnia on my holidays?!! Not so fun although I can stay in bed until afternoon..

Resolution 2010:
- hurting less and loving more
- working harder but sleeping tighter
- more patient and less anger
- talk less and action more
- braver and worry not

A bit high on the expectation to get all those things :p but I'll give my best shots!!

Now I need to let go...
All the bind to the past, all the story that shouldn't last, all the hurts and joy that got in the way, all of the doubt and reason that shouldn't be kept...

Welcome 2010, I'm greeting you with my smile... on my face and in my heart...
Let this year and the years to come become the time of happiness, peace and comfort to everyone...

Cheers!!

another birthday of you

With me...

Happy birthday dear...

low battery

2009 sering banget lowbatt...
Tekor power-nya...
Kenapa ya???
Semoga 2010 diberi energi yang berlebih...
Jadi ngga sering lowbatt...kayak sekarang ini :(

natal

Joyeux Noël à vous qui célèbre!! ;)

Resolusi 2010??

Hehehe...
Do you think it's manageable??
We'll see...

In any case, God will only give the best ones in our lives, as long as we keep close to Him and never give up trying... :)

UP (La Haut)

This movie (disney-pixar production) was released few months ago, but I've just seen it... the french version with no subtitle (haha.. you can imagine that I understood very little).
But beside my limitation to get all the conversation in the movie, it was a good movie.. good story... about a dream.. and to get the dream come true... (hmmm, I seem to be keen of this kind of movies a lot)

It started when the main character was just a child and met his "wife to be" in an abandoned house (in which the girl was imagining that she was on a plane).. Funny scene.. :)

Nice smile.. before he was down from the 2nd floor to the 1st...

And this is the book of her dream of adventure... which soon became his as well..

(ooopps.. sorry, this is the french version of the movie.. It said "My Book of Adventure")

The book contains her dream to go to South America and have a house in this place... (at that high edge near the water fall)

When they got married, they bought the abandoned house and make it theirs.. lovely house..

and started a new life together..
they had happy times and also sad time when they found out that she couldn't have a baby, but he stayed beside her and they started their childhood dream again together.. a dream of adventure..
(really love the part when he was there for her...)

In short, no matter how hard they tried to save some money to go to South America, there were always other things to tend to. Until she got really ill and passed away with her dream...

Then... the adventure begun... he chased their dream for her...
and got to the place.... with a house and thousands of balloons...!

and more adventures of course... (just watch the movie if you're interested)

It's touchy, funny and entertaining...


Kind of makes me want to start my own "livre d'aventure" with him... tôt
And make our dreams come true... like they did...

500D

dari masih bermimpi....
akhirnya kesampaian...
dibolehin ber-SLR lagi...
huhuhu...
senangnyaaaa!!

makasih sayangkuu...!!

abis ini nabung lagi untuk yang satu itu yaaaa.... :-*

hop hop hop

1...
2...
3...

JUMP!!

Ease all your worries and fears for it means that you're loosing your trust in Him ;)