Buzzing mind

Too busy with my mind that I didn't notice the same uniform in the same café that I sit...

Ah... I thought I have given up being jealous and suspicious

I thought nothing can hurt me anymore when it comes to him

I thought that having been at the lowest will put me on my strongest state

But this small status did distract me...

Ah... I miss my old me...

Ulat matahari

Ini rasanya seperti kena bulu ulat matahari..

Iya, masih di tempat tattoo tadi..

Perih, panas dan gatal bercampur aduk...

Ga berhenti2 rasanya...

Hukum sebab akibat :-)

Maaf ya bu udah ngga nurut....

Apa kata ibu..

Ibu saya dulu pernah bilang:

"Mba, ngapain sih tindik telinga banyak2, ga usah aneh2, jadi orang itu yang sederhana aja ngga perlu ditambah ini itu"

Di lain waktu percakapannya seperti ini:

"Bu, aku bikin tattoo yaaaa" *sambil senyum jahil karena tahu pasti ngga boleh

"Husss.. Kok neko2 tho mba.. Ga usah lah.." (Artinya sama aja ga boleh aneh2)

Saya pernah nekat bikin tindikan tambahan di telinga, ngga berapa lama bekas tindikannya sakit jadi giwang tembaknya saya lepas dan tindikannya nutup lagi...

Tu kan... Ngga nurut sih sama ibu.. :p

Beberapa minggu yang lalu, saya pasang tattoo temporer karena saya pikir toh saya sudah dewasa, bukan niatnya juga untuk aneh2 bergaya2...

Tattoonya sekarang mulai memudar... Menyisakan ruam merah yang sakit dan sangat gatal di sekitarnya

Ga lagi2 deh sepertinya coba2 pasang tatto temporer... Untung bukan permanen, sakitnya kayak apa nanti :D

Lagi2.. Ga nurut sama ibu sih... :-)

My first run

After forever that I can remember :-)

In another galaxy

"We belong to each other", said the Sun to the Moon

"But here we have our purposes, for the good of this world", Moon replied

"Not here, in another galaxy. Where one sun and one moon may embrace each other..", explained Sun

"This galaxy seems to be unreal. But, I will meet you there, somehow..", Moon smiled

Sonshine

When u have kids, they are your world... Your everything...

Or at least for me, my baby boy is my everything..

Not so much of a baby now but he will remain my baby forever :-)

He had fever last night.. Refuse to take in food or water since yesterday.. Luckily, he still obeyed when I said he needed to finish his milk..

2 glasses of milk today and no food, he was so weak.. And so depressed when I told him that we need to see the doctor, just to make sure nothing's serious..

So we went... With him in my arms..

The doctor said that he is fine so most likely the cause is his rotten teeth which cannot be treated yet because of his fever...

I made him listen clearly to the doctor that he needs to eat to get better, and so he did...

He refused to eat perhaps because of the tootache, so it's noodle soup for him tonight..

He ate not so much, just 10 teaspoons of noodle... Took his medicine and he said he wanted to watch dinosaurs in youtube in my bedroom...

So he did...

After 5 minutes, I can hear him roar like a dinosaur... This roar that said he felt  better. My happiest time of the day :-)

Few spoons and he gained his strength back...? Yes.. He is that kind of kid that when he looks weak, it means all of his strength has gone... 

If he has just the tiniest strength, it'll show...

By the way, he just sang and danced on the bed.. ;-)

Thank you Lord..

Unfair

If you think life is unfair to you,

Please look back and see what you have done to life...

I believe in theory that you should not pinch if you don't want to be pinched

So this is not about how I feel...

But how to do things right... How to do life right to make sure that life treats you kind :-)

Surely we'll never know what tomorrow may brings, but hope of better and happier tomorrow is based on what you do today... 

This is me, my poker face and the great wall I built within my heart..

Happiness is within... Just remember that...

Good morning world, let me have my sleep now...

Butterly effect?

I've written about this almost 10 years ago..

Chaos may happen with one flap of the wings...

Just read something that got me thinking

Is it for real that one can give such effect to other one?

And what if the effect is vise versa, in some different levels, of course...

It's like reading fairy tales or novels :-)

I guess perhaps fairy tales and novels are taken from real life too...

Well, to conclude:

Anastasia Steel, I feel you... 

In a mild level, it's almost like having Mr. Grey around :p

Forever

By Chris Brown

Of course I'm still listening to Boyce Avenue's acoustic version...

I'm releasing my heart and it's feeling amazing...

I need my slow dance.... forever....

Waiting

Is not my favourite activity...

*how to save a life - acoustic version by Boyce Avenue*

This is one of my favourite songs by The Fray which Boyce Avenue did a great acoustic version of...

I read that this is actually a sad song of losing someone to death, but I still love it.. Because losing someone not to death is more painfull.. At least for me :-)

Ah, I wish I have a piano...

These fingers are getting stiff...

Bye... For now?

I do agree that saying goodbye is harsh..

I used to say "a tout l'heure", means see you in awhile.. Or "vi ses", means we'll see each other...

But I say "daagh" which literally means goodbye. However in my language, you don't say that to a person whom you are not expecting too see soon.. So basically, you say it to someone close... :-)

Baju

Udah lama ga ribet mikirin "pake baju apa ya?" :-)

Am I ...

Becoming one mistake

For making it so misserable to deal

Am I ...

Too ignorant to see what it may cause

I said what I said, not because it's an escape...

Just that...

That's me... And what my simple heart says...

Platonic

New word.. For me, at least...

One very nice person introduced this term during discussion..

And it said that it is non-physical...

Does the term correctly apply or is there any derivation? 

Our discussion did not actually reach to a conclusion :p

Blog walking

I've been kind of going around my old posts lately.. Someone very nice had done something that somehow trigger me to do it.

Reading all of them reminded me that I have been high and I have been low..

I had my ups and my downs.. Big time..

But somehow I cannot deny that all of those people whom I met, who had become the subject of my writing, who had kept my hand stucks on the keyboard... All of you people... are great persons...

Thank you :-) :-*

And for someone who are still watching me and my blog (although I have not been writing a lot), Thank you... May your life is full of happiness as I have always wanted it would be..

Dry lips

It's a mixture of peace yet worrying

Warm yet troubleing

Just happy somehow...

Thank you :-)

I think

That I miss you...

Storm

When the storm hit you once, you can still try to fight it again

When the storm hit you twice, you still can try to fight it again while knowing the risk of not survive in doing so

But when the storm hit you for the third times, it is only natural to retreat and reroute....

Almost 2014

Tomorrow is 2014 already. 

Time flies..

Seems that I haven't done much this year, but His blessings are always there..

Let's do my resolution later..

Insomnia

Couldn't sleep although it is all I need to get rid of this headache :'(

Well, got me to write here though... 

Long time without any good writing or small piece of my mind.. 

Somehow I feel that I will write more from now on.. We'll see...

Anyhow, let's try to close this eyes for awhile because tomorrow is going to be a loooong journey back home..

(Sengkang-Wajo, South Sulawesi)