tu me manque...

beaucoup...
de plus en plus...
mais tu es tres occupe... je sais...

so I'm grateful for tonight...
that you've spent it with me...
and for tomorrow...
that you'll spend it with me again...
and for every time God says it's okay for us to spend time together :-*

and February went by without a trace...
but I know that I'm truly blessed...

reality bites

Have you ever been laid off?

It has never occured to me that I would experience that...
But here I am...
With a news coming from our own COO that our office is going to be closed, thus all employees working there will have their contract terminated.

Hey, I'm a permanent employee here! But if there's no office then permanent or contractual term will only differ in the package. Still... Jobless is the title for both...

It's not the work...nor the money... It turns out that I care more about the friendship that grew in the office.
I'm the kind of person who believe that God will never abandon me (us), so I'm not worry about what I'll do next...there will always be something to do to pay the bills :) I just need to work harder to get it ;)

I spent a couple of days in a very moody atmosphere... Cloudy...and a bit dark...
What I'd miss the most are the colleagues that have become my friends, good friends...
Everyone will split out, find each own way to continue living...
Damn, I'd miss you guys a lot!!!

I'm sure I'll come across you guys in the future, but I'm really going to miss all the laughs, fun, gossips, and the presence...

All starts well should ends well...
So let's give our best for these last days...
And good luck for all of you!!

berhitung

Tambah... kurang...
Kali... bagi...
Banyak sekali angkanya...

Shock!!
Kok bisa banyak?!
Ngomel sejenak...
Gimana caranya bisa berkurang?!

Menyerah...
Berhenti meneliti...
Nanti saja dipikir dan dilihat lagi...

Tapi... Kok pipinya basah?!!
Karena hasil berhitung atau karena alasan menghitungnya?

Jangan sedih sayang, semua akan baik-baik saja...

*for the one*
-thank you-

comment deletion

Remember I said that I'm using a new tool for the comments? Yes it's in here
But after awhile (5 years to be exact), they decide to remove their free services.
I've looked around the net to see if I can import those comments into the new blogger comments, but I found nothing.
So, since I'm deleting the script to that tools, all comments posted will be gone from the blog and you can't check them (I'd still have those though, and I'll import them back someday when blogger give its suggestion :p )

A friend told me that it will be like letting go off the past (she's just deleted her blog).. Maybe she's right :)
One resolution to be done...

Have a great day everyone!

hello 2010

It's more than 2 hours after the changing of the year... And I'm still not able to sleep yet..
Why do I grow the habbit of having insomnia on my holidays?!! Not so fun although I can stay in bed until afternoon..

Resolution 2010:
- hurting less and loving more
- working harder but sleeping tighter
- more patient and less anger
- talk less and action more
- braver and worry not

A bit high on the expectation to get all those things :p but I'll give my best shots!!

Now I need to let go...
All the bind to the past, all the story that shouldn't last, all the hurts and joy that got in the way, all of the doubt and reason that shouldn't be kept...

Welcome 2010, I'm greeting you with my smile... on my face and in my heart...
Let this year and the years to come become the time of happiness, peace and comfort to everyone...

Cheers!!

another birthday of you

With me...

Happy birthday dear...

low battery

2009 sering banget lowbatt...
Tekor power-nya...
Kenapa ya???
Semoga 2010 diberi energi yang berlebih...
Jadi ngga sering lowbatt...kayak sekarang ini :(

natal

Joyeux Noël à vous qui célèbre!! ;)

Resolusi 2010??

Hehehe...
Do you think it's manageable??
We'll see...

In any case, God will only give the best ones in our lives, as long as we keep close to Him and never give up trying... :)

UP (La Haut)

This movie (disney-pixar production) was released few months ago, but I've just seen it... the french version with no subtitle (haha.. you can imagine that I understood very little).
But beside my limitation to get all the conversation in the movie, it was a good movie.. good story... about a dream.. and to get the dream come true... (hmmm, I seem to be keen of this kind of movies a lot)

It started when the main character was just a child and met his "wife to be" in an abandoned house (in which the girl was imagining that she was on a plane).. Funny scene.. :)

Nice smile.. before he was down from the 2nd floor to the 1st...

And this is the book of her dream of adventure... which soon became his as well..

(ooopps.. sorry, this is the french version of the movie.. It said "My Book of Adventure")

The book contains her dream to go to South America and have a house in this place... (at that high edge near the water fall)

When they got married, they bought the abandoned house and make it theirs.. lovely house..

and started a new life together..
they had happy times and also sad time when they found out that she couldn't have a baby, but he stayed beside her and they started their childhood dream again together.. a dream of adventure..
(really love the part when he was there for her...)

In short, no matter how hard they tried to save some money to go to South America, there were always other things to tend to. Until she got really ill and passed away with her dream...

Then... the adventure begun... he chased their dream for her...
and got to the place.... with a house and thousands of balloons...!

and more adventures of course... (just watch the movie if you're interested)

It's touchy, funny and entertaining...


Kind of makes me want to start my own "livre d'aventure" with him... tôt
And make our dreams come true... like they did...

500D

dari masih bermimpi....
akhirnya kesampaian...
dibolehin ber-SLR lagi...
huhuhu...
senangnyaaaa!!

makasih sayangkuu...!!

abis ini nabung lagi untuk yang satu itu yaaaa.... :-*

hop hop hop

1...
2...
3...

JUMP!!

Ease all your worries and fears for it means that you're loosing your trust in Him ;)

and so it is

I knew then that it won't be easy...
I knew then that it'll drain out all the strength I have...
I knew then that I may not have what I want...

But I've given all I've got,
Be as best as I could've been,
Went through all from tears to laughter,
For something that feels right...

But the journey's not ours to have for now...
Not yet, if I may say so...
But let's just wait and let the time tells...

Will it be or not be...

the girls

I should've written this last weekend while the feeling lasts... :p
We had soooooooo much laughs together last saturday!

It started with me wanting to get myself busy by spoiling myself and trying something new for a change...
So I was thinking that I've never been to a spa before :))
Not so surprising as I'm not into that kind of activity much (hairdresser is just for cutting my hair and doing hair spa/creambath is not something that's done once a month - have it done for once every 4 or 6 would be good already :p )

Anyway, as I like to try something new when I have free time, so I thought that I really should go this time
Searching in the net for the nearest natural "branded" spa, well known for its herbal ingredients, I found one quite close to my house
You see, if I'm going to try this, it has to be in a proper place with high quality..
Why?
Because if I don't like it, then I won't think of trying other place as I've tried one of the best and dislike my experience there..

And soon after I got the idea, I've another idea to drag along my best friends to that place :)) - and like or dislike the new thing together :p
We've been friends for ages and although they occassionaly come for hair treatment etc, they're just like me and we are still the "tomboy" girls of our childhood in a way (but I'm the worst of everyone as they've stopped climbing trees while I still do "boys" activities even now).
This time, I'm not asking them to do wall climbing with me :p so I'm pretty sure they'd be interested (either way I'll get them there somehow!! :p)

In short, I've got them poissioned with my idea!!! GREAT!!! :p

Ok, so it'll be girls day after all...
We went to the spa, each got different treatment as preferred which made us not talking to each other.
It was a fun experience (might coming there again when we have cash :p), however the best come after...

All the way since we we're out from the spa place, what we did was just... LAUGHING...!!!
To all our stories, good time, bad time, and worst time...
To all our mistakes...
To trying new thing... (this goes especially for me from the spa :p)
To all regrets and lessons...
Pointing out mistakes that happened for not listening to the other advices...

Basically, just laughing hard at our lives :))

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It's always fun to be reminded of the ups and downs of your life with laughter...

So Thank U girls...!!
Shall we make this "girl day" regular??! (And yes, next time we do it after paycheck is in the pocket :p )

janjimu

Tertunda cukup lama...
Membuatku kesal...sampai akhirnya cuma bisa pasrah...

Will you keep your promise and be true to your words?
Will you fail me or be brave enough to do it?
Are you sure you really want it?
Do you have second thought?

Semua pertanyaan akhirnya tidak perlu dijawab...

All things happen for a reason
All decisions has its own purposes in life
All that shall happen is for the best of life, once you are sure that you've given all you can to gain the best...
So I need only to wait... In patient... (Quite hard if you'd like to know... :p)

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Hari ini janjimu terpenuhi

Was it difficult?
Was it hard?
Did you get cold feet?

Pertanyaan yang tidak perlu juga dijawab

You've done what you've promised me to do, so we'll see what's next...

Anywhere....

Dear my love, haven't you wanted to be with me
And dear my love, haven't you longed to be free
I can't keep pretending that I don't even know you
And at sweet night, you are my own
Take my hand

We're leaving here tonight
There's no need to tell anyone
They'd only hold us down
So by the morning light
We'll be half way to anywhere
Where love is more than just your name

I have dreamt of a place for you and I
No one knows who we are there
All I want is to give my life only to you
I've dreamt so long I cannot dream anymore
Let's run away, I'll take you there

We're leaving here tonight
There's no need to tell anyone
They'd only hold us down
So by the mornings light
We'll be half way to anywhere
Where no one needs a reason

Forget this life
Come with me
Don't look back you're safe now
Unlock your heart
Drop your guard
No one's left to stop you now


-by Evanescence-

converse merah part 2

Memang menyenangkan!

Everything's as estimated yesterday..

Plus... I had a good progress with my project (cross my fingers all will go as planned), I had a lift to go meeting my friends at PP, I had good meals...

Ditutup dengan menyenangkan juga oleh jemputan si pacar...!!

I know u're really tired and extremely sleepy and the traffic was horrible because of the rain, but u still came to pick me up :-*

Sleep tight my dear...

Ce soir, je sais combien que tu m'aime.... Beaucoup!!

converse merah

Rasanya cape banget hari ini...entah kenapa... Udah ngga inget juga kapan terakhir kali berasa cape kayak gini...
Need to lay back and feel my bones crush.. :)

Besok sepertinya akan menyenangkan...mungkin lebih cape dari hari ini, tapi rasanya akan menyenangkan...

I won't be with Cuplis tomorrow... (Kena tilang euuy!! Trus tiketnya ketinggalan di kantor.. Hehe.. Clumsy as I should be :p )

Mau naik bus!!! Senangnya bisa nambah tidur sejam di bus :p semoga alarm-nya masih berfungsi jadi bisa bangun tepat pas di belokan deket kantor...

Will be wearing my red converse shoes...!! Semoga ga dicegat satpam gedung dan dikira anak ilang...

Mau ketemuan sama anak2 Swedia :p hope it'll be fun...

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Naaaaah...pulangnya gimana ya... :p
we'll see... Anyhow, it should be fine and fun ;)

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Now let's get myself some sleep... ;)

if only I could turn back time...

If my time is not that long...
I wish not of time to be turned back...
I will wish my childhood wish...
That I shall be a good person...
That I shall not be a burden to any of whom I care the most...
That I would able to show my love and attention more...
That I would able to bring happiness...
That I could be one of those good memory...
And finally, that I could be a useful person for my surroundings...